Rewarding

Rewarding =P

Hahaha...turns out the horoscope for the month of august was true after all! It said that one of my rewarding days is 31st Aug. Which is today. Rewarding coz: Had a tiring but FUN canal walk (^^). Some parts of the ground were muddy and we nearly slipped. Quite disgusting, but hey, it's fun! Hid and me walked with our bags...hahah, quite silly lah, but we love our bags too much. *hoho*

Ber head got cut out from pic..haha!

We talked about movies. There is this movie called 'Secret' recommended by David. It's about this guy (Jay Chou), who learnt about a secret piano piece that can transport him back in time to

be with this gal. Catch: Nobody but the gal can see and talk to him, aka, he is like invisible to the rest. Dilemma: he can't go back to his present bcoz:

He will get killed by this big demolition ball used to tear down buildings ( the piano was in a sch that's being torn down). Quite a sad love story...hehe..

Gosh..at the end of the day, the gifts were not presented to the teachers...more than half the class pon today, so can't give the card. Can't find the other two teachers, and all of us seemed to be in a hurry to meet some appointments somewhere.

The concert this year rocks! There was a glitch near the end: the balloons cannot be released from the net...all of us were waiting for the balloons to float down..haha. Whoo! Most of the songs rocks! Hahah! 'The way I are' by Timbaland! I love that one! Omg, there was this one performance by this group of 4 gals. Two of them, when they bend forward, their bra and cleavage can be seen! Hid was saying that the guys in the front row got free-show. Waliao.

PLEASE MAINTAIN THE WAY U DRESS, GALS.

There is this costume competition...and OMG! There's Urahara! And Naruto! And Kakashi(?)! And Shino! And Alucard! And MIB! When we saw Urahara and Naruto, we went crazy like hell! Hid was like "WHOOOOOOOOOOOO!" And i was like "...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...."

U can even see Zorro at the furthest left. Urahara was the one with the green stripey hat. Naruto is the one in the orange shipuuden get-up. Cool man!! =D

Mr Hiap with his Patrick Star....Lols.

First time i saw the uniform for pj cheerleading. Not bad i guess. Black, red and white is a nice combination of colours. The gals are so damn brave to fall from that height man! Heheheh.

Happy BIRTHDAY Pathma!!!! hahahahahahah...old! Granma! But a cool granma huh! Joking joking....ahahah...really joking ah...dun get angry! Not good for blood pressure!

Azu came back! So funny! Everybody was like going back to their secondary schs or going home, and she came all the way here! Aw man, dun worry, next time we all go out together k Azu...

September

September

I love September. LOVE it. Haha. Libra. HAHA. Yea man. Woohoo. Don't matter that i'm a Virgo. It's still September!! HAHAHA.=DDDDD

During the long break yesterday, Jie Min nearly gave it away. Close call man. Phew. Phew again.

Today is Teacher's day.

Got a new phone. Sony ericsson w880i.

Love it man. But the keypads, as i discovered soon, was quite small...darn...but the rest was superb. No black...Black was really beautiful! So i took silver. I think i'll have to get a memory stick. THANK U MAMA AND AYAH!

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself. Your near future is in a very different place (both physically and mentally) from where you are right now. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Dream Interpretation

Dream Interpretation

In some past entry, i wrote about a recurring dream, about me flying. That was the most vivid dream of all in terms of visuals and sensations. So i scoured the web to interpret it and this is pretty interesting:


Night
Darkness. Mystery. Unconscious contents. There is a mystery that you want to penetrate.
In my dream, it was night.
Black
Black signifies isolation and transition period. It shows up conflicts and friction with relations and friends.
Roof
Protection. Covering. Ready to break free and expand your limitations.
I was standing at the near edge of a tall roof, and could see other HDB flats below.
Star
Celestial object. Self-luminous. Spiritual awakening.
I looked up and there were many stars.
Wind/Windy
Sensory overload. Stimulation. You re feeling overwhelmed and tired.
I took a deep breath, and the smell was refreshing, and there was a breeze.
Arm
Strength. To dream of seeing an arm, means victory over enemies but family quarrels.
I spread out my arms on both sides.
Hand
Capacity and competence. Expect big work ahead, meanwhile must take better care of own affairs.
I spread out my fingers and hands.
Neck
To dream about any neck, denotes your present feelings of jealously and resentment. It involves emotional problems involving a friend or relative.
I arched my neck upwards, closed my eyes and breathed.
Skin
This dream is related with sensitivity. Keep calm and think carefully before you make any major decisions.
I could feel the breeze.
Flying
Combination of control and freedom. Power. Success in all enterprises.
White wings sprouted out from my back.
Back
Unconscious. Jealous people are against you and there is opposition in love.
White
People feel they can rely on you. You have an abundance of energy and vitality.
My wings were white. The stars were shining...white?
Hair
Attraction and sensuality. If you dream of hair means that you are careless in your personal affairs and will lose advancement by neglecting mental application.
My hair was long and untied, and when i was flying, it doesn't obstruct my view.
Shoulders
Strength or burdens. Although you may be cheerful at the moment, there are problems and worries around the corner. Fortunately they will resolve themselves.
I flexed my shoulders and gazed at my wings.
Smiling
Pleasure. Affection. Joy. Looking for something that makes you happy.
Before i was flying, i was smiling, and was so contented. When i was flying, i felt a rush of adrenaline and supreme joy.
Travel
Journey. Freedom. Change. Change in attitude.
Flew everywhere: into homes, past walls, into the sky...
Window
Opening. Opportunity. Feelings of being watched.Need for privacy.
Flew past a window.


There may be a dream that has kept each and every one of us fascinated, intrigued and perplexed. =)

Rain

Rain.

Wet, cold day.

Sloshing water.

Shoes soaked and foaming.

Drenched skirt. Car zooming past.

Cold. Toes. Fingers.

Heart.

Freezing.

Looking. Futile.

Struggle...

Breathe...

Laugh. Smile. Warmth.

Fleeting salvation.

Outside. Grey.

Skeins of rain.

Slide open window. Peered.

Cautiously.

Still raining.

In my heart.

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O gosh...what a depressing prose. Created in impromptu...unleash whatever was in my heart at that moment. My handphone is really dead i guess. Lifeless. No more flashing lights from smses, no more music from calls. No more Photos! =(
The rain did it.
I'm not sure whether my parents will be buying me a new one. I feel very guilty about always spoiling stuffs that they give. So guilty. These things are not free. They cost them money, which could otherwise be saved. But in today's society, a handphone is a Must gadget. Guess i'll just do what they wish...goodbye my samsung handphone......................................


Gosh...i really like this band called M2M. The lyrics..yep, i know they're too lovey and all that...but hey, somehow, i can relate to what the song is trying to say.

"Why" by M2M

Aw...God help me. Save me. Now.

M2M

M2M- The Day You Went Away


Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time


Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do



Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away


I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces



And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have againI know,
I guess I really really know


Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I've been missing you so much
I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away




Omgosh. Such a emo love/heartbreak song. Haha...dunno why i liked it even. -_- Zz

Gastritis

Gastritis

Oh no, what have i done unto myself? Too late for regrets. Just get on and deal with it. Be strong! Yeah!It's really painful: u feel like you've got a minor headache all the time. And you've got no appetite at times to eat even though u're hungry. Haha.

Declaration: I have never written so much bullshit in a test paper before. I'm referring to the pe soccer theory test. I might as well close my eyes and just put A, B, C or D. It doesn't matter, i'm gonna flunk it with flying colours. Hurrah. At least there's a practical. Does it make any difference wether i pass or fail? Hm..let me think...NOPE.

Wahliao, the bio test on pro and eu was another killer. Should never take any test from 6pm onwards man...have to answer tough questions while dealing with the pain in my stomach and in my head. Felt like dying. No mood to stay back night study. Went back with Shahidah...hehehe...and someone was a few feet walking infront of me! So happy! So many eye contacts (happy!), and caught so many times recently. Making me depressed. *downpour**emo music*

Tomorrow is nisfu sya'ban. Lina fasting. Hehehe, kept forgetting it, and kept talking bout food.

Watched the Inconvenient Truth during Gp. It was so damn depressing to see where Earth is heading to, that the barrage of the facts slammed about in my brain, and i was tempted to simply close my eyes and forget. In other words, sleep. Al Gore was fantastic. Some people choose to call this worsening of the condition of the Earth a sign of the impending Apocalypse of the World, the nearing of Qiamat.

Prayers keep me from worrying too much.

Promos are coming! Rachel told me this morning that repeat students can't fail even one subject.

Oh well.

And Hidaya told me it will be the fasting month during the IHG, and i'm in for Ultimate Frisbee.

Oh well.

Live and let live. Whining won't change anything.

Been pretty busy lately. And so lethargic. Losing hair. Have faith. As long as my mind is not lost =P.

Family Day carnival

Family Day Carnival

Met Iz at the bus stop around 9.30 am. I dunno why, but i felt that the carnival is a bit boring...My sis seems to be having fun though. Haha..

Around 10 o'clock, adib joined us. Loitered around, found some ex-schoolmates, asyikin, azizah, farah etc. Saw Wan Sin!!! Hahahahahha!! I felt like a dwarf standing next to her. Hm...avoided the teachers...coz i'm in no mood to talk...Don't know what's wrong with me today...Then the stoopid guy adib saw mr leong, my bio teacher and form teacher, and called out to him. Lucky he turned and didn't really see me, coz i was edging away..Around 11, me and iz decided to go home.

Halfway back, Sham called me and asked me to accompany her go cckss carnival. Waliao! So tired, but must go lah, for her sake...Then around 11.30, she called me and said she couldn't make it...I felt so sian! Haiyoh...

>.<

Around 2, my family, along with my fiqahs' are going to a malay wedding! My distant cousins' one! Usually, i felt lazy to go to these kind of functions, but i anticipate this particular one. Why? Hmm..i dunno! *laughs crazily*

Maybe something will happen? I meet a friend there? Or?*maddening*

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men. You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

Your Expression Number is 3

A natural performer, your destiny lies in writing, speaking, acting, or teaching.Imaginative and unique, you have a natural creative talent in the arts.You're also a natural salesperson. You can easily sell your ideas and yourself. A total optimist, you are enthusiastic about life and living.You are friendly and social - and people are taken by your charm.Your role in life is to inspire, motivate, and raise others' spirits. At times, you can seem a bit superficial.Sometimes you're a bit unfocused and too easygoing.You're best off when you don't dwell on trivial matters, especially gossip.

What's" Your Expression Number?

You Are 12% Fake

Fake doesn't even come close to describing you. You're totally natural, and proud of who you really are!

Are You A Fake Girl?

Your Life Path Number is 5

Your purpose in life is to life freely and collect experiences. You love life - new adventures, new people, new ideas. You are very curious, and you crave novelty in all forms. You tend to make friends easily, and you enjoy the company of all types of people. In love, you are fun and even a bit intoxicating. But you won't stick around for long. You are impulsive and spontaneous - which sometimes leads you to do things you regret. Sometimes you can be overindulgent with food, sex, or drugs. You have many talents, so many that you are often scattered and unfocused.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

Your Life is 57% Off Track

Right now, you're taking things one day at a time. Some things are going well, but you can't help but wonder if you're getting the most out of life. It's time for you to slow down and reflect a little. You can change your life - but it's up to you!

Are You Living The Wrong Life?

Blood Diamonds

Bloody Hell

Blood. And more Blood. Blood Diamonds ROCKS. It's so engaging. Yep. The movie started off with guns and parangs and people killing their own kind...a true bloodbath. The scenes were so real, i thought i was seeing a live footage. A lot of raw emotions packed into it too. I could discern all levels of love-a father's love for his son, a man's love for a woman, a human's love for wealth and power.

It's rare that i cry when watching a hollywood film, i stopped that when i was in sec 1. It's not that i didn't feel anything. It's just that i prefer to cry inside and talk about it outside instead. But Blood Diamonds was really REALLY good. Never felt like this when i'm watching a movie for a long time. Could hear hidaya, lina, and iz shedding some tears. Many of the scenes were REALLY tear-inducing. And the sad thing is, these incidents are still going on now, today, there, in Africa.

Disturbing.

Exhausting.

Enthralling.

Touching.

Depressing.

Exciting.

Warning: Vivid, gory images. Tender moments too. U might just be touched deeply, emotionally.

I'm gonna thank God for the life i'm given. And I'm gonna pray (no, not for world peace...this world can never taste peace...that is called imabalanced: there must be sad, bad stuffs to happen for some good to be born) for the deliverance and happiness of the innocent souls that had moved on to a (definitely)better place.

Pj should have more of these kind of enrichment..it's really enriching...just have a better class arrangement the next time =X heheh.

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Bye bye Qis!"Cute" is not an undesirable adjective to desribe a 17 yr old gal...it's cool. Hehehe XD

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Wistful dreams about u.

Somebody changed his school bag to a black sling.

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There's cckss carnival tomorrow. Not confirmed if i'm going or not...haish....

Looking forward to the next

Much Ado About Nothing

Much Ado About Nothing

I'm not guilty. Wahahaha...Later on watching Blood Diamond. Haix. Somebody's in the library now. Hehehe.

What happened to us? Why can't we be like last time when we're all happy friends with each other? Nothing lasts forever i see it now.

Ciao.

hello U

Hello You.

I should ban mp3. It makes me emo the whole day. Or maybe it's just me. Maybe it's just today.

Hehehehehehehehe.

I found a friend in U. =) hearts.Bumblebee =)

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Pe was frisbee! super tiring coz u got to run north and the next second, run south. Wah! Can't wait for the IHG! Fun man! Games are so cool! Why can't we have games for pe instead of runninG???

Azu popped by for a visit! Hehehehe...spent a few hours laughing like hell...some things never change =). I pray that it doesn't.

Omg, i realized that economic geo is REALLY REALLY not tailored for my brain. I can't understand a shit of it...so sad..everytime during lecture, i tried my damnedest to stay awake. I end up yawning, with red, watery eyes...

Oh nooooooooo.

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Then emo-ness enveloped me coz of some irrational thoughts in my head. Hahaha...all because of this morning. But i think i got over it. Irrational. Sheesh. Shouldn't think that way. Should tone down, yea?=) Lina told me something that made me ponder. What she said was true n i will definitely not be like that. Nope. It will make me sick. Hahas. *winkz*

Whoohooh..it's raining now, so hidaya should be enjoying her bleach umbrella =DDD.

Pleasant surprise =)

Pleasant surprise this morning...=)I think the week is getting better...After school, there was a house meeting. s04 dominated all the 2 teams for frisbee! Cool! I think frisbee is special to s04...everybody seems to be so happy and enthu when playing it as a class! It was really fun! Yes! Yes! Yes! Hahah...so excited...remember the time when pae s04 played frisbee during pe! Oh yea...tmr got theory test for soccer..wth.

Gonna stop thinking about cca. Not worth it. E ling was funny...this morning, i told her i didn't have the guts to say i quit, then she said, come, where's the teacher? i ask for u. Hahah

My sis came back from camp today. She told me that she wore my sec 4 class tshirt to go rolling about in a mudbath in the forest with her friends. Thanks a lot yeah...

I was freaking JEALOUS she went kayaking! How unfair life can be...haish...

5 ppl at the back row...just found out...=(

If only, like this blog song, i can stop the world, i would...a moment's true peace.

Asked hidaya if she was to join America's got Talent, what talent would she present? She answered with some ugly song...waahahah, i dun even know what title, i just looked at her with my-are-u-ok look.. "o" Me? my talent is to turn pure undiluted emo in under one second. Now that's talent! *wink*

The day ends with me going back home first coz hid and iz ends cca late..=(

System of a down: Lonely Day....~~~

*ps: i love today. i love u guys.

So damn pissed

So Damn Pissed

I don't really need this right now. Talked with Azie and Anthony bout it. Both were supportive, and i felt very grateful to have understanding friends like them...But i'm scared to say that i wanna quit cca now. I mean, the manpower is lower than last year, but it had been even lower before. Of course there are also internal and external factors that shaped this decision. But how? I believe this is the best for me, coz today made me realize how much i don't need this right now in my life. U know how sometimes, mountains of problems just tumbles unto your shoulders without much warning? And you feel so overwhelmed that u can barely hide it that you're distraught? I feel like i'm returning back, reverting to my old self. One that views life negatively, one that doesn't look forward to the next day. I feel drained. The efforts i make to cheer myself up takes its toll on me. I end up feeling very drained at the end of the day, and nobody's there to cheer me up. Haha, am i complaining? >.<

I don't wanna be that me, i want the new me i discovered this year...=)

But sadly, when i think of my cca, something...just Something is missing, and i don't feel like going...*sad, lonely music*

Need to concentrate on my studies.

Missing that person

Missing that person

Yup. There are alot of people i miss...some dreadfully. Just realised this morning that someone didn't turn up for school. That's another story i'm not gonna go into here.

Haha...first day without azu...

Okay...and then last friday...we went put, me and Sham. Was very excited. This year wasn't able to meet up with her...she seemed busier this year..so ok...i understand. So was looking forward to meeting my best friend of 13 years plus..promised to meet her at 4...

That friday, saw some friend at the library and was distracted...plus iz and azu asked me to sit in for the audi for teacher's day..so i only left sch about ten minutes to 4. Then, she called me up, and with an annoyed tone, asked me where i was coz she had already reached. I couldn't help but think, Bloody hell, can't u wait? It wasn't even 4! And you're fed-up coz i haven't reach yet? I'm so sorry...i couldn't help it...but i told her that i'm waiting for the bus. Said bye. And the bloody bus was late! Waited for about 10 minutes for a bus to appear.

I could tell this is not going as well as i had thought.

Met her at the library. I was immediately overwhelmed by 3 particular enotions:

1. Disappointment

2. Sad

3. A sense of loss

Disappointed coz she seemed to be everything she was against when we used to be together. Disappointed that she didn't look sincere enough that day...she keeps talking about her other meetings with her friends 'after this' and 'where are we going?'. What happened to just trust our legs to bring us around? What happened to 'Hey, wanna go library and just chill?'. I seriously felt like i lost the friend i used to know.

She told me the first thing she met me that day, "Hey, guess what? I heard in the radio that today is 'Best Gal Friends day!'" Just felt like going home and cry when i heard that. I felt i was walking with someone else...

Guess i couldn't blame her...been separated for so long, can't possibly be as close now. I couldn't possibly talk to her bout my sch life, and she coudn't possibly tell me about hers. We couldn't emphatise enough coz we didn't go through them together. It's different from last times.

Promised to sms me, but until this morning, it has not appeared...yet?

The next day, the family went out to by some sprots bra for my sis, who just left for camp this morning. Thought of going woodlands, coz my mom wanna eat the banquet at causeway. In the end, we went lot 1 and ate at Food Culture.

Haha, something weird happened when we were at BHG...my hp strated ringing and there was this number appearing. Didn't want to answer it coz i thought it must be a wrong no. But the damn phone was ringing and everybody was looking, so i have no choice.

This was what happened:

me: hello?

caller: hello...this is hidayah..

me: arh? uh..hidaya(?), er which hidaya(?) ?

caller: Hidayah cckss...*laughs*

me: *a second ltr* OH! *laughs* Hey!

hidayah: Hey! Haha, eh , u noe the doc under ur house opens at what time today?

me: Wait ah, i ask my mom...

I told her, then we said bye...

Hehehh...it's been a long long time since i have been in contact with her...i think i even lost her no! Felt a tad guilty...wished could have talked more, but she sounded sick...yea..well.

Woohoo! Then on sunday we went out, again, to buy shoes! Whee! Never had a black sport shoe before, so mom and dad bought one, with orange specks. Mom says i shouldn't wear sports shoes on normal days, coz it may get worn out easily..so she allowed me to buy another! It's not a sport shoe, it's like those normal shoes...aiyah, dunno how to describe. But was very very very grateful to them! Always, after they had bought something for me, i would feel a little bit of guilt. Haha...

The greatest dream and the greatest day

The Greatest Dream and the Greatest Day ever! =P

Woow....hahah...sooo happy in my heart right now! Heh heh...=))))))))

Ok, today was azu's official last day......=((((

Iz, hid, pathma and me were shuffling around near the bio labs decorating the mugs and getting everything, including the cake ready...but duh, we were so slow, so azu sort of guessed...haish...haha, but at least she was touched! =D

The flame on the candle kept being extinguished by the wind(it was a windy, rainy, cold day...). Then when i tried to light it up with the lighter, my right thumb kena the flame! Omgosh! I was surprised i didn't scream in fright or what...it was so painful! I can still feel it even now...! Woah. But what the hell lah, my mind was somewhere else..somewhere more important than the pain...

There will always be the 7 of us at the back of the class...aka, The Back-row People: Hid, Iz, Azu, Pathma, Lina and Qis and me. 7 is a magical number ;D. Without azu, the back row people will be sort of crippled, the magical 7 are not complete...=). But we have to carry on living our lives...life goes on and doesn't wait for anyone...

The 7 of us were sort of...crying...yep, i have not cried for a friend in a long long time. And the feeling was special, and was shared by the other 5....It was sweet.

Assembly =D ...

In the library after school...=DD

In the morning before flag-raising...=D

Went to the audition after school...

Met my friend...yet another heartbreak...The friendship we had for these past 14 years seemed to have evaporated...there's like no spark left...When i was with her, i saw a few of my ex-classmates from s05...and a certain couple in Darwin.

Oh well.........today has been an overwhelming day.

O ya! Azu and Pathma finally created a blog! YEAH!

Mixed emotions! =X =D =(

Azu didn't come today! Why!! I brought u my special gift from my heart! Ahaha...ok lah...

Didn't go for pe today...tried to cram economic geo but wth, i didn't even complete 1 page! Loser...

Nice weather though...so dark and gloomy, reminds me of the scene in HP and the OFTP dementor scene. Chit chat with pathma and anna...Anna was so sweet! She bought us all little bottles of blow-bubbles from london! THANKS ALOT! Muacks!!! =DD

During math lecture, me iz and lina, esp me and iz, keep laughing and giggling (oh no!) at the slightest things! For no reason! Must be some mental bug circling our heads that time..

Wah!

Then after chem! And also before chem! Scary! I didn't smile each time,,,OH NO! Bringing it upon myself...

Before chem was exciting! After chem was more exciting coz we got eye contact so long! Haha...just realised when im talking bout tis, my english gets so broken!

And somebody attempted to induce jealousy in me! Ahahha...hhaaiizz.....

Yyyay!! Tmr meeting Sham! It's been a long time since we met, about nearly half a yr...can't waiT!!!

Study study study! and have fun! All work and no play will kill me!

Perseverance will pay off...coupled with the appropriate motivation...wohoohoo...

Faster go make a blog, azu...

Flashes of red

Flashes of Red =D

Haha...what a title. Tomorrow having 2 geo test. Confirm will screw up human test. Economic Geo is like spanish to me. Promos drawing nearer...have to start on my chem, or else, i can kiss goodbye to that motivation. Hehehe..

During bio lecture, i was surprised that i could concentrate! I was having a headache in the morning, and was groggy, and i didn't even read the lecture notes the night before...but omg...haha...i was surprised..yea..I found out that the operon thingy is not as confusing as i thought it was. I remember fully last yr, when we were going through operons, i was like, What the freakin hell are all these? Just goes to show how u can really achieve if u really want it.

Haha...Then during math lesson, i guess i was talking too much with hidaya (but i do pay attention!), and also, it seems that for every math lesson, i will be sitting next to her. Then after the lesson, when i was waiting outside at the corridors, i waved goodbye at my math teacher, and then, she approached me and said "I noticed u were talking alot with hidaya ah..." Hahah! Waliao...i thought she didn't notice coz she was always like looking at the second row ppl. Pathma was saying that the back row ppl were talking too during math. Haha, the back row ppl can never change =).

Oh no! Tmr pe is running! Ugh.....

I hope i can get better luck like hidaya during recess or bio lect or before flag-raising...=X hehhehe....

U give me something

U give me something




It just hit me very hard. Especially in the morning, before flag raising. Had to repress the welling of emotions in me. Nearly let wenxi see the wet stuff shimmering in my eyes. So i hid at the back of the class. Haha...
Whatever i have to say, i dunno how to say it. Just that these past few weeks, many many things had happened that affects me in one way or another. Some problems...some just news of other seemingly unimportant stuff...but which i let it affect me. And then there's azu. Hahaha...well, yes, u should know what i wanna say...all the best to u. U know what, azu? I trust u won't forget me, coz i know i won't forget u. Maybe 40 years down the road, when we see each other by the beach, i would go "Yo Azu/Azouline/Alex!".


Haha...

Yea..


I believe that we are all fated to meet each other. And i can really say that the way which we first meet was really by fate. I mean, what else could have stirred your heart to sit there that fateful day? And though in our first year in jc1, we weren't really close like we were now, i had always felt your prescence. So it's like, i've gotten used to your prescence. In other words, i had u integrated into my life =). But you know something? Although u will be in some other learning institution, u r still here! U r always there among my memories! Yea dude! Haha...ok...guess i have to stop babbling on this.


Sighs, i guess this is a lousy week for me. 2 geo test coming up, and somehow, they make me feel so lousy and tired and...sad. I tried using my special motivation=) but it was short-lived. I'm too easily distracted. By anything. That's how the situation is with me right now. The spark is leaving me...am i about to be initiated anytime soon into one of the living dead? I pray everytime, sometimes even unconsciously, to Him. Let me find my strength again, let me find peace and joy and fulfilment in what i am going through now, coz only You can know what is written in my heart.

Tired but happy

Tired but Happy =)

I can't believe i spent 7 weeks learning soccer in school for pe. I used to possess a great dislike for the sport. 'Alpha' males chasing after some ball...c'mon! But my perspective on the game has shifted slightly. It's quite fun playing with my class. Yea..haha.

Some irritating fly just decided to buzz around in my head at school just now. Kept flapping it away, but it always came back. I think the next time it decides to have a buzz near my head, i might just give it The Final Swat.

That chunk of paragraph above is a metaphor anyway. =D

Eh!! A certain good friend of mine is withdrawing! Haix...all the best in your decision...=DDD We WILL miss u yeah...

I am sooo perplexed. I think all earphones have some kind of personal vendetta against me. All of those damned things i ever possessed either:

1. Becomes deaf in one side.

2. The head topples off...quite eerie.

3. Gets lost somewhere.

Argh!! I think it's time for me to get a headphone. But it's so leceh! So troublesome! So bulky! So big! Eee...don't want. Guess i'll start scrimping and save a few bucks each day to buy me an earphone that will -should- be loyal to me for eternity. What a waste of money...sighs.

It's good that i start appreciating the value of money =DD.

Sweeney Todd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<3

=D

=)))

omg. hee hee.

Oh no! I find that i oft giggle! And blush! What is happeninG!?

Bio class was VERY funny, courtesy of David and his Star Wars theory. Haaaa! Ms oh was asking david to answer a qn on transformation, and i guessed david beat around the bush. Then suddenly after some very funny replies from dav, ms oh suddenly asked me! oh no! So out of the blue! And i was turning red from all the funny stuff dav was saying. i think i said 'oh no, she called me!' Oh man! It was too loud i think! So paiseh! Then due to all these events that happened too fast and furious for my little brain to digest, i lost track of the question! And to my utmost chagrin, i had to muster enough courage to ask 'what was the qn again?' And i sounded like a very blur, blur sotong. Caught thinking about some *cough* other stuff during bio class...again. =D And my dear azu and dear pathma and dear iz and dear hidaya laugh at me! Grrr! I was turing crimson from paisehness! But it was funny lah, today's bio lesson! Ms oh also mentioned something interesting too! HEHEHEE! And i saw azu and iz craning her neck to smile knowingly at me...and ber beside me was going 'who ah, who ah?' .

Damn. Hahah....

Woa, i have just typed the longest para in a long while! Omedeto!

My sis is in the kitchen right now learning how to whip up some meal for tomorrow is her home econs practical test. huh...i miss design and tech more than that sub...

I am so gonna be a useless housewife if i get married one day. So i think i won't marry. Hah.

I've Been Caught Many Times....Oh nooooo .


Turned out i didn't stay back for night study...me and hidaya decided to go home and go play computer. Such hardworking attitude is admirable u know...
Chem test on organic topics...
Can...
go...
die...

I seriously realise that i lack practice in organic chem. And i better start working on my organic chem now coz i need it to score in promos.
I really wanna do well in my promos.
Yea..

i got a scab forming below my left eyebrow...noooo...go away go away! Shoo!

i seriously think i should get over this 'him' phase.
it's taking up my time. That i could be spent studying. Or whatsoever.
if i really truly stick to 'that-particular0special-motivation'...i would work hard to achieve that.

sayonara.

Chiasmus! Idios!

Chiasmus! Idios!

I'm so so so addicted to the song I'd Do Anything by Simple Plan right now! Woooo! Been repeating the track for like the 50th time already.

Anyways, i stumbled upon this very interesting site www.chiasmus.com.

Basically, a chiasmus is:

chiasmus (ky-AZ-mus) n .a reversal in the order of wordsin two otherwise parallel phrases.chiastic adj

A well-known example would be : Never let a fool kiss u or a kiss fool u.

Cool!

When religion was strong and science weak, men mistook magic for medicine; now, when science is strong and religion weak, men mistake medicine for magic.

From Erich Fromm, in his classic The Art of Loving:
Infantile love follows the principle: "I love because I am loved."Mature love follows the principle: "I am loved because I love."Immature love says: "I love you because I need you."Mature love says: "I need you because I love you."

Ah!!!! I am so gonna die for the next chem test on organic chem!! I dunno y...i keep TELLING myself to fall in love. I desperately NEED to fall deeply, madly in love. With Chemistry. But that g*****n subject still hates me! All the reagents and conditions seem to elude capture by my memory. What is it that is so difficult in just memorising those stupid conditions???

Oh, Baz, my media club vp, just invented a new spell. Idios. It was so funny! She was playing some word games with Gui hao when suddenly, she was stuck with no words to change to create a new word. The word she was supposed to change was idiot. So in desperation, she erased the t and added an s. And we all asked her what it means in a 'there's no such word' tone.

Then Baz said it's a new spell from hp! And then she said in a very funny way: "Idios!" and waved her imaginary wand, and we all laughed so hard until Gui hao was holding her sides.

^^

slept at 10, had a NICE dream.

Do dreams just stay as Dreams?

Hidaya, if u can hear me, please help me research a bit on the soccer thingy! =DD

Anyways, life is pretty confusing up here. Hate charades, especially if it is this bitter. Hate it when i hear accusations, and when people judge a situation without hearing the other side of the story.

Missing the times. Of when i could be carefree, when there are no such problems like these. But i had gotten myself too entangled. I should have known it is inevitable. that something like this would happen. But people, no, humans have opinions too, and mine just happens to be this. Not desiring this to grow into a big, bitter fruit though. But i just have to listen to what i say and observe what i do.

Wishes on a star just don't come true.

Unless you know what u are doing.

Overheard some stuffs that mom was talking over the phone. Stressed out. But i realized that i agree with her on some aspects. It is very very sad and depressing for me to acknowledge it, but i don't shun away from the facts of life. Dysfunctional. A few years ago, i thought it was a pretty cool word.

Y THE HELL M I IN SUCH A DEPRESSING MOOD? Sheesh, gotta tone this down.

Bleach umbrella. Next time when it rains, i know who to go back with. =D

Oh yea, and the dream...it was pretty nice.

I'd Do Anything

I'd Do Anything

O gosh....seriously, i think this yr's open hse is a flop. Last yr was much much much better! There were games stalls set up by every class, and a haunted house, and many people came, even the pae ppl who are now in other jcs came, like hafiz, fir and the rest of their gang...This yr was boring if i were to compare it to last yr.

But I was so happy around noon when Lina told me something =DDDDDDD.

I thought i was over that, but when i talk to that i realise, wth? i think i'm not completely over that ...

Perplexing.

Hidaya wants a bleach umbrella for her birthday. HEh. I said ok, but in my mind, i imagined her walking to sch in that umbrella, and how un-jc-like that will be. Haha! It's not childish, but its....uncommon. Hehe..!

Haha! I thought s04's class booth did pretty well! Omedeto minna-san! =D

Went home super early, coz i was super tired.

Many things happened this week...got to know many new things...some good =))), some quite sad...will not comment on the sad part. There are many parts to the happy stuffs..hee hee! Firstly, we got back our report slip and i did pretty fine (HOW I WISH THIS IS NOT MY REPEAT YERA BUT MY REAL J1). Now i know what kind of attitude i need...plus that motivation that is 2 classes away...hehe. Stop it lah. Still, when mrs chan gave back my slip, she said, "U di d quite well, but since this is your repeat year, u should bag the A's already." I was quite offended, but deep down, i know she is super duper right. I shouldn't be content with the grades i have now. Especially chemistry.

There is a new motivation for me to depend on now. Hopefully, by constantly thinking about that motivation, i can improve, and hopefully *prays hard* make that visualization come true. =DDDD That would really make my parents super duper happy! and i wannna make them happy! =DDD

I think this yr's batch didn't do as well as the j2 (my batch). That's probably why i am able get high percentiles. If it was last yr's batch, i doubt i can get the high percentiles, even if the grades remain...

I'm not really looking forward to the national day hols. For some reasons that i can't mention. But i shall look at it this way: At least i can rest at home! Whee!

Note to self: I shall try my damnedest to return to the cheery me in pae, and to reduce the amount of emo-ing i always do in school. =D

Borrowed an English translation of the Koran from the school library. Didn't know they got that book there. Oh well. Very interesting read. Haven't finish it though.

This is my sis friend's pic, it looks so hot, i just cant help it!

OK! =D