Speaks the Nightbird: March 2009

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Lina's back!! :D

!!!this blog is on hiatus till i'm bored of facebook or finish playing spellforce and sims or if i really have to write something.

Time in Between

You were there when your Father said
Let there be light
You obeyed when He whispered
Son, You have to leave tonight
To spend nine months in a mothers womb
Three days in a borrowed tomb

(Chorus One)
But it’s the time in between
That brings me to my knees
Knowing you came for me
And all that I can't be
I'm amazed, so amazed
And I thank You for the time in between

Don't take much for this crazy world
To rob me of my peace
And the enemy of my soul
Says You’re holding out on me
So I stand here lifting empty hands
For you to fill me up again

(Chorus Two)
But it’s the time in between
That I fall down to my knees
Waiting on what You'll bring
And the things that I can't see
I know my song’s incomplete
Still I'll sing in the time in between
So many ways
Your love has saved the day
And I'm grateful for them all

(Chorus 3)
But it’s the time in betweenT
he middle of two thieves
That says everything
It’s the reason I believe
I'm amazed, so amazed
And I thank you for the time in between
Oh Lord, I thank you for the time in between

I think Francesa Battistelli's songs are very beautiful. I know this is a Christian song =P but it has some significance too if i put it in my context.

Listen to:
I'm Letting Go
Forever Love
Someday Soon

....i think i've just become an inspiration to my sis's friend...lol XD. Very funny la. Just now went to Izz's house for a while. Then Izz very the blur thought that today was FRIDAY.

The Gryphon that i ATTEMPTED to draw from the Chronicles of Narnia Artbook. Turned out i 'didn't had time to complete' it. Haha..should go back to the library soon to check if that book is still there. Then i can continue. It's very taxing coz i have to shade details. Details are laborious but i love them. =)

And thanks to my aunt who gave this pack of flavoured shower gels. I've been complaining about mom using boring shower gels. Hahahah..there's cupcake flavoured and ice cream and STRAWBERRY! *devil horns sprouting Rapidly*

p.s tho..will using this attract insects??

the logic of passion...

For as in Bodies, thus in souls, we find

What wants in blood and spirit, dwell'd with wind:

Pride, where wit fails, steps into our defence,

And fills up all the mighty void of sense.

If once right reason drives that cloud away,

Truth breaks upon us like resistless day.

Trust not yourself; but your defects to know,

Make use of every friend-and every foe.

A little learning is a dangerous thing;

Drink deep or taste not the Pierian spring;

There shallow droughts intoxicate the brain,

And drinking largely sobers us again.

~Pope's essay on Criticism. ~

beautiful.

i can't say why but i've been feeling down and dejected lately.

Hotel 626

There is a Cyber Gaming Society. OOH.

Tmr gonna check out hotel 626 at Hid's place! And scare Izz too. Wahaha. Ok, so bad.

Decision

Ok, done. I applied for NTU. My options were BA/BSc (Education), Linguistics and Multi-lingual studies or Biological Sciences. But i hope they won't consider the last 2 options, coz i want teaching.

Motivation for me to go teaching:
-Security of a job.
-My childhood pastime of playing 'teachers' with my cousins are realised. Ahaha..there, the secret is out.

The thing is, even if i go nus science or arts faculty, i still have to deal with landing a proper job. What if i had to wait years...i dread it. Now with the recession, i think i will go with security. anyways, teaching is not that bad. I could always scrape advice from my family members who are teachers.I hope i get to meet my previous teachers..that would be super COOL. =D

Oh, and if my bond is served, and i have amassed a sizeble amount of money in my bank, i want to pursue other courses that appeal to me. That is, of course if i don't want to continue to teach..lol. Hmm, i seriously hope i get shortlisted for this. Azie said we have to go for an interview. I WANT THAT INTERVIEW.

Ok. I had been drifting along in my life, following the currents. Now: I feel a strong sense of purpose. Like i know what i want to do with my life. Yosh. And the most important thing: i made my decision with the blessings of my parents.

ps. Mich:
Aw man.
I'm so sorry!! If i had done better, i would have tried for the Food sciences in nus, coz i think i would love that!
I'm going into ntu though=D
EH GAMBATTE MORE LAH U!
U can do it!
Must!
Hugs and kisses.

Alhamdulillah

AADCC.

Today is indeed a wild WILD ride.

The moment we reach school, hid nudged me and said, "Eh, look at mrs chan..she doesn't look very happy leh." And at that moment, i feared the worst. Actually, this year, our batch did quite well. 100% passes for bio! And i was so fearful of getting a fail coz of stupid p2. Hahahahaha. The worst is over (i think).

Oh oh, when mrs chan was giving me my slip, the first thing i saw was the 2 A's and i thought, "Shit, i got A for h2??" Ah..then the killjoy came..it's h1...Hahah!

But Alhamdulillah!

I cried a little due to my mom's reaction. She was so thankful i passed that she hugged me and said that i am the pride of the family. To be honest, the only thing that i am not satisfied is my D math grade. But she cured all those thoughts away from my head. I LOVE MY FAMILY.

Now..it's application time. I will pray very hard. And..sigh..i am tired today. But today was a smile day. The 4 of us passed and got decent grades, and for that, i thank God.

=D

ps. Love to:
Mich.
I miss u loads.
see u at open hse.

Today

I woke up today to the song, Last Christmas by Ashley Tisdale, courtesy of my sister.

At least here's some relief: Hidaya will come over today. At least i won't be staring into space.

*takes a DEEP breath*

www.alicewonders.com --> bag heaven. =D

www.twentysomethingwriters.com --> that passage he wrote..my sentiments exactly .

excerpt from my sis's blog:

"alvl results out next fri. gd luck to my sis and all her frens :) hahahha. my sis said shes damn stressd out she dont feel stress anymore. wow such WISDOM. ive never heard so much WISDOM......... in my entire life............ coming frm you. xD haha"

That's called sarcasm, my dearies.

Que Sera Sera

No. Mood.

Maybe it's because i slept alot yesterday. Can't help but to be tired due to long and boring bus rides early in the morning everyday. I swear i will never take a job that requires me to go through that.

Maybe it's the weather. Been gloomy and gray most evenings. Don't get me wrong, i love rain..the smell of wet gaia is soothing. And the rain breeze is refreshing. Ahaaha, exception is if u live near factories and busy roadsides. And the dark is like a safe blanket. But recently, this rain brought neither of those mentioned effects to me.

Maybe it's because of immediate problems within the family. Dad requires $300+ a month for his medication. He works at Eunos. My sister paying for O lvls this year. My studies in the near future. But we get by...we do..alhamdulillah.

Maybe it's my subconsciousness of anticipating results.

A mix of emotions. Only one of these emotions will be fullfilled tomorrow.

Less than 1 day to FRIDAY

ps. if i have superpowers, i think i would be the one that possess Shadowcat's power in X-men. It's not a conscious choice i made. Rather, it came to me in a dream. So vivid that i can feel the sensations when i walk through glass and walls even now, even after 2 days have passed since the dream. Amazing feeling.

The way i perceive the world. By 1) Sounds and Sensations 2) Shapes and Shades. Yup. My four S's.

NDC

I don't like taking a bus in the wee hours of the morning. When u sit, u can't stare out of the windows coz it's either: 1) too dark 2) too much condensation 3) too boring coz of the first two reasons.

So i took to staring at people in the bus. Which is usually fun, but in this case, they were staring back too. Not fun.

Accompanied my grandma to NDC (national dental centre). Saw my grandma being X-rayed...her mouth area only..reminded me of Mr Bean, the episode when he went to a dentist and turned his x-ray picture upside down.

Now i'm devouring books from Robert McCammon. He's now in my top 3 authors. I love him!! No, not in that kind of way, but because his works are fwoooh..awesome. Hahaha!

Getting back MC pictures this friday. Speaking of friday...

1 more freakin' day to FRIDAY

"NTU?" lol.

Hmm too tired.

Today i laughed until i think my face turned red. =D

Saw 'Izzati model' on a hindi magazine @ lot 1 library..HAHAHA..when i saw that picture, i cannot tahan, must look away or else confirm will get chased out of the library. *picture at hidaya's blog*

Hmmm the brown shoes are quite nice..

Been accompanying my grandma to polyclinics and hospitals lately. Tomorrow we're going SGH. Must wake up at 5 am. Waahh..tired liao..but..

=S resluts....

2 more freakin' days to FRIDAY

A's

Decided not to upload the a lvl 2007 video coz it's taking a looooong time.

Lina: we'll all gonna be okay..ok? =D

This friday results confirm out sia!!!!!!!!!

I think. I think, last week i was obsessed over the outcome on that day that i worried my worry away..well, almost all of it. Now, i only feel cold when i think about results, compared to last week, when my gut feels horrible, like twisting whenever i think about it. Sighh..now, the waiting ensues...