This week has been bloody good, man. Smile, asyikin, smile =DD

Some stuffs that i recall:

- met up with mrs hitsugaya toushiro. =DD

- stayed back to watch boys napfa =D

- waseda university!

- passed all 5 stations except sbj. kuso. why am i so scared to jump ah? lousy. ooh but sit and reach i managed to get A seh!

- kfcs and quarters and strawberries and more more LOTSA strawberries. yum.

- Michelle says ichigo is hot. she knows =D. but sam says he got attitude and not that hot. asyikin do not succumb to peer pressure. hah. =D

- 3 charliechan in one week.

- ichigo again.

- i became a spy!

- kk says i'm smart. wahsey of course lah. especially when i'm desperate to go off, eh. cut up some idiot invitation stuff. wah really retarded, man.



some stuffs that i want:

- psp purple metallic case/nice pouch

- pretty orange inner earpiece

- modify my psp. my friend told me that now they sell the modified one..ugrhhh.

- Jubei-chan 2 -Siberia Yagyuu no Gyakushuu- Original Soundtrack ~Kizukeba Ongaku Kiteita~

- our dear gardener to pronounce my namae correctly.



some stuffs i realised:

- that '~' is a binomial thingy. wtf.

- my sprained finger is 98% cured! yosh!

- i kinda suck at probability.

- i love the colours purple, orange, red and black XD...huh actually depends on my mood lah XD

what i'm doing now:

- eating durian

- watching just for laugh gags

- blogging. duh.

realised that when i'm feeling deliciously happy and bubbly like this whole week kinda mood, i accidentally phrase things in a um..weird way and say stuffs that sound kinda freakishly dumb. lol. Like what i said to sam and jiemin and xiuyi. And they had a good time laughing at it. I admit lah, even i couldn't believe i said that. Lol.

what time is it? hahahaha.

Hi Miss Alice.
With glass eyes
What kind of a dream
Are you able to have?
Are you entranced by?
For me still
My heart tears apart
And flows out
Memories
Pierce into
The mended crevice
[cello]
Hi Miss Alice..
With your sincere lips
to who is love being...
...discarded to?
...grieved to?
I again, spin words around..
under a fever.
Reality, come~
To love is to sing and yet...
I can not sing...
Still, you do not answer.
[cello]

Vampire Knight ending 1. Fwooh.
Yayayayayay!
mood: bubbling happy.
=D


watched om shanti om last saturday. not bad le. hahaha...
omg failed my sbj napfa. hurrr...gonna chiong for 2.4 run.
saw the guys running so damn fast lah. walao eh.
like 4 minutes 4 rounds. siao lah.
ok..MOTIVATION! Yosh yosh yosh!
feel like i'm releasing bankai or something.

got so many pics to upload. dun want to upload lah.
and lot 1 is definitely bigger and better! =D

*i'm afraid to wish for more. i'm obliged to be happy just the way it is now. even though it's getting harder to listen to someone sometimes. well. just my luck.



i'm searching desperately for the fight theme songs for jubei chan. sugoi! the theme song is just...sublimely pleasurable! anyone who has it! i want!

This week i'm a happy girl lah.
XD


Yesterday played mastermind with Lina @ the sanctuary. Damn funny laah..hints and stuffs...ichigo and kamane and kanda and zero. And mixing up hair colours..hahahahahah!!

Yeah..just now eat @ ljs with lina hidaya and jiemin ah. The last girl very funny. Keep spouting stuff one. Like bengawan solo become: beng-i-want-solo. wth....haha..then dunno y suddenly i feel inspired to teach her the relationship between vntr and rflp using french fries.

OMG SPEAKING OF THAT I STILL HAVEN'T STUDIED A BLOODY THING. AAH I HATE THIS TOPIC.

then we went comics connection!! no vampire knight stuff though=(
wanna buy a lot of stuffs.
1. mama's bday
2. mother's day
3. new watch
4. new wallet
5. have to pay tuition 220 bucks next week.

i feel drained. omg

oooooooh but today..TODAY i can't describe today. it's sublime! AHAHAHA. lina and izz ah...giggle giggle. Rarrr. but nehmind..still ok =D
i word: SHIOK

bought purple scrunchie.
whee.
it rhymes!

and a horrendous thing just happened to me after charliechan. won't discuss it. ugh. MALU.


i spy with my little eye a horribly busy week next week.
ah motivation, motivation, wherefore art thou, motivation?

She told him that she believes in living,
Bigger than she's living now
But her world keeps spinning backwards and upside-down
Don't say so-long, and throw yourself wrong
Don't spend today away,
'cause today will soon be Gone,
like yesterday is gone,
Like history is gone,
Just try and prove me wrong,
and pretend like you're immortal.
Don't say so-long,
andwe're not that far gone
This could be your big chance to make-up
Today will soon be Gone,
like yesterday is gone
Like history is gone,
The world keeps spinning on
You're going, going, gone,
Like summer break is gone,
Like Saturday is gone,
Just try and prove me wrong and pretend like you're immortal
We are not infinite
We are not permanent
Nothing is immediate
Bits of confidence in our accomplishments
Look at our decadence
Gone, like Frank Sinatra,
Like Elvis and his mom
Like Al Pacino's cash,
Nothing lasts in this life
My high school dreams are gone
My childhood sweets are gone
Life is a day that doesn't last for long
Life is more than money
Time was never money
Time was never cash
Life is still more than girls
Life is more than hundred-dollar bills and roto-tom fills
Life is more than fame and rock and roll and thrills
All the riches of the kings end up in wills
We've got information in the information age,
But do we know what life is
Outside of our convenient Lexus cages?

-GONE by SWITCHFOOT

Did you wake up on the right or the wrong side of the bed today?

Maybe your morning’s running right on time or a little late

Head out

Traffic’s slow on the interstate

Take the back way

Will this be a good or a bad day?

Well don’t you worry

I could be your sunshine girl

Or the company for your misery

I could be the quiet one

Or the life of the party

Whatever you need,

I’m your girl

When you show up does everybody smile and wave or look away?

Are you feeling beautiful or is this a bad hair day?

Maybe you’re falling so in love or your heart is about to break

Will this be a good or a bad day?

Well either way

Go ahead, freak out

I’m gonna stay

So if you’re happy or sad,

well baby, you can look my way

-SUNSHINE GIRL by BRITT NICOLE

Excerpts from songs. To myself and hidaya. =D

lina lina lina. haha. ok, u got my head full. but u only hear what u want to, right? haha. mou daijoubu.

=D=D=D=D=D

itami des.

my finger is swollen.

oohmygod.

but it's better than yesterday. yokatta. =D

woah nowadays i feel that i'm getting sleepier and sleepier in lectures.

gotta buck up.

the ending for zettai kareshi is sad.

*cries*

i'm in great pain.
oh yeahhh...
ouch
my little finger.
the one that holds the wedding ring
that sam is gonna give tmr.
*cough*hahaha
apparently sonia got hit too.
and hers is as swollen as mine.
but hers is her pinky.
gosh i can't even type properly.

go doctor? aiyah, later the doc go and do funny funny stuff.
but i think it's preferable as she's certified, unlike my mom.
in any case, i think it's a safer option to go to the doc.
Wooh. pain sia.
it turned a funny blue, then a blushing kind of red.
and then a mesh.
can't write properly.
sock mui commented that the way i write is cool coz my hand will be off the table.
hahah.

sheesh. i'm a total slacker. i dun feel that i deserve some of the grades i got.
someone else should get the highest in class for gp coz i'm clueless about certain stuffs in the world.
really.
doesn't mean u can write well u can therefore fake your way through general knowledge.
i feel dejected and this huge responsibility just got imposed upon me.
and some other subjects as well.
no use mulling about this here.
well.
maybe perhaps i should be proactive: read the papers more instead of gorging on anime.
but hey, i have my right to live the way i want to right?
government intervention, anyone?

ok, ja ne..

for lina, who shares a passion for Vampire Knights:
http://jinnjinx.deviantart.com/art/Cosplay-Vampire-Knight-54248394

http://hanahiwatari.deviantart.com/art/Zero-of-Vampire-Knight-81556024
http://treezoid.deviantart.com/art/vampire-knight-ep2-pic6-82875204

which geek pasted this outside our school?

ok, very very tired to type, so shall upload photos. a picture speaks a thousand words they say.

me. the mature one. all hail thee.

omg omg. very funny pic. got old man's head.

bestfriends.

hidaya and her junk food: keropok lekor. heh heh.

friday before pe. wah..i can chiong one round run fast fast on the track but then ah suddenly got cramp. diao. circuit is better though. izzati and lina and hidaya now likes to distract me in class. one day... one day...

didn't meet mrs chan. didn't get results slip.

didn't eat sushi. ah..kebabs!!!<3>

maann...really tired. dunno why. well, off to loading up my usual fare of anime before doing hw. sayonaras=)

Ahh..hahaha...
blogging with lina in school now.

Ah...today is a fantastic day..hehehe.
Kehehehehe.
omg i'm suddenly reduced to giggling.


Hehehe.

Checklist:
` bio tys
` virus tut

Heheeheheheh.

eh today the topping was separated. mine incomplete dessert. lina happy seh. keheheheheheh.

aw man saturday is gonna be BOH-RINGG! Y did i encourage? i'm mad at myself now. should've said something, anything to hopefully generate a positive feedback. but no0o0o...i encouraged...eh, lina? booooohoooooo!



thou art to me a delicious torment =D

good stuffs:


~ gp teacher never come...90 minutes of free period! Yosh!


~ chatting about anime and jap stuffs


~ watching bleach 166 on wenxi's player..ICHIGO VS GRIMMJOW! WOOO!


~ being 'immature' with lina =D
[we (lina and me), the 18 yr olds were giggling and acting oh so childishly while the 17 yr olds(hidaya and izz) were walking oh so maturely behind us....]


~ carrying out lina and izzati's 'engagement' HEHEHEHEHE


~ kakashi at canteen during gp debate


~ walking home with hidaya




bad stuffs:


~ work to be completed for gp lesson


~ chatting about anime and jap stuffs under the hot sweltering singapore sun


~ coz there was the oh-so-important fire drill


~ bio tys, bio part c tutorial, gp essay mindmap, math pnc tutorial


~ moody


~ problems...but prolly i should not think too much about them


~ can't sleep at night nowadays


~ seem to be spouting more crap more often

Derek posing as Captain Jack Sparrow. and his 2 fangirls.

blah. didn't really listen to the UN debate. it got sort of cool when the audience participated, but other than that, it's a draaaaag.

2 act cute ppl here omg.
2 cool ppl here omg.

ok i'm hooked on good charlotte =)

I detest e learning day.

Why do at home when u can do it more efficiently at sch?

GAH.

lousy server also.

fishsticks.

the only high point was when s04 msn together. wah shiokah! ahaha..but then iz came so had to continue gp. damn gp! =(

*some rants that u would probably not understand coz it's all in my head*:

i know that if i wanna be 'happy', it sometimes starts with me-my own initiative to brighten up my outlook on life.
i think i'm beginning to lose my touch on these things.
the ability apparently came in short gasps, going away as quickly and suddenly as it comes.

omg!-i think i'm beginning to see a little eensy weensy resemblance of what's going on here.
better slip on a leash around this before it gets any worse and history repeats itself.

~~

my sis told me something hilarious just now. it's about her f&n teacher (who was my home econs teacher last time in cckss). her teacher had a baaaad week and she took it out on her class (poor things!).
well, she saw a boy spilling milk all over the saucepan and she screamed at him.

then, wielding a CHOPPER, she did a chopping motion with her hand and shouted, "if u come near me i will chop off your hand!"

oh boy. the glorious madness that is all-consuming.
then it was my sis's turn (heh heh heh).
the teacher was scolding another girl to "clean your dustbin!" when my sis walked in front of her. my sis instinctively rolled her eyes and then WHAM!

mad teacher: "NADIAH! WHY DID U ROLL YOUR EYES TO THE HEAVENS WHEN I'M SCOLDING YOUR FRIEND?"...."APOLOGIZE!"

*cue for song Apologize by Timbaland*

sis: "Sorry Mrs ___"

at the moment when my sis said 'sorry', mad teacher goes : "U SHOULD BE!"

and heaven have mercy on the crushed soul of my poor sis coz the whole school can hear them.

it doesn't end here though.

a while later, my sis was having a bored look on her face when mad teacher suddenly pounced:"NADIAH! SEE SHE IS STILL DEFIANT. MIGHT AS WELL PACK YOUR BAG AND GO!"

sis was in a blur state and nearly packed her bag. mad teacher was holding up a pair of jellyfish molds.

mad teacher: Mrs i'm-on-a-strict-healthy-purple-fruits-especially-prunes-diet. apparently that's what they call her nowadays.

" And now i can see how fake it can be
This hypocrisy is beginning to get to me"

- sum 41 : over my head


E learning day is today.

asyikin is an unstable compound these past few weeks.

0.o

she had went thru a few kinds of weeks these past few weeks:

there is the fever/sick week,
the unbelievably crazy amount of hw to do week,
the come-back-home-unbelievably-late-due-to-tuition-3 times a week week
and the 'revelations' week,

omg now i keep repeating the word week in my head it seems like a foreign thing to me.

why are a lot of ppl going moody nowadays? eh...?

gonna watch a few episodes of kamisama kazoku before doing the portal thingys.

ciao~

thou art to me a delicious torment

Child Soldier : Ishamel Bael



we have a romanticised notion of war. think gundam anime.


What American soldiers are teaching Iraqi kids



what a freaking jerk. if i'm god, i would have striked him there and then that bullshitting piece of soldier.

ITACHI! Why must he die? omg......=( i had a nagging suspicion that he's a good guy. and guess what? he IS!! i hope sasuke finally teams back with naruto to defeat madara. i prefer the original team 7 =(. sai is not bad tho. but just cannot replace sasuke. ah damn. first jiraiya. now itachi. who's next?

"there is one man i need to kill." ~sasuke

yesterday was one of my top 5 most sleepy day. i think it's my number four. even tho i slept only at 11.30 the night before, i didn't manage to complete my hws. woke up next morning but my head still sleepy. during bio lect, i swear if i close my eyes longer than 5 secs i will fall asleep. derek was already dozing off occasionally and im oh so tempted to do so except that i can't coz ms yap has a direct view of me. then later there's 2.4km run. sheesh. seriously. how can u run when ur brain pleads for u to sleep and ur feet are trapped in damp socks from the morning rain? =(

congrats to s04 for excellent pw results=D

yesterday, some things happened which made me think:

how can u explain if u like someone even though he is behaving idiotically towards u or any other ppl for that matter?
do u follow ur heart or ur brain?
what if religion is an issue? is any of the parties involved willing to sacrifice?
but...

what if u like someone. but this other friend of urs likes u and is sweet towards u and acknowledge u, not at all like the guy u like. then do u feel obliged to like that person back instead of who u truly like?

ah forget it.

~~
watched bleach 166. the coolest episode so far. im so touched by some parts of that episode. see how much anime can teach u?
ichigo was so sad and cool at the last part after orihime shouted her support.
aw damn.
wistful thinking.

off to do gp reesearch. child soldiers. more sad stuff. haish.

u know something that is so damn obvious and u just have to pretend u don't know it and it's so



bloody irritating coz it's clashing with your own interest and worse still, u have to bloody put up a



sort of charade which i find is a very hypocrite thing to do but u just can't help it or u'd go



freaking mad, and to top it all, u are so damn bloody shy that u just can't match up, so u end up



seething within and nothing can douse the frustration.







what to do. chill.

thou art to me a delicious torment. hehe XD

~ ~



so me, maziah, kk and eling joined this youth photography awards or something like that. motivated by little else other than the top prize money of $5000. there's a 2nd and 3rd too. and fantastically, consolation prizes of $500!

shiokah!





BEING IDIOTICALLY LOCKED IN YOUR OWN CCA ROOM IS FREAKING RIDICULOUS BUT YEAH, THAT JUST HAPPENED TO ME. thanks to SOMEONE for that once in a lifetime experience.
GOT OTHER GUYS SOME MORE OUTSIDE WATCHING THE WHOLE SPECTACLE OF ME YELLING FOR someone TO OPEN THE DOOR. and when THAT SOMEONE finally decided to release me from my prison, she fumbled and the guys had to help. really. OMG. it's damn embarassing.
ARGHH.
and in retribution, i tried pouring the water in her waterbottle over her. but we were laughing so damn hard until our sides ached and i had no more strength so we looked very the pathetic, a heap of laughing sillies on the grass behind the odac room. but yeh, i finally did it and look at the culprit's handprints on the ground:

and i recently received a mail from Times magazine, asking me to do a survey. and woo surprise surprise! there's a US$1 bill enclosed in it! a non-specimen one! apparently as a yoken of their appreciation. how cool! in jiemin's words, "sugoi!!" so i decided to enthusiastically pin it up on my board in my room, like a motivation for me $$$$. =)

(btw, u should have seen my board during common test week: choke full of notes and reminders...YUCKS)

doko made yukeru ka?

it's always the smile. i guess. =)

mood: jubilantly elated for no apparent reason.perhaps.

thou art to me a delicious torment.

i think i'm close to reverting back to my old depression mood already.

i don't want that.

help.

ok. shall think happy thoughts from now onwards.

my friends help though =)

yep!

the mountain of hw is slowly diminishing.

thankshzz alot hidaya for that wonderful lift-my-mood effort just now after math u gave me.

really appreciate it =)

esters and strawberries. what do they have in common? lols.

what is asyikin's fav word? uhmmm.

woooh bio was superb! too bad i had to bathe, and there was nothing i could do to prevent water from erasing all the shiokness. hm. this paragraph sounds suspicious and weird and doesn't make any sense.

annnnd lina. i not jealous! MUAHAHAHA. in fact, dunno why i feel sort of happy. eh? weirdnye! ew.

i guess i'm totemo confused right now. sigghs.

asyikin has this tendency to land herself in stupid situations where she will probably sink like in a quicksand to nothingness and everythingness.

little miss independent by kelly clarkson. lols.

when WHEN can i go home early?! Been going home at 10pm!!! Kuso.

kyou wa totemo samui neh?

~

i think-no-i AM ignorant. i guess. compared to some others. sighhs.

~

strange people and even stranger feelings.

ever had the feeling u wanna silencio and muffliato everyone around u?

or just avada kedavra them?

..yeah.

i am a happy person. pls think happy thoughts. rar.

for his sake perhaps.

OMG i can't believe i stayed up till 12am DOING GP! POLITICS some more! =(
Lucky got hidaya accompany =D





thou still art to me a delicious torment. =D

thou art to me a delicious torment.

SUPER

Woa. I just found out that i lost 2.4 kg in a week. Why? Coz of my super high 39.6 degrees celsius fever i guess. No appetite until like that. Waw. Eh, but no complaints from me heh heh heh.

Wah..gonna be a super week man. Super everything.

Super hw week.

Super tutorial week (esp gp and bio).

Super tuition week (coz of organic make-up).

Super happy week (hope so =D).

Super jealous week (ewh, hope NOT).

Super TIRED week thanks to pe.

Talking about pe, we had such a FUN pe lesson just now!! Woo0o0. Played alien vs predator. Then after that stations, but this one time own target is fun especially coz we're in pairs. And not to mention can slack a bit hehehe. Then came the most fun part! We all lay our heads on our friends stomach, making into a chain of s04. So when one laugh, the stomach vibrate and our heads go boing boing boing, and it's quite funny so we all were laughing. and worse, we had to say 'ha's plus one each time. I kena 10 'haha's. Pity the last person.

Really got alot of hw le. Or i think it's just me and my procrastination.

Well done.

thou art to me a delicious torment.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY mrs KANDA-ZARAKI Lina!!



Hahaha..well..this is it: the mms i tried sending u. But something with the service provider. Can't deliver =(.

Courageously taken during a gp class, before i carelessly spilled half the contents in my water bottle all over my desk in s03 classroom, while we were busy talking about Kandas and Ichigos and Zarakis and Kakashis. Hehe.

I could feel that this is another weekend wasted. Ok, maybe i shouldn't be so bad to use the word wasted when all i did was to catch up with family members. But yeah, nothing academically productive from me.

Yesterday, watched the first part of Red Dragon on channel 5. A particular image stuck to my mind, somewhat subconsciously..the one where an eye is about to be gouged out.

Then, i went to sleep (my mom insists that i shouldn't be watching a gruesome show. like, really.). And dreamt some twisted dreams. Tunnels. Trapped. Missing people. And i got one eye dug out by someone. So i was walking around closing one eye like Kakashi does when he's using sharingan. And in the dreams, i was constantly changing character. Like i was looking like a hovering spirit above the peoples in my dream, then the next thing i knew, i was them. Woke up feeling strangely calm, yet disoriented.

to hidaya: at the touch of love, my dear, everyone becomes a poet =)

thou art to me a delicious torment

today was the slackiest day evah.

whole day did bio. first lesson: bio lecture. second lesson: bio tutorial. meet mr wong: go through bio tys.

bio.

then jeng jeng jeng! labrador park! tunnels! fantasizing about them tunnels leading to a magick filled place. nothing of that sort happened though.

the best part was when the guide switched off every single light source. we were in a narrow corridor flanked by brick walls with a smattering of dark blotches and splatters. and i was literally breathless with anticipation of what i am about to experience.

and then there was darkness.

but this was more than darkness. this is a black hole. blacker than black.

it's exhilarating, yet absolutely disconcerting.

in my primary sch essays, i always use the phrase 'i couldn't even see my own hand before my face'. now i understand the gravity of what i wrote.

i shut my eyes. tightly. then i opened them back. but it makes no difference at all whether i open or close them. the darkness invades. it's everywhere. it's absolute.

it's overwhelming. i think i'm in love with this feeling. this feeling of being sublimely pleasured by experiencing something awesome.

i wish i could explore that darkness again.

and them tunnels. oh my god. it makes me shudder to envision soldiers with their harried expressions navigating the narrow tubes, delivering, of all things, shells and ammos and rifles.

these tunnels smell of death and decay. of utter desolation and despondency. =(

in those tunnels, i tried to invent a scenario where they were under siege. the soldiers panicking underground while sounds of blasts and explosions were heard above. like the hammer of thor coming down upon them, inflicting fear and terror of impending death..underground.

since i'm one of the privileged who lives in sunny serene singapore, these emotions i feel are precious. coz people across the globe have been and still are experiencing the horrors of war.

on a lighter note, my aunt is coming back tmr! can't wait to see 3 yr old adam hafiz! kyah! but there's a ton of work that needs to be done. chikusho.

mdm lin has the cutest and most charming 6(?) yr old son i've ever met. MUAHAHAHA.

it's a good life. =DDDDDD i'm happy on something now.

hidaya managed to scare me again by pretending there's something on the ground which i'm about to step on, but which actually doesn't. BAH.

hidaya and sam and izz and wenxi and me did stupid stuffs at the camera. and i managed to capture 2 jumps shots omg how pro can i possibly get cheybah! GLOAT.

one word that sums up our mini outing just now: fun.

Michelle's book from which she is learning jap.

Our personal beautician.

At the tunnels: cam-whoring.

altogether now izzati, quote derek: "insanity is doing the same things over and over again and expecting different results."

.

thou art to me a delicious torment.


laughed like 2 crazy crazy CRAZY idiots after tuition. I sang an apparently freaky version of do re mi and hidaya cracked up. On the elevator. Think we scared the crap out of the little girl in front of us.

then there was the 'ELEHH'. And 'ELLLEH' and 'EEELEH'. ok, nevermind.

and i vaguely recall someone called asyikin claiming to 'be the next jk rowling'.

and hidaya's face was freakishly red. from laughing.

realised that i had mood swings this whole entire damneddisgustingbelchinglyidioticyo-yoisharse of a week.

even today had little effect on my mood.

the question is, why?

yup. why? doushite?

dunno.

o god..i don't want to go imh.

please please don't make me go to that place...(hm..maybe it's gonna be interestingg...)

can i rant a bit? ok here goes:

just now during break i sat with shahidah, sonia and huiling to ask them something. suddenly, the councillor sat down with us and started asking us about school values omfg what is this.

the f in omfg is freaking btw. i rarely mean the other word except when i'm pissed to the power of a million.

i listed down the stuffs i'm supposed to do and shit i have a lot. dunno where to start. bio tys n97 and n98, chem equilibrium, summation, bio mindmap, gp singapore healthcare 3M, meet mr wong, meet ms lee and ultimately, organise my notes and tutorials in my drawer that has a very high entropy right now. my saturday is already gone coz we going airport coz my aunt is coming to stay in singapore after like 5 years in CA.

which leaves me with only sunday and even that is not guranteed. sure got reunion gathering or whatnot. shit lah. how how how how how how? i'm so stressed that not even ichigo can lift my spirit. bah. johnny depp also no use now.

ok, maybe that second last sentence i was lying.

coz i'm positive i'm feeling slightly happier right now. =)
see, i can even smile.

omg just had a crazy msn with jiemin loading up on stupid cute pics. LOL.

Ok Hidaya: I read Bleach manga 316 already. Hahaha...what the hell is the Royal Guards?

This is Nell. She was the #3 Arranca. Yesterday, hidaya said i'm Nell.

I think she meant the other version of Nell:

Coz Nell always seem to have unbelievably disgusting mucus hanging from her nose. And i'm having running nose! AHHHH. I can't breathe properly.

And i didn't get very far trying to read bio spa either.

Hahaha...and i found this funny strip:

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

really.

i just feel disengaged with reality.

in this meritocratic world, can i make it out there with what i have?

and i don't think it stops at meritocracy only.

the world, it seems, can be a hypocrite. heaping us with lies. feeding us with charades.

and in the end, what are we left with?

our maimed and broken dreams.

and as i scoff and curse the rituals of the savants,

i am percipient that i, of all horrors, am well mired in this.

listen people! they say. you can't just 'make it'! you can"t just 'pass'.

you've got to 'make it BIG! a star! in your own right or otherwise, you've got to carve a name for yourselves, for goodness sake. at least get into harvard. or make your first million at 20.

u see.

it's a big world out there. and i'm feeling the jitters.

who doesn't?