Random crap

`Wah, I give up trying to find all the lost blog add. ``

Hm, school today was a bit dreamy for me. Like I'm seeing everyone but actually I'm not seeing them. Uh, yah...

Maths sux.

Chem can go and die.

Haiyoh, I know I shouldn't be feeling like this...BUT I didn't know....

Yup.

Life is so mysterious. Haix...so complicated also. You can't always get what you want you know...that's what I've been telling myself. But it gets so depressing sometimes..and suddenly.

And sometimes, people gets more and more mysterious...

Maybe Azu was right..maybe Singapore isn't an ideal place to grow old in. I should go somewhere where there are autumn leaves and...just a place where you feel Life coursing through your veins.

That would be heaven. Literally.

Or perhaps I should really go on a break. Break away frm everything and just spend a week or so somewhere with someone. Woah...nice fantasy ah, syikin.

Anyways, i miss the s05 ppl.

Heh.

But I'm digging s04 now. So that sorts of balance out the charges eh? (Chem).

Instead of the red Love notebk i bought, maybe I should have bought a grey one called Misery. Bleah...

Troubled minds think alike. hehx.

Eh, just realised today's post is very the random.

Oh, and who wanna learn Jap plish inform me..I interested neh....hoohoo.

Can't wait to go to school tmr. This is so lame. Yah. Buhbye...i go pray.

OMG

Wahh! My hand was so fast just now that I accidentally clicked on the "save button" on the blog template, and in the end, my whole blog along with its contents were gone!!

But pee-yuuh...I found a better one! Whahah! But I dun think I wanna change this song for a while...it gets my adrenaline pumping.

Hees.

Wah, so relieved now...but I think I went overboard a little on the animations...ah well...

Captain's Ball Blues

Woow...Naruto rocks...

Ok, more specifically, Kakashi-sensei and Gaara rocks! Wahaah!

Just now at school during PE was fun...and funny. Me and Hidaya were pretending to be Rock Lee from Naruto and talking crap about chakra and stuffs. Crazy. Haha. BUT...I was quite motivated to gambatte. Even though my knee hurts, I sprinted like hell...not really, only used up 70% of my energy to sprint. The remaining energy was used to talk and laugh and think about Kakashi-sensei. Hahas.

Then the tired me and Hid go and drink from the water cooler...then we blur blur go sit down at the parade square coz we saw Hid(the guy one) and Haq there. After a few minutes, no one else appeared. That was when we realised we had went to the wrong place. Oops. At last, they wee at the basketball court...chey...

Played captain's ball again. It is always fun playing with s04. But in my case, the fun comes with a fair share of pain too. First my knee, then my nose, today was the side of my head. Ouch. Eh, but there was too much collision lah...play rough seh...but I like. Hah. Rather than playing like sissies...HOH!!

Cannot watch Naruto on weekdays. Says Mum. Sadness. Overwhelmes. Crushed.

IS THERE ANY GOOD MOVIES? THEY BETTER START SHOWING UP SOON COZ I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! Woo...that felt gooood.

Rizel's Advice for the day: Do not always regard yourself as the victim of life. Be strong with your own troubles because everyone is not born without one.

What a day.

Wah, damn sian day lah!

Let me start from the end...

We played Captains ball for PE. I should have known better and stayed as far away from the ball as possible. Yea...I got hit squarely in the face by the ball. My glasses a bit crooked after that, but I managed to fix it back with sweaty hands. I saw stars...heh. Then until now got headache...wah, sian right?But not bad ah, fun. Hoho..

Then I bought the stoopid Mango Madness which cost me $1.50. Not nicee!! Yuck. Only because I was super thirsty I bought that. Now I know how it taste like, I'm putting a nice distance between it and myself and my money.

Oh, then during Chem, all of us came in super late, like 15 minutes late, except for Syakira, Jessica (alba) and Yu Jia. At first nothing ah...thought the teacher was fine. Then we realised that she was ignoring the latecomers. She invited the 3 people to come to the front so that she can teach better and that "...there are only 3 of you in my class.." and halfway through the lesson, to "...ask questionslah, coz there are only you 3 in the class, must ask questions. No questions ah?" We were ignored. Even Haq's raised hand (to go toilet) was ignored...only when he say out loud then she said "Go ahead."

Waliao.

Every few minutes have to rub it in. I don't like people like that. But I thought she is a nice teacher, only I don't know she can get to this high level of sarcasm. I hate sarcasm. When teachers targets at us retainees through sarcasm, like, "You better ask questions or else you dunno, then have to repeat another year ah..", I feel like taking a scissors and snip away at their tongues.

Ah, I didn't know I am that disturbed...am I a disturbed kid? I don't front it, don't show it, but I can feel it. What exactly am I disturbed about? What exactly do I want? sighs.

Enough about that stuff lah.

Btw...Thank U very the much for the NARUTO cds, Hidaya!!! Ohhoohhooo....can drool over Kakashi-sensei now. So proud of him! Aiyoh, I sound so silly. Nehmind ^o^

Strange things (apart from the stuffs I just mentioned) happen also tody.
Like for examle, the counselling group just started today. I happen to be in the same group as Farah, (4get his name), Jun Ming (spell correct?). Our teacher is Ms Teo who teaches Econs. Haiyoh...feel very the awkward lah. Furthermore got 2 guys I don't really know. Paiseh. Next session will be next Friday at 12.30 pm.

Kakashi rocks! JD rocks! We rocks! hehheh. Sayonara...

Cosplays

Wahaha! Skipped video course today. Heck carelah, I thivk video is not my cup of tea. Too bad that I paid the 50 bucks. Hoho. Anyways, not a very good day today...dunno why. Can't seem to pinpoint the sourc of all the negative vibes I feel today. Sigh, my powers must be slipping. Must ask re-training from Kakashi-sensei...

Hahhhaaa.

Now surfing for cosplayers. I so badly want to cosplay, but no one wants to cosplay together! Sad lah..anyone interested in cosplaying please tell me! I want to join!Hoho!

My FAV!!!

Coool....Vamp Alucard from Hellsing.

Bleach crew!

Sango and Kakashi?!!? No way...!

Haiyo...can't find a nice FMA one. Sad...

Kuso.
The damn video still refuses to open in any of the software I downloaded.
And I have fever.
And my throat is sore.
What a great Chinese New Year.
The only thought that keeps me alive is Kakashi.

Pictures!!^^

Yaay!Finally got the pics from Berber. But it's not the complete set. Sad right...nevermind, will dig every single one of them..WAhahaha...~ (for more pics, go to mrs JD and BerBer blogs =P)





This is a strange photo. There is a lurker behind Eileen...and what is Nat doing in s04....?






Oh no! Superman included! Wahahah...






Berber is the only guy...







We were trying to get a shot of us jumping...but looks like we caught the boy's backs...extra lah!>.<

Gay couple caught in camera.




Oh yea...mdm Lim kindly bought us 2 packs of fortune cookies! THANKS SO MUCH!!! I took 2:

1st was : " Stop worrying...and take a chance..."
2nd was: " All your hardwork will soon pay off."

Was it mere coincidence or are the Fate sisters trying to tell me something?Hohoh..
I wonder what that worry is? Or has it appeared but I had failed to notice? And that hardwork...which aspect from my life is it for? Studies? Relationships? Skills? Or..?

Haiyah...too much trouble..I'm in no mood to think...anyways...Kakashi on my mind now...couldn't shake him out! Lols~

CNY

Today kick started with a bang but ended with a twist...

It is smart and casual day today...and pj is also celebrating CNY. 04 was crazy in a fun way during the Low Hei competition...the class took tons of (stupid, emo, crazy, cute, funny) pictures. Can't wait to get them...HAHAR!! I enjoyed today so much that I hoped just now would never end. We could go on a tour of the world and take our photos everywhere...

The Low Hei thingy ah...wah...I really no appetite to eat after seeing where the slices of food-or more like veggies-landed on after being hauled up into the air. Hey, no offence ah..ohoho...

AH.

Then, I scurried off (quite reluctantly) to meet my friend, Cucumber. But I was also very excited to see her. I mean, we have not seen each other for like decades. I had also specially prepared a present for her. It was truly special. Not that I am a lesbo or something, but our history dates way back when we were in K1. You can imagine how close we are.

AH....

But the time spent with her just now...it was different frm all the other times we've spent together. I thought it would only be us. But it turns out there were 4 of us. 2 of them are just back from Army duty...they're guys.

AH.

Not that I have anything against guys, but they were THE kind of boys. The whole complete package of everything I despise in a guy. Maybe I am being biased. Coz I was initially shocked when I saw them. And to even consider one of them as the bf of Cucumber...I was so damned confused, I lost my appetite.

AH, what lies life brings.

We were seated @ BK. They were eating. I was staring. There were no awkward moments-and I wasn't even properly introduced to them-coz I told myself to be strong for her. She, being the one who is so adept at reading my emotions, apologized when the 2 guys were buying a drink. Me, being the one who is so forgivable, forgave her and said "Nevermind" with a smile.

AH.

The guys. They smoke, they are vertically challenged, tattoos and they are the typical Mat you can see almost everywhere. But then, I couldn't be too harsh on judging them...coz they are humans who can feel insulted too.

AH.

Sometimes, she walks beside me, and other times, she held hands with him. Not that I disagree with that kind of physical contact, but seeing my friend just now was like meeting a whole new butterfly from a whole new coccoon. Those moments were awkward. Coz I would be tagging behind and the other guy would be walking next to me. And I would feel so confused. What exactly is the purpose of him bringing his friend along? And why, why did Cucumber didn't tell me earlier that they were coming? I would have said no.

So for the rest of the day, Rizel took over. She is more confident in these situations; where you have to just play along in order to save a friendship you treasure. I still love her. I just am afraid that she might think I'm trying to control her life. She is correct. It is her life, not mine. I could only watch from the sidestands: cheering her on, or aiding her when she fell and bruised herself and even throwing advices galore.

Back when we were in cckss, many people were surprised that we were that best friends. We are on opposite poles...with hardly any similarities. I was into anime and other related stuffs, she was into beauty and boys. How could we ever maintain a friendship this long I wonder? And still be bossom buddis too. It was a mystery that has been boggling my mind and also hers for years.


But I was so disappointed with her. No, I can feel that we are not heading for a downfall, it was just plain uncensored disappointment that is still aching in my chest now. I thought she values relationships with guys...but I would have never imagined her liking someone like that. He doesn't look like someone who goes to the mosque and pray 5 times a day. I bet $20 that he couldn't even read the Quran, or gave up halfway through. No, I don't look for a pious guy...but they must have and understand the basics...

Ok, I've babbled a little too much. Just hopes that she...well...yeah...buhbye.

Jokes ^^

Fun things to do during lectures...

1. Leave permanent markers by the dry-erase board.

2. Ask whether the first chapter will be on the test. If the professor says no, rip the pages out of your textbook.

3. Hold up a piece of paper that says in large letters "CHECK YOUR FLY". (At Least for the Male profs.)

4. Address the professor as "your excellency".

5. When the professor turns on his laser pointer, scream "AAAGH! MY EYES!"

6. Relive your Junior High days by leaving chalk stuffed in the chalkboard erasers.

7. Sit in the front, sniff suspiciously, and ask the professor if he's been drinking.

8. Correct the professor at least ten times on the pronunciation of your name, even it's Smith. Claim that the i is silent.

9. Sit in the front row reading the professor's graduate thesis and snickering.

10. Feign an unintelligible accent and repeatedly ask, "Vet ozzle haffen dee henvay?" Become agitated when the professor can't understand you.

11. Wink at the professor every few minutes. (Hey you might even get a date if he/she is cute.)

12. Every few minutes, take a sheet of notebook paper, write "Signup Sheet #5" at the top, and start passing it around the room.

13. Start a "wave" in a large lecture hall.

Pick-up lines:

1. "If I could re-arrange the alphabet, I'd put "U" and "I" together!"

2. Guy: Are you tired?
Chick: No, why?
Guy: 'Cause you were running in my mind all night!

3. Guy: You must be a parking ticket?!
Chick: Huh?
Guy: 'Cause you have "FINE" written all over you, baby!


The other night , a few friends of mine went out to this "Lady's Club." One of the women wanted to impress us. So, she pulled out a $10 bill.The male dancer came over to us, and my friend licked the $10 bill and put it on his butt. Not to be out done, one of the other women pulled out a $50 bill. She called the guy back over, licked the $50 bill, and put it on his other butt cheek.Now the attention was focused on me. What could I do to top that? I got out my wallet, thought for a minute, then the banker in me took over. I got my ATM card, swiped it down the male dancer's crack, grabbed the 60 bucks, and went home.


Nothing against blondes, there are lots of smart blondes out there, but this is just a funny joke XD:how do you know when a blonde is having a bad day?
--> when her tampon is behind her ear and she can't find her pencil o_O lol

What's the first question a blonde asks when she finds out that she's with child?
- *is it mine?*
What do u see wnen u look deep into a blonde's eyes?
-the back of her head


A man was in his car and this bonde in a red sports car hits him in the back. He gets pissed and stops the car. He gets out of his car and walks up to her car. He tells her to get out of the car and she does. He goes back to his car and gets out a baseball bat and starts breaking the windows of her car and creating dents. She had her back turned to him and began to giggle. He just got angrier when she did and now started to douse her car in gasoline that again he got from inside his car. Then he threw a match on it and it explodes. And she just giggles more. So he asks her: "Why the heck are you laughing?! WTF is so funny?!" she turns to face him as she was still giggling and says: "While you were... Uh... Busy... I snuck out of the car!"


Ok, and this one is funny: 50 Fun Things to do in an Elevator.
Since it is too long, i shall post bit by bit...

1. Make race car noises when anyone gets on or off.
2. Blow your nose and offer to show the contents of your kleenex to other passengers.
3. Grimace painfully while smacking your forehead and muttering, 'Shut up, dammit, all of you just shut UP!'
4. Whistle the first seven notes of 'It's a Small World' incessantly.
5. Sell Girl Scout cookies.

Today and Yesterday

Haha! Yesterday was the V day. It should be called Single-Awareness Day lah really. Coz all people snigger and scour for when they go outdoors on that day will be spying for single people walking down a street. Trying to look dignified..hehheh.

Eee..not like I enjoy the extreme public displays of affection for your significant other either.

Oh, we went Bugis for the video course. Very tiredlah. No mood.Talked about lighting and stuffs. Sian. But I had earlier bought a stalk of rose to present to mama and ayah. So when I was walking in Bugis Mall, me and YH looked like a lesbian couple.

Anyways, today we had fun torturing each other with stoopid jokes. Today is Total Defence Day. Tomorrow is Chinese New Year. We are having lou hei competition. Hoho...can wear smart and casual also...hoho...drinking bandung now. Hoho...

Dear Friend

Dear Friend,

What's on your mind

You don’t laugh the way you used to

But I've noticed how you cry

Dear friend,

I feel so helpless

I see you sit in silence

As you face new pain each day

I feel there’s nothing

I can do

I know you don’t feel pretty

Even though you are

But it wasn’t your beauty

That found room in my heart

Dear friend,

you are so precious

Dear Friend

Dear friend,

I'm here for you

I know that you don’t talk too much

But we can share this day anew

Dear Friend,

please don’t feel like you're alone

There is someone who is praying

Praying for your peace of mind

Hoping joy is what you'll find

I know you don’t feel weak

Even though you are

But it wasn’t your strength

That found room in my heart

Dear friend, you are so precious,

Dear Friend

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(song From: Rizel

To: Ikin, and most importantly...Cucumber= Let's go thru this rocky phase together like owaes yah?)

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O my gawd, I blogged a super lot today. What to expect...Oh ya, now I am gonna present my thank-you speech...(omg, this is like the Oscars!!)

>>Firstly...I would like to thank God. For instilling in me the fear of gory-ness, bcoz if He had not done so, I would have been a fugitive, wanted for a massacre.

Ok. And I would like to thank the person who invented this wunderful world of Internet, coz if he had not, I would have lost my mind with no avenue to vent out my frustrations. Hey, I hope u guys dun mind if I let loose here? Hahaa...

Right. And so, the angels Rizel told me about. Turns out it was and Eileen. Hahaa..no biggie surprise. Superman quickly (impressively more like, hoho) solved a mystery that had driven me up the wall (refer to my previous posts). To top it off, I have to say a Huge Thank You for lending me the Ulead CD. Thank U. And Eileen...thanks for pinching my cheek. I really couldn't smile properlylah. Stressed, u noe?

Should say Thanks to YH too..just for taking the trouble to reply me when I thought the world had abandoned me. May God bless u.

talk about irony....

stressed

I can't help it. I feel like That ^ now. I know I've posted a ton of entries today. Can't help it. Or else I'd go mad Mad MAD.

Even though u have friends, u still feel lonely sumtimes.

Why doesn't she pick up her phone? Does anyone take me seriously around here?

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ikin: Oh Patience, Patience, wherefore art thou, Patience?

rizel: Patience has apparently deserted your pathetic self, dimwit.

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WTH

It is so sad when technology can no longer be depended upon to reach your friends when you are in need of help.

I am so damn frustrated.

So much.

I feel like my fever is reborn within me, I can't breathe properly.

I am so angry.

Ok, think rationally. I need Rizel.
.......
........................
.........It is not their faultlah, they haf lessons mah...it's the computer's fault for not being able to open those files.....

The dateline is tomorrow!!

Oh gawd, my hands are freezing now. Shit.

.....Shit Happens...

Oh shut the hell up Rizel. Shit happens to me all the time puh-lease. Now, I'm hating everyone in this damn world.

........Think rational...find a solution...why are u so upset over this?...

Crap! Why am I so upset?? Because I feel that it is MY responsibility to make sure that we be the good students that we are and submit our assignment in time, which is like, tomorrow!

....=.="....

I can choose to ignore this and insist it's not my fault this shit happened, ok? And let this flunk. But here I am sms-ing, but nobody bothers to reply. Where is that promise? If she didn't promise, I wouldn't have expected her to reply anyways. Surely she has a break? No?

.......try again.....

Craplah, I sms-ed her loads already. And a reply? Nil. Called her twice. No answer. What is this? Are u a friend or not??!

........I think that's enough said...should calm down...and wait for the angels to send help your way...surely...

Ok.

In the meantime, I waste my time, sitting here like an idiot, waiting for the angels to send help, huh?

Ok.

I am still seething.

Dead Deviantart

My deviantart is SO dead. Ok, scanning something into it soon. Have to go school now. CCA stuffs etc etc...Yikes, what a creepy life!

B-O-R-I-N-G

tomorrow is W-e-d-n-e-s-d-a-y...

I don't think I can donate blood cuz I'm down with flu and all that....big sigh.

Tomorrow going Bugis for the video course. Not bad eh. haix...nothing exciting happened over the past few days. So B-O-R-I-N-G.

Epic Movie coming out this Thursday. If I want to watch, I have to fork out money again. So much for wanting to save money this year T.T

Money here, money there...

Played maple just now...hohoho...

My char (the one I shared with my sis) in Bootes finally reached lvl 41...after like decades of training...But she so chiobu...hohoho...many high lvl char flirt with her lah...Not bad eh...Got rose summore...hohoho...*evil gleam* But my char in cass gonna be way richer, was prettier, and way more powerful than the char in Bootes. Bwahahahaa!

Slipped Away

The world is going crazy too, just like me, just like us.

Want proof? Well, here's your proofS:

* Rampant, illogical warfare.

* The weather showing signs of becoming mental. I mean, look at how hard it's been raining...till it floods. Then suddenly...whoosh! sweltering hot sun beating down our backs the next day. And oh my gosh- snow is no longer beautiful...it's deadly. Global warming is what they say...yeah right, I prefer acknowledging it as ragnarok. (Ragnarok is a mythological Norse word. Be initiated enough to find out about it yourself.)

* AHH!! Mutated creatures makes their appearance!! A snake with heads on either end? A tree with a human face embedded in its trunk? I'm sure there are lots more. And sooner or later, animals will talk.

* H1N5 adopting the process of globalisation.

* Sex is becoming crude.

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I seriously think I'm born in the wrong era. All these hip-hop, bling-bling, high-tech games with high-tech names, they're all cool and fun. But sometimes, it makes me sick just to think about what these gadgets are doing to our values. Dissisipated.

I feel scared sometimes...that I'd be too immersed in being materialistic, and I would lose all that are important to me.

Isn't that nice?





-Rizel feels she is slipping away from the world she once knew and once loved-

Friday

Hey...

Can't really explain how I'm feeling right now. Came to school at 12.30pm, coz I promised Mich to show our charcoal drawings. Then, I met up with Ying Hua to shoot the video assignment,(or as I prefer to call it the 'ass' signment).

Met Izzati while waiting for YH at the playground. She looked nervous. Whahahahaaaa...eh, I so mean...
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Then about 4, we and Superman went to buy Sweetalk, and I bought sourplum. And it is really sour man. sheesh, never buying it ever again. Then I realised that they have gotten back their results already...so I, being the kaypoh extra, smsed them...then I got a shock. A big one.

The person that is closest to me...(as a friend, my special, bestest friend...)I found out that she sort of...didn't mak it. I felt like a loser. Like a stupid friend...coz when she sms-ed me her results, I was shocked that I couldn't find anything to say to her, except for a feeble 'It's gonna be ok". There she was, her heart breaking apart..and here I was...happiuly getting on with my life, and noot being there when she needed me.

For the first time, I had let her down. She was there for me every SINGLE TIME. She, no matter how busy she was, juggling her work and studies, and her complicated personal life...And I was ashamed of myself back there just now.

How to meet her, in person? What should I say to her in times like this? I am so scared that I would say something wrong, and KA-BoosHH...there goes her tears. I just don't want to see her cry.

AND MY GODDAMN HANDPHONE HAD TO DIE ON ME WHEN I MOST NEED IT!!!! Bullshit sia...

Ok, relax.

Blogging stops here for today.

Rizel was a failure as a friend.

Blood Donation Drive

Yay Yay Yay!!

Blood donation drive was a success!!! Hohoho...

It was held at mpr3 yesterday. Since there was a huge response from the student population, only the J1s were to donate yesterday. The J2s will be donating on Valentine's Day(including me)...aww..so sweet...

Anyways, the 25 of us student volunteers were expected to report at 12.15. The drive starts at 2 pm. At first, it was quite messy, coz we were all excited and eager, but a little loss at what we are to do. Finally, we were assigned roles. I became the clipper, where I get to clip off the blood flow in the plastic tube when they had reached their mark.

Hohoho...

Lemme see if I can recall any interesting things that happened yesterday...

Oh, the reporter from Straits Times came down and took photos galore...and it so happens I was in some of the photos she took! I peayed yesterday night when I got home, so that my face won't be published on the paper...that would be like omg.

Anyways, my gp teacher...omg...I tell you what happened...: the nurse inserted the bigbig needle into her arm already, when suddenly, the vein disappears. So she had to pull the bigbig needle out a little then insert it again. It went on for quite a while. In, out...in, out....

omg.

It was a scary sight, I tell u.

Oh, and a few of my friends from s04 came down to donate as well. Carine, Hui Min, Adib, Pallavi and Bernard. You rox guys! Hohoho...=)

Oh, and poor poor Adib. He only got to donate half a packet, becoz, halfway through, his blood stopped flowing into the packet. At some point when the nurses and even the doctor came down to check, I felt like my heart would stop, thinking about the blood flow that had stopped. I thought he would die. Scary man...

I hate to see death in the face. It brings back a particular bitter memory. Hell, it's not even supposed to be a memory. A memory is something nice. It's a nightmare.

And then...this one guy ah...he was so scary, I tell you...

HIs face became 'translucent' and he looked very very weak....So the nurses tilt the chair back. They told me the purpose of tilting the chair back was so that the blood in the tube would flow back into him. Really meh?

Anyways, made a few friends along the way...it was super fun...I got to wear surgical gloves! Yea man!!

There will be another drive on 14 Feb. Pls come down and support us. Hohoho...

Signing off! Up, up and away....~~Wheee....

Tomorrow

Ohohoh! Check out what I just added in my template! Try typin in your names too! It's so fu! (and sooooo true! <3 ) On a more serious note, (huh, why is it serious? 0.o) tomorrow will be the blood donation drive. The straits times are coming down and all that.

It's quite scary. If I can, I wouldn't want to get interviewed. Urghh...my mind would sometimes betray me and go haywire when talking to journalists. (not like I've tried before) Tomorrow will only be for the J1s.

And oh, I really really (times 100) was inspired by a friend of mine's drawings. (Hidaya) She drew real life people so acutely and nicely doen that I was shocked. Realisation revealed itself to me...I felt like there was a book, and that book suddenly flips open and I saw how I had treated myself. What do I mean? I realised that it's been quite a few months...(was it almost 2 years?) that I felt really driven to draw something and FINISH it.

Even my beloved drawing of CJS (capt Jack Sparrow) was half done. I couldn't concentrate. I wasn't lazy, in a sense, even though that factor may contribute. I was more of like feeling dejected and down; I didn't get to watch alot of animes blabla...sounds trivial? But...I guess the most major factor affecting me is the support I got from my parents, and my family members. I know I didn't start off with excellent drawings. It had improved over time. I had started with anime-style drawings. In sec 4, I drew Avril Lavigne.


My friends said it was nice but lack shadings, and so it looked plain, simply not bursting with life. But...they said it had emotion. The picture has emotions. That's what they said. I didn't get what they meant late in 2006, when I drew CJS... (hohohohoh)

Anyways, my family members didn't really appreciate my efforts at trying to make them proud via drawing. They say it's a useless skill...quite. Being an artist isn't worth your life. You can't connect with everyone. Which is quite true. Everytime they found out that I'm drawing, they would remind me that I'm better off studying.

How I wish is that, just for a day, they would, instead of looking at my drawings and saying "Hm...nice, not bad." and change the subject, they would say " Hey, I'm so proud that our daughter can draw like that.". Or...are my works that terrible, until they have to resort to fake comments? By showing them what I had done, was it a waste of their time? Then, I guess I had stopped pouring my heart in my drawings. Maybe that's why I'm buying smaller sized drawing books than the usual A4 like I used to.


I guess what I'm trying to search for is love through appreciating me for who I am and what I can do, instead of trying to make me into someone I don't quite like.


I wish things were like that. Yup....

*heartbreaks*

Mo0o0o0o0

Today was weird in a way.

Got to know more about my friends. Had so much new info coming in that I felt exhausted, what more to think of the video thingy.

The whole class had a scolding from our Chem teacher. For not handing in prac foles on time. Woa..

Then Bio, also kena scolding. Some didn't finish tutorial. Woa..

Yesterday, Singapore won the ASEAN cup. Woa..

Oh no! Busy now...Ciao.

Oh...I'm back.

Because I was dc from msn. Siao ar. Suay. Just downloaded the new version of msn. Then I was unceremoniously thrown out. And I can't sign back in. What happened, man? 0.o

Sorry you guys..kenneth, alex and berber...and yh also...gomenasai!

Off to drink milk...Mo0o0o0o...

NOOOO

ahh...

I haven't finish my homeworks!!!

*Panics*...

POTC!

OMG!

I'm watching POTC 2 now!!!!

sooooo....cooool....

*swoon

(Don't disturb me, or I might just chop u up in pieces and serve it to them Pelagostos.)

BBQ night

Yo ! I'm right here...with 2 people beside me... who are they? My kuzzins of course! MuahahAHAHAH!!!!


Had BBQ yesterday...till around 8...then me and Amber went home together. Quite lame...coz got no Alex and the other s04...Ramya!!! Why u went home?? sobsob...
Oh yah, Mr Wong excused me from the video course. at 1st I felt elated, but then I felt guilty coz I felt like I was dumping my responsibility. But I was really stressed out...and I can't stand having to listen to any video making stuffs anymore. I WOULD READILY EXCHANGE COURSE with Superman.

Piece of cr*p lah! Must do a 1 minute video on a place BY NEXT WED!!! Think I no life ah? And like my mom let me go out on a WEEKEND! Cr*p i tell ya. Stressing me out. Making me lose brain cells for no reason.

At the campfire, me and Jesslyn was strolling around, not really staying at our og. The other s04 ah...good for them...that their og seems fun and together. Oh ya, we went to dedicate a song. Me and Jess rushed off to find Bernaaard to get a piece of paper (later, we realised slips were provided...what an idiot me), then we asked Huda for a song, she pro: she immediately wrote down Smack That by Akon. Pro lah! That's what s04 likes to groove to! Especially Alex =p
For backup, we chose Irreplaceable by Beyonce. at the booth, there was a lot of people handing out dedications lah...can see that guy Ikhsan struggling to accept the flooding papers..haha..

BUT!

The super-irritating-disappointing thing was that there were TOO many dedication songs that Ikhsan had to choose a general song which is...the one that goes - 'L..is for the way u look at me..O is very very extraordinary...' blabla....

Aiyoh..lame lah...if i m an anime i would have those blue strokes at my forehead already lah. Diao. Me and amber planned to leave at 7 plus, but we ended up leaving at 8. Wanted to see them light the campfire. Quite beautiful, I must say =)

And my dancing sux bigtime! During orientation, dunno why, but I suddenly can memorise the steps in a flash, whereas yesterday, I would be better off doing the chicken dance. Yea, laugh guys, laugh...

Me and that very mischievious Amber went around 'terrorising' the other s04 using charcoal and slapping the black dust on their faces and their arms and their legs. Dadah, Eileen, Bernaaard and all kena, even Syakira...Pity no Papaya..or else ah..HAHA! Adib very funny reaction...I crept up on him on his right, amber at his left, then we 'smack that' on his cheeks. Then...after a stunned look, he went banging his head upon his friend's back and pretending to wail and shouting 'why?why?'

It was like dots....

(My sis and my kuzzins are playing Maple now.)

Hm..what else to say ah?

OH yah...yesterday was a special day for many people, including sk and xiuli. Their Birthdays of course! And not forgetting my dear granma also!(luv u!) I still have a long way to go before I turn 18 and thus can avoid parental permission to donate blood. Haha.
On 7 feb, there will be the blood donation thingy, and my mom (reluctantly) allowed me to donate some of my blood. So happy! All you kind souls out there! Rizel is appealing for u all to help save the lives of our fellow Singaporeans! woohoo....

Ok, byebye...

Birthday Day

Yesterday was so sian until I offended my mom, my dad and my sis with my attitude. But, that was yesterday. And today is now.

Me and the crazy people of S04 took lotsa lotsa pictures. It was crazy and fun, and I hurt my already hurt leg in the process of attempting to grab a picture of me taken illegally. Ramya! All your fault u papaya! >=D Eh, but I don't have a nice picture of Dadah. Must take again with her. Aiyoh... Wish I have a usb cable then can post the pics!

Grrrrrrrr.....

Superman! Domo Arigatou Gozaimasu for accompanying me eat. Hah, but fairlah..I accompany u update blog...Woohoohoo...*coughcough*

Oh YAH! Today was very strange..in a way because so many people had their birthday today...Sk and Xiuli...my granma(muacks), and a few other people celebrating at the canteen. Woa...concentrated bithdays. Anyways, HAPPY BDAE GUYS...!

Anyways, having that stupid course again today. A bit sian lah. Must do a video by next Wed. Crazy or what? Because of that video thingy cannot go bbq. THANK YOU FOR (nearly) ALWAYS BEING UNFAIR TO ME, O LIFE!

Scooting off now...my leg hurtslah. Oh...and sighs how to say ah...aiyah, maybe next time...