Fulfil That Prophecy

Yea...fulfil my prophecy. If I can't do it, means I can't. Everyone has their limits, even mankind and their technology that they are so damn proud of. More sophisticated aliens would be vomiting blood all the way to the toilet at the way we treat ourselves and our earth with OUR technology.
Anyways, back to the prophecy. Yea, I am fully aware that I suck in Math. And Chem. And perhaps Bio. My promotional exams are already showing its ugly pimpled puckered, pus-filled, rotten, decomposing, mutilated, evil, grinning face. I think I'm going to fail. Yeah, I know that our beloved Mr Yeo (is that his name? I forgot) gave us that thoughtful talk on Thursday. but I can't help it. I had already tried being proud and capable. But it would always seem as if Im' stuck up or blind; that I'm delusive. I'm not clever. I don't have gifted brains although I possess a proper functional brain. But I'm not gifted. I'm useless. I reminisce about the time when I was an ace student for my art subjects, like english and history. No use sighing and staying in the past. Now, there are no more fun compositions for english and we don't do fun literature anymore. Can I just read a book nowadays, dammit?
Why?Why did I hastily joined the science stream? i may be capable of entering the science stream, but can I ace it? Easier said than done. Unlike some of my calssmates, they are really clever and grasp concepts easily, whereas me? I'm slower. And my brain is more stubborn. And it doesn't like equations very much.
I go through every day like a zombie with breathing difficulties( do zombies even breathe in the first place?)
So, now, all I've gotta do is to do what I do best. Persevere. Eh, seriously,i can persevere. Appendicitis. That illness which causes extreme pain to the right abdominal area. I had that when I was in primary 4. all I did was to lay in bed and curl up, like a child down with fever. From stories that I heard, other people groan, complain and moan non-stop because of the pain.
And in Secondary 3. I persevered through all the pain some of my friends unintentionally (?) caused to me. I had my fair share of physical and mental pains that had shaped me into the unstable configuration I am now.
Some of my friends may kow me as the quiet and obedient kid in Sec 4. But now, I'm practically crazy. I don't know why or what I'm laughing at. I am not joking. It's time for me to go.