SO DAMN UNFAIR

Why can't the POTC crew shoot some of the parts in Singapore? Why? Why? *tears at hair*

Doushite?

GRRRRR.

Well, they can always shoot somewhere like near Pulau Tekong or something. I don't wanna see some German ship at Vivo City. I wanna see THE Black Pearl. Oh gawd...I just can't accept the fact that I may never see JD in person. So damn depressing. Doushite, mama? Doushite, papa?

What must I do to fulfill that dream?

I just wanna meet a real person, not some character on the big screen.

Gosh.

It's not like I asked for something Huge...Like..like: I wish there would be no more Wars and there would exist perpetual, blissful, peace.

Sheesh.

So unfair.

And here I am, a pathetic soul, whining about her petty misfits...while people out there are being maimed by Hunger, Disease, and staring into Death's tempting eyes.

So I guess I should jolly well stop before I condemn myself.

Well...how to put it in simple terms...?
Full of weird stuffs happening...but not that I am an alien to these things...

But I do hate so much when dreams start to blind my vision...and clouds my judgement.

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Get well soon Superman! I know u can! *winkwink*
______Praying for u____________


Yay! I cannot wait...DO U HAVE THE SLIGHTEST IDEA HOW I feel when I saw the trailer at Hidaya's blog?
Like my head and my heart wants to explode, cause it's swelling so damn much.
It's freaky and I am crazy. Potent.
This may sound a tad perverse, but I do so damn much want to live in HIS world...Or in Anne Rice's vampire books' world.
ARGH!!!!!!!!

....And we can't eat pork coz that creature (although it is a living thing which we can't abuse) is deemed as 'dirty'. This is coz pigs are omnivores...they basically gobbles up anything...which explains the title of ' The World's Heaviest Pig' that popped up in the Straits Times sometime ago (can't rmb when). So, due to that nature, they may eat even their own shit or other's. Islam practices hygiene, so eating your own shit is the last thing you would do as you probably would be bestowed upon, some 'magical' disease which may lead you to meeting your Creator sooner than you expected....Thus, by avoiding the consumption of pork, we are practising what Islam preaches, which is hygiene.

Hahas! Hope that clears up some of your questions!

Ah, sheesh.

This morning my ct for last year went up to me. I was at the canteen at 8.00 am, I pon gp, coz I had this blood brochure thing to do. She called me Azie. Huh? I was a bit annoyed that she still can mix our names up. She asked how I was coping. I told her, "yeah, great."


Inside me, I was like, "hey, I'm still sitting here doing this bloody thing, and not out there smoking ganja or what right?" But, yesh, I do appreciate that she showed a little concern though. I just can't help being mean.


Then our *cough* beloved PE teacher came and asked the same thing a short while after my ex-ct left.


Woa.


Tmr having a session (I dunno what else to call it) with the other 3 guys and Ms Teo @ 12.30pm. Sighs..like this can't meet Rach.


The other day, I had a super weird dream. I dreamt I was a vampire, and I was engaged in a physical fight with this person (can't recall who), whom I had stolen his necklace which makes him more powerful than me. I dreamt of flashing incisors, snarls, and fast movements.


So far..I have around 4 or so dreams which I categorise as 'vivid and uncanny', because they somehow breathe life to some of my imaginations (yea, you know, one of my hobbies is to daydream). Like once, I was a vampire ( I have 4 vamp dreams so far; some are elaborate, while mostly are short clips), and I was actually stalking my prey. I woke up with my adrenaline pumping...


.............

My favourite:

Dreaming that I was standing on a HDB flat, with wings (you know, like the one in X-Men), and I was looking down at the nightlife...quiet and peaceful. The sky was black, with sparse stars. There was a moon, shining so brightly above. And I felt the chill the night possesses. Then after a minute of soaking in the atmosphere, I opened my wings, and in a flurry of motion, I really really felt like I was flying. At first, there was this swoop downwards, so I felt a gliding motion. Then as I steadied, I felt so alive. I couldn't describe it, this feeling. Sometimes, during boring lectures, I would purposely bring out this feeling, and then I would stare at some spot for a while (it didn't work sometimes though). Back to the dream, I found myself flying through the walls and entering a kitchen, where 2 people were doing stuffs. I flew right through them. At the moment when I did that, it was as if I saw myself floating past these people: a translucent being with white wings. Apparently, the people didn't feel anything as they showed no reaction. Then I was back in that body, and I was gushing out into the cold, beautiful night again, and the dream ended.

I first had this dream in sec 4, towards the end of the year, after o lvl. The SECOND time I dreamt it again was last year, in J1. I thought it was nice for that dream to visit me again, with exactly the same events happening. =)

Hahas!

Just now in the library, I sat down at the Chinese section with this book about cancer lah..I was copying down some things. A few minutes later, this librarian with a monk came to the shelf. The librarian being a librarian, told me to sit somewhere else. Immediately after showing the monk the shelf, she walked away; and I started to shift...when the monk suddenly gestured to me to sit..that he didn't mind if I was blocking him. He was smiling summore. Very funny. Imagine if the librarian knew I didn't change place! Haha!

Wah, alot of ppl appealed to s04. Now, we have 30 ppl. With Hidaya!! Ehehehh...

Today was one tiring day....

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I am a person who believes strongly in Fate. Yet, somehow, what happened earlier left me quite shaken.

Today was an excellent example of the works of Verdandi, the Norn that weaves the Fate of humans. Now that I reflect back on the stuffs that happened that led to this...it's quite hair-raising in a way.

First, something inside me head suddenly whispers to me that I should take a neoprint with my friends.

And then, I saw my hand reaching out for my hp....

On Monday, in the morning, I was in a i-feel-like-shit mood. And I kelt muttering to Azu and Iz that I have no mood, and I felt that some things are bothering me.

It's true that some trivial, small-small stuff did happen to me sometime along my life this year, and I was bothered by the fact that I was bothered by these small-small things, which I wasn't supposed to be bothering about.

Usually, when I wanna take neoprints, I would feel the excitement, even a teeny wee bit...but today, especially in the bus, my brain was all the way at Jupiter; and Jupiter isn't even considered a planet nowadays.

Had a supreme fun time decorating those photos =)

But then something really bad happened. azu's purse got stolen. We believe it was stolen coz all the circumstance surrounding the mystery points to the obvious. Someone must have taken it.

We had a pretty good suspect, but after much stress and a few confrontations...we couldn't find the evidence that they took it. well, if u ask me (which u obviously didn't), I would say that they had plenty of opprortunities to dispose of the evidence.

Liar, liar, pants on fire.

Uh oh, now I'm being a tad unreasonable here.

No matter what , what is left to be done now is to pray for the best.

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There has been quite a stir recently about the little massacre that took place in a little van carrying tourists in a little country in Asia. Barging into the van and blowing away people's heads...it's downright sick.No survivors.Yep, these terrorists strikes again...

We read in the Qur'an that taqwa (God-consciousness) is the only distinguishing factor between human beings.

"O humankind! We created you from a single (pair of a) male and a female, and made you into nations and tribes, that you may know each other (not that you may despise each other). Verily the most honoured of you in the sight of Allah is the most righteous (or God-conscious) of you. And Allah has full knowledge and is well acquainted (with all things)." (Sura 49:13)

See that? 'not that you may despise each other'. And what gives them the right to just eliminate innocent lives like they own the world? Cray people. No brain. Think they are so right and we are all sinful people. Hey, show me some glowing angel wings sprouting behind your backs, then perhaps I would listen.

Sheesh, we Muslims don't really need these kind of misled people in today's world. I mean, look at the weapons they use in wars nowadays. You don't really wanna use them unless you want to live in terror.

I think our dear Earth is aging fast. Just hope She can tolerate us just a little while more before Armageddon, or Ragnarok, or whatever; and not kick us out early. I mean, look at all the things we have done to offend her! Pollution, generating weapons of mass destructions, and a torrent of wars, big or small alike.

Gotta go eat dinner now. sighs. What a nice cute world I live in.

Whee!
Internet is back up! Watching Naruto ep 105 on youtube ~
Jaa, dewa mata!




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Btw, I got to know thru http://www.narutocentral.com/information/birthdays/
that Kakashi-sensei's birthday is 15 Sept! That is like a day after mine!!! Waaah!! So fated, Sugoi!!!!!
Demo...
Hatake Kakashi: 26 years, 181.0 (cm)
=.="
Nooo...!
Why the hell do I always end up liking an older guy??!!
Kuso!
Ie..
He is still mine! Wahahaa!!
Shimatta!
I just found out...:
Hatake: Field
Kakashi: Scarecrow
..........*no comments*..........




Are you a big Naruto fan? Well below are some signs to show that you are addicted to Naruto!


· Dye your hair blonde and try to walk up a tree.
· Live by a strict diet of only ramen.
· Call your semester exam a chuunin exam.
· Trade in your favorite hat for a forehead protector.
· Roll your eyes back in your head and shout "byakugan".
· Copy every thing a person does and claim it's your bloodline.
· Stay up all night waiting for the release of the next manga chapter.
· Start adding the words chan and kan on the end of your friends names.
· Paste a piece of paper that says come come paradise on the front of adult books.
· Jump off a cliff and attempt to use Kuchiyose No Jutsu to summon the toad king.
· Keep all your money in a frog shaped wallet.
· Memorize the 64 points of Ninpou.
· Stick your hand in a electric box and scream "chidori" as you pass out.
· Join a website and use the name Neji as your s/n.
· Start to call your teachers Sennin.
· Claim your going to kill your best friend so you can have a better Sharigan.
· Sit in your local book store and read the manga all day.
· When someone ask you who your dream girl is and you say Ino.
· Agree to stay up and write this list so you can be added to the staff of Naruto Central.
· Spend your week searching down Naruto sites.
· Refuse a date because your saving yourself for Sakura.
· Graduate high school and proclaim yourself as an Anbu.
· Cry at the flash back scenes of Sasuke's family.
· Try to hit Itachi through the screen when he tortures Sasuke.
· Put a picture of Hinata in your wallet and tell your friends it's your girlfriend.
· List Anbu as current occupation on a job application.
· Can spout out a random character quote on command.
· Draw symbols on a scroll and try to seal a whole in a wall with it.
· Sneak around and try to beat your grand father.
· Wake up in the middle of the night and scream "Itachi why?!?!".
· Eat all day and all night, and then try to roll into a ball and run someone down.
· Get bit by a snake and decide stabbing the wound is a good idea.
· Read manga 24 hrs non stop just so u can read more.
· Decide that if u can't hit a tree 1500 times then You'll jump rope 1500.
· Decide to call your moral code your "ninja way".
· When you run, you run with your arms behind you.

13.03.07

Today, on the way home from the mosque, I saw a guy with long, greasy hair, wearing a black shirt with Osama's face on it, printed big big, with the words "Well-known" underneath. Wow. That guy has guts.

Meeting Azu today to make that card thingy.

11.03.07

Weehee!! Had a super great day with Sha2 and Fiqahchu. The whole morning we watch Naruto. Mama and Ayah treat us to a scrumptious Mac Donald's breakfast (although I vowed not to eat their burgers or fries ever again). Then we played a game of Monopoly before lunch. I won, duh-uh ^.^ My sister was quite mental, blabbering about "becoming the Hokage" and trying to possess each of the house colours. Crazy, yea?

Lunch was hot macaroni =D.

Then we played Scrabble.

*chortle*

We played normally at first, then for the next game, i suggested we make names instead of words.

My sis, miraculously, has this 5 tiles that makes up the word....*drum roll*....JR GAI!!!!

*explosion!!* Whahahahah...Jr Gai?!!

And Fiqahchu had GGAAII...this is an eerie coincidence.

At night, we watched Scooby-Doo: Monsters Unleashed. Then we 'sleep'. Wahah! So fun, should have more sleepovers!! Yoshi!

10.03.07

Went to school around 5.00pm to shoot the campfire. Saw Pallavi and Jesslyn and I went high with them. Funny sia, they all. I was carrying the same old camera as the other day. So damn heavy...my neck hurts. Hehheh...

Imagine having to cover the campfire alone! And some more I not so pro as they all, coz I'm from video mah..

Hidayad got help me a bit lah, but we both don't have the guts to go up front when they were performing. Somehow, the sight of the countless sea of faces quenched my sense of responsibility. =)

But the best part was when after the fire has been lit. Oh, and it was very funny when the person tried to light the fire...the burning tip he held fell and rolled on the parade square! That was like, so cool. For once, something alarming might happen. And I was anticipating. But unfortunately, nothing bad happened. I was on the second floor beside the hall, and I could clearly see the excited stirs among the students below. Wahaha..!

Then after that got mass dance and fun dance! whee....!! The Myres danced in a circle. I skipped Ronson..yea..! Oh, but the dance was lesser compared to last year's O2. Only 2 rounds, if I'm not wrong. Sighs, not that high enough lah...but it's ok I guess.

Went home around 9.00pm plus. Halfway outside the school shelter, I remembered that I haven't placed the MC room keys in Mr Wong's pigeon hole...so with great difficulty, I had to move my heavy legs back to school. Everyone was moving away from school, while I was going against the flow of students. Paiseh.

Crappy day.

Bullshit.

To hell with them lah.

Cannot think logically ah? Siao.

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Anyways...can't wait for orientation to be over. All sorts of unnecessary trouble keep popping up like popcorns. But unlike popcorns, they're not tasty. They taste like vomit and is headache inducing. Sometimes, teachers can be so damn dumb. Why can't they see it from our POV? Keep insisting. Annoying. Not like it's super beneficial to us. Drain our parent's money have lah. Stupid course. Stupid school. Stupid. Stupid.

In the first place, the school already sort of treat us repeat students like we are going to be sort of problematic. That's why they give us those counselling cards and arrange us in small counselling groups. Well, let them have it then. They want problematic J1 seniors, I can give it to them.

If nobody provokes me with flimsy logic, nobody would have to get attitude from me, fair enough. I am talking about educators here. EDUCATORS. My god, the word itself implies a great, almost divine being and purpose.

Did anyone read the newspapers? Teachers have been making their appearances for all the wrong reasons. One slashed at her student's tongue because he wouldn't shut up. The other student was a pitiful victim of circumstance, where the flying marker's intended target was the noisy boy behind him, but it ended up hitting his left eye, and which would probably render him blind.

Are teachers this caring? Wow. What creative and effective approaches they have up their sleeves for wayward students. I'll be sure to zip my mouth in class before I get my ear bitten off, with the reason that I wasn't paying attention.

Yeah, I know I'm generalising. But the bottom line is that there are these kind of people in this world, who, unfortunately, were tasked with imparting bountiful knowledge to us youngsters.

It is just wrong. They all should be sacked without further ado. They are humans. With a high education. Can't they think before they act? (Yea, and they keep stressing that to us, like, get a mirror will ya?)

Second day of orientation

Turned out to be quite a tiring day. Didn't expect to be assigned a duty to take photos of their orientation. Fun le! To Azu who helped me take lots of photos (during the mass dance especially..I was low on batt): Domo Arigatou Gozaimasu! Yoshi. And to Hidayad who enthu himself during war games: Thank U also! Made my work easier...wahaahaa...

Omg. I sound freaking lazy.

Hahas.

>eh, not bad ah u guys, can join Media club, pro sia.<

Woa, during the war games Pallavi and Jessica were like 'noble' warriors attacking their classmates like Izzati, Hidaya, Adib...Woohoo, wish I was playing too. Too bad.

These past few days has been really humid man.

Still thinking whether or not I want to attend Campfire on Saturday. If I do, then I crash to Myre lah. Found out from Izzati just now while walking back together that Ronson and Evans ar allies. Heh.

One week March hols coming pretty soon. School starting real soon. Hm.

I felt happy at the end of today. Yay!! I talked to 'ano hito' today! Yay! Heart was pumping a bit fast. Hehe. 'Ano Hito' was near lah, but funny le, I can still talk like normal although inside me was like a uzumaki. Whoopies!

A nice end to today.

Yeaa!! I didn't attend the orientation today!!
And I don't feel like attending the Friday's one either...the campfire...I dunnoe...very sian la...
Ok, sayonara..

Yeaa!! I didn't attend the orientation today!!
And I don't feel like attending the Friday's one either...the campfire...I dunnoe...very sian la...
Ok, sayonara..

Today's plan was cancelled coz of cca. Sheesh. Gomen, Hidaya-chan.

Tokorode...

Bought a new wallet. Kakashi. Ehhehheh...cost $6.90. But my old wallet is worn out already.Tried to console myself...*grin*

Tomorrow orientation 2 starts. Found out just now @ sch that I am in the same og as Syakira only. The rest all scattered. Aiyoh, so sad lah...Nevermind, will cheer myself up by thinking that we will all be in the same class.

Watashi wa kowakunai.

Nazenara...

Kamawanai.

Hai.

Useless...I DO care. Who am I kidding? Doushitano??

Oh oh! Anyways, this morning (4got what time) me and a friend was at the library to drop off some books after I FINALLY got the laptop from pj. Something strange happened lah. We were sitting down before a tall shelf filled with books. Out of the blue, I felt my body shaking, like moving to and fro. I thought: I that was it, I'm finally mad; or I've actually gotten this really fatal disease and I'm gonna die right there.

Turns out it wasn't only me who felt it. My friend felt it too, when she turned to me and smiled (SMILED! for goodness sake) and asked me what that was. So, I have no choice but to force my disappointed self to come to the conclusion that it was a tremor we had experienced.

Then I thought: OMG! A tremor in Singapore?=Earthquake in Singapore?

Finally!! I admit I find it interesting if an earthquake really happens in Singapore despite their proclamation that it's impossible. God is all-powerful dearies...don't forget that.

Found out from Alvin that there was an earthquake in dunnoe where lah, but it is at 6.9 at the richter scale.

Woa...first time feeling tremors.

Really frightening but at the same time I was sort of anticipating a disaster..even a small-scaled one. I want to see what happens . But I can tell u the feeling when the tremor shook me..I felt like I was being pushed on a swing.

Ok, talk too much. Oyasuminasai.

Edit^^

Discovered a blog of my friend when I was in sec 4. Nur Aisyah. Woa..I kinda miss her lots. Never actually thought I would be feeling like this, but I miss her rants and her strong sense of rebellion..and the way she speaks her mind. Hahah..yea, missed those. Now she is doing animation stuff at a poly (*can't rmb). Coolright?

This edit may sound childish, beware. Only those ppl who watch anime can relate. U have been warned.

Huh...I recall so clearly..a few of us 'outcasts' aka those who didn't fit in very well. Us weirdos. *laughs* Yea..found a friend in her, though at that time I was more timid then I am now. *so proud! sobs*

We and a few others sat together during recess and talked bout anime, blabla...cool. I rmb that I was so in love with Lestat from Anne Rice bks. She wants Armand. Ahaha...now I'm smiling. Can't help it sia...we were so having fun.

I rmbr the day we went cosplaying. And U and Jessica (was it?) dressed up as Gothic lollitas. Everyone in the train was like looking at us. Woots.

Oh, and I rmb the day we and Paul DM and Paul V went to CDANS and played the shooting game. I swear if I were to play that game, I would vaporize every one of the enemy, man. Last time I was so scared for what...Aiyoh. Embarassed sia...

Yup...I think that's all fornow...wish that I can meet u someday...hahas...till then, have a gr8t life! Gackt rox yea!!

Sighs, it happens, like I had feared.

And I feel sad about not doing a thing to stop it.

No guilt though, just a weary surrender. She's my friend though. So that's why.

I am just hoping she is sincere.

And that she would finally ditch her lifestyle now and adopt a new one soon, or she'd be a goner. She didn't want this kind, she used to tell me when she was little. We had shared similar hopes..and I know I am trying my best to achieve and hang on to what I believe.

But what ticks me off is that she is not doing the same. I don't think she knows what she's doing. I wan to advise her, but look at where the mountain of advices I gave her the last few years went?

Later on going to school to collect laptop. Then meet her. My original plan was to meet up with Hidaya to go to library...but I guess it can't be helped. Still meeting Hidaya, but she will tag along. She will be meeting another friend of hers...

See? It's like I am not important anymore just because I am considered your 'permanent' friend in life. That is so ironic yeah...turning to me only when you have problems. I've always taken the initiative, never expected much of you. But.

I need to get ready for school.

Pick your birthday, then your date...hahas!!

January--i danced with
Febuary--i loved
March--i choked on
April--i licked
May-- i kicked
June--i murdered
July--i sang to
August--i had lunch with
September--i ran over
October--i smoked
November--i yelled at
December--i kissed

Pick the day (number) you were born on:

1-------a paperclip
2-------a monster
3-------a phone
4-------a fork
5-------a gangster
6-------a mexican
7-------a llama
8-------a banana
9-------myself
10-------my neighbour
11-------an ipod
12-------my dog
13-------chuck norris
14-------a stuffed animal
15-------a goat
16-------a pickle
17-------your mom
18-------a spoon
19-------a bastard
20-------a football player
21-------a permanent marker
22-------my boyfriend tounge
23-------a noodle
24-------my girlfriend
25-------a baseball bat
26-------my sister
27-------a thornbush
28-------my boyfriend
29-------my science teacher
30-------my cell phone
31-------A homeless guy

Pick the color of shirt you arewearing:

White------Because im sexy
Black-------Because im a ninja.
Pink--------Because im homosexual.
Red---------Because i love her.
Blue--------Because the voices told me
Green------Because I hate myself.
Purple------because im an ass
Gray--------Because im drunk as hell
Yellow------Because someone offered me 1,000,000 dollars
Orange----Because i hate my family.
Other-------Because that's how I roll.

Thursday

Heh.

Arigatou Izzati. When no one else feels obligated, you came forward.

I'm so pissed off with Chem.

Tomorrow is the release of a lvl results. All the best, guys! Woohoo!

I can't wait for tomorrow...during CT we're goin wild taking pics after pics. Yeahh!! I really don't want to leave this class. It's just the way I like it. I'm gonna be sad. SIGHS.

Yea...Hidaya's friend says she wanna join MC. Izz too..maybe. At least I have friends in there, when the J2's move out. Let's see...that only makes 2 ppl. Oh, n Kk also. So 3. Haiyoh...this is depressing. If only got Azie..brrr.... I don't think the response for this yr would be as great as my yr for MC.I think.

Parents going to Johor this Saturday. Yappari! That means can watch Naruto whole day! Hoho...

Annnd lastly : It is not nice to talk behind a person's back, and leaving someone in the dark.

Hai, tabemasu neh..ja, mata ne..sayonara. Tenkataihei.