....Let me Be...Me...

Just....

Let me...

No, talk to me, I need this.

Just shut up, please......

Please, please.

No more-no more-no more...

[[ Kainan High School Visit ]]**[[ SIF Metro ]]

Blaaa....supposed to update this post yesterday but as USUAL, my internet was down. WHat The?? Ok nehmind...

Alright, yesterday was FUN! There was this special concert to welcome students from Kainan High School from Japan!!!! They were so cute lah! Everytime I look at them (there were 150 of them), I was reminded of: ANime, Anime, and more Anime. perpetually hoping that some Chrno lookalike from Chrno crusade or perhaps some Kira Yamato from Gundam would make himself known...then I would go berserk! Yaaarggh!

Okay, none of them appeared, but there was this weird guy in a cute...no Strange...eh...what am I trying tosay? Ok, all I know is that he was so terrifyingly weirdly funny on stage! They were supposed to sing some Japanese song and he was like the ONLY one singing with abandonment...he waved his hands in the air, at the same time, his shirt was raised and his belly was displayed to us. Then he was shouting, or shieking or whatever that strangely weird short yell was. But his antics were not annoying nor disgusting. It was funny. I think it's because he was doing it innocently, it feels like it's part of him. I think his character would be very eccentric.

After that, we managed by a twist of fate (thanks to SK) to pose for a picture with some of the Jap students. Whee...can't wait to see the pics!!

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Anyways, my mom doesnt allow me to go jalan Raya AGAIN. Well, all these years I have been tolerant, why can't I do the same for this year, right?


SIGHS. There was a talk on the SIF Metro thingy this morning for assembly. Can't wait for it to start. Mine is on 25 and 26 Novfrom 3pm to 8pm. I'll be at the Paragon in Orchard, Hey, you guys MUZ MUZ come down and support this cause ok? It's for disadvantaged Cambodian Children.

You all will get goodies if you all donate too...=D Furthermore, I think it should be around Christmas, so please do come down and give us your support and SHOW your COMPASSION Guyss!!! RAWR!!!


*groan* Next Monday, we will be getting back our report cards. GAG. I do not know if I get retained anot. What if I do? Well, I'll just do another year and do it well enough to score for my a lvls. If I get promoted...I'd better start praying like mad and study like hell. If not...well if not, the consequences will be too distressing to mull about.

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SVA. Hmm....one of the things that itches at the back of my mind nowadays. Singapore Video awards? I think that our filming has been rocky lately. It started out fine and dandy. But then, there was a clash of schedules. And differences. And difficulty in making the video itself.

Hmm...

Sighs....



Hope that we can finish it and do as well as we can on this. Nothng in life is easy aite? Take all these difficulties shoved at our faces in our strides aite? Or we will be a sad dummy.

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Random shout: I LOVE my Class!!!! 06s05 rocks like mad ah!

Hm...Azie...secret ah...but about the dream right? You all were sitting in a room I think, then he said "Selamat Hari raya". Kehkehekeh...

It's sorta cute.

Not suggesting anything though.

Oh yea, while we are on the topic of secrets, I wish to vent my frustration about this person who has 'harrassed' me recently. Ok, it goes like this>>

*I was innocently minding my own business at home when suddenly there was an sms.

* It was from a no. I do not recognise.

* It says Can I Be Your Friend?

* I ignored.

* the person sent another in Chinese. I replied that I do not speak Chinese. The person was then ignored for a day.

*The next day, a friend of the person apparently asked me if I was so busy that I could not reply the smses.

* I replied that I did not give away my hp no. to strangers coz they claimed that a friend went up to me to ask for my no.

*I was 'chided' by the friend, saying that I shouldn't give my hp no. if I do not want to be friends with the friend...

*The friend said that they will stop this. (phewh)

*On the eve of Hari Raya, I received an sms from the person wishing me n family goodwill for Hari Raya...

What is going on here? Is this person a damn prankster? Stoooohpit stooohpiiit...I hate no answerssss!!! RAWRRR....!

::: Results day :::

Updating my deviantart account now.
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Today is the day that I get back my results. Try and guess how I fared? Do I sound exhilarated? cheerful? not bothered? Um...sad?

Haha...its ok. I'm not sad neither am I jumping for joy. I am smiling coz of the fact that I had improved from my mid-yr exams. Rmbr? I had a 'U' for Math, Chem and Bio...ALL of which were my H2 subjects, with a D for GP and a subpass for Geo. Tewwible, u might say? I cant agree less.

This morning, I came to school with a VERY heavy heart. It was like carrying a huge T-Rex (dun laugh guys) on my chest. I had trouble breathing properly. Anyways, the day started off quite boh-ring. There was this talk of MT a lvl exams. the teacher was not that efficient and was b0h-ring. But hey! One thing I regret last year was not doing my HMT end of yr exams seriously, coz those were in fact going to be the grade for my a lvl MT! My goodness was I frustrated when I realised Im stuck with a B for Malay.

Anyways, back to the main topic. Well, the first paper to be checked was MATH. My sec friends would understand perfectly well that I was no whizz in numbers. But...BUT...Amazingly, I managed to obtain a C! Miraculously. I didnt know I could do it. Seriously Im serious. Our class's beloved teacher, Mdm Lim even gave me a cert toacknowledge my improvement. It was that significant huh? *grins* I was damned shocked lah. KK and Sam got it too. Edwin received a cert for obtaining 80+ for Math. Wao.

Ohk, that's for Math. Next on the list was Bio. OMG. I just scraped a Pass. An E. It was so howibly scary. I thought I was gonna FAIL. Its amusing to see that now, we (at least I am) are relieved when we got back our papers and saw that we had just passed. Compared this to sec school where we aim for a high grade, lets say an A or a C. Amusing isn't it?

Ok, so I was heaving with relief. But then I saw our Chem teacher sauntering in. Hes a funny guy, I think he's one of a kind..and oh yeah..hes dating our Bio teacher...WOOTS.

Chem...haix...I dunno what else to say..I got a U. It was not that disappointing if you had known how much I studied for dear Chem. Half a day. And it was before the exam day itself. Hey, I was mugging for Geo! Both subjects were ont he same darned daY! That's not my fault!....Nothing more to comment on Chem.

So now I had 2 H2 passes. Just praying that when mid-yr and CA are added, it would still be a pass.

GP was not that worrying. Though I have yet to come to terms that I am no longer the top few that scores for Eng. Mich got the highest in our class. Well done gal! I got a C. Hm...is there a chance I will be pushed to a B? Keep that hope alive...(laugh guys, LAUGH...oohhhkae...)

There was a long sleepy break before the return of Geo Papers. I was drawing the Harry Potter you asked for Mich...
Ohk..Geo was not bad. I got a D. Hopefully with the addition of mid yr and CA I can get a B or C. Hurrah.

So now today is nearly over, this dreaded day will soon come to pass. It turns out to be not that bad after all.

Tomorrow is Hari Raya. Well...I hope Hari Raya will turn out cool too. No more comments. Have a nice day everyone! And Azie...haf fun at Paragon yea, and try see the bright side of things now that you're GONNA get promoted! Cheers everyone!

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______The World has a habit of Making Way for People who has a Goal in Life_______

{ this is Life }

____I'm at home. Lost Heaven is playing on my radioblog website. It's quiet and serene. It's raining outside.

Let me descibe the rain. It's as fine as skeins of angel hair. It splashes everywhere, softly on the leaves on the shivering trees, on the hard road. The rain is gentle today, not angry and lashing, but silky and caressing.

Its so dark in my room. Shadows peering at me everywhere. So dark. I breathe in the breeze that visited me awhile ago. Smells of dew and leafy moisture. Closes my eyes and dreamt of the Amazon. So wild and so free____


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___PJC Open House____

HEy HEy HEy!

i KNOW TODAY IS sATURDAY. iT'S the Day afTer oPen housE.
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Open house, for me was lukewarm, though there were a few exceptions. To me, it was not that crowded and it seemed to lack the ooomph. We started off with the mass dance and fun dance. I admit that I forgot the dance steps...s2pid me. *gag* like I can remember anything well...

Anyways, our class didnt want to set up a stall but we were coerced into setting up a stall by the SC. I lingered around my CCA booth (media club) for a while; me and yingHua giving out decorated ice cream sticks to people. After a while, I decided to visit my class booth, where poor Mich and saraH were mulling over inevitable fate of manning the cursed stall (we didnt make a single cent). People were supposed to pay a dollar to knock down as many bottles as they could, with sweets as prizes. Heh..I, Azi and Sarah were going for the trial run when the donor of the tennis balls came to check on his balls.

AZIE>>>>u HAD to say my dream out LOUD. I wouldn't want to take ANY risks, especially within earshot....

Oh, and Chee Wai's class bought live ikan bilis. We had to choke out a dollar for ten seconds of fishing. If u ask me, I wouldn't call that fishing. I would call it TORTURE. No offence, Azie..u catch pretty decently, except the part in which u just dumped the poor ikan bilis into the cup...which was NOT filled with H20.

hahahhaah....oohhhhk....

Oh yeah, the ten of us ( Azie, Mich, Eileen, WeiLin, Daniel, KK, Samuel, Joshua, Kenneth and of course..ME!) went to the Haunted house 5 at a time. Thx a lot Mich, Azie, KK and Daniel for efficiently shoving me to be in the lead. *That was sarcastic btw*
We had to watch a stoopid video 1st, in which we were shown some panting human running away insanely from an unknown entity. Farnie. Haha.

After that, we were told yo follow this gal with a glowing wristband in case we got lost (we did...many times). I kept my eyes open for a good few minutes before trying to walk blindly with my eyes shut. I decided that neither works for me...

Michelle was trying to make an indent on both my arms I think...thx...-.-" jkg jkg.

They (yes, the 2 boys 2) were screaming almost all the way..hehheh...alright, I admit that I screamed once or twice, but wht spoiled the fun was the prescence of the glowing bracelet worn by the girl that was always hoverig before me. Quite annoying actually. Anyways, here comes the BEST part...during the short span which I had closed my eyes, I blundered straight into a dead end on both sides. There were some leg gripping in an attempt by the 'ghosts' to frighten us, so people behind were screaming. I heard Azie laughing hysterically. Hmm...>.<>

I swirled around and gripped Mich by her arms. Then I screamed. At the top of my lungs. Before I did this there was a moment of silence. After I opened my mouth...a nanosecond later, the others were scrambling around the darkness frantically, their screams rising to a crescendo in less than a second. Honestly, there was a bubble of laughter gurgling its way from my throat, threatening to spoil the 'fun'. So I stifled it. It was fun...but mean...Mich was spinning arond madly, grabbing anyone she felt(she shut her eyes throughout). Sorry Mich...but u guys were s cute..erm..I mean your reactions. Also, when we saw the door, Mich and azie literally shoved me aside just to hustle outside first...it was damN funny ah...like my sis reaction to fear..
Hey, maybe one day we should try to go on a haunting hunt....^^
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Watching Bollywood Queen now. Not going to the mosque to pray tonight coz I'm having my period. Yafoo! *scofff* Feeling kinda fien right now...but Monday will be Horrible, I tell ya. Getting back results for promo. Just praying hard not to get myself expelled.Retain would be great. It's not a waste of a year (as my mom thinks) but its great as it serves as a revision and reinforcing my basics. So that Im prepared for the BIG Exam. It's difficult to persuade my mom though. I think I should just let her be. Let her be disappointed first, then she will get a pleasant surprise when she sees my a lvl results. If I retain. IF I get promoted, then it's a different story altogether. I will lose more hair and perhaps even get depression...just to catch up on topics.


---------------------Be your own hero
-------------------------------Sing your own song
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[[ life ]]

It's been such a long time since I updated my blog with a new post. A lot has happened to me. Some bad, some good....mostly bad...

Anyways,went to Ren Ci Hospital last Saturday. It's a voluntary event organised by Al-Khair Mosque in conjuction with the holy month of Ramadan. Me and my fwen (Sham) were pretty hesitant when we heard what our teachers told us before the trip. She (the teacher) warned us (jokingly?) not to be shocked if we see deformities (like having half a head) on the old people there. Immediately, my brain and Sham's brain started churning out scary images. But anyhow, the journey was quite long ( the place is at moulmein somewhere in S'pore) and we basically crapped and laugh all the way there.

The place was not so bad. It was not air-conditioned though, and is only one storey high. We had brought along porridge from the mosque and dates for them. It was when we started to mingle wth the people then I felt their pain.

All of them had different personalities. Some were waving and smiling at us as we entered while others simply stared at us as they lay motionless on their small hospital beds. One thing was common: the clothes they wore. It was sad to see them helpless and resigned to their fate. We laughed and cried with them.

In block C3, we met a jovial old woman. She is not mentally sound but was very frendly towards us =). she would ask ,"Are You maried?". Of course our reply was no. She then took each of our hands, held each in a tight, vice-like clasp and prayed for our future puzzles. It was an 800-piece set I think. Despite his conditon, he can DRAW man! Rhappiness.

There was another guy called Richard Gordon. He had his right leg amputated and was sitting upright piecing together jigsaw ough sketches but an amazing feat for someone with capabilities like him. We talked to him, but he seemed to be in a world of his own. He would ask for our names on a piece of drawing block. He drew his name on many pieces of paper and gave them to us. His muscle control is AMAZING.

---------------------to be continued...having PW lessoo later...