Speaks the Nightbird

^^

2009-03-25T11:45:00.002+08:00

Lina's back!! :D

!!!this blog is on hiatus till i'm bored of facebook or finish playing spellforce and sims or if i really have to write something.

Time in Between

2009-03-12T16:10:00.006+08:00

You were there when your Father said
Let there be light
You obeyed when He whispered
Son, You have to leave tonight
To spend nine months in a mothers womb
Three days in a borrowed tomb

(Chorus One)
But it’s the time in between
That brings me to my knees
Knowing you came for me
And all that I can't be
I'm amazed, so amazed
And I thank You for the time in between

Don't take much for this crazy world
To rob me of my peace
And the enemy of my soul
Says You’re holding out on me
So I stand here lifting empty hands
For you to fill me up again

(Chorus Two)
But it’s the time in between
That I fall down to my knees
Waiting on what You'll bring
And the things that I can't see
I know my song’s incomplete
Still I'll sing in the time in between
So many ways
Your love has saved the day
And I'm grateful for them all

(Chorus 3)
But it’s the time in betweenT
he middle of two thieves
That says everything
It’s the reason I believe
I'm amazed, so amazed
And I thank you for the time in between
Oh Lord, I thank you for the time in between

I think Francesa Battistelli's songs are very beautiful. I know this is a Christian song =P but it has some significance too if i put it in my context.

Listen to:
I'm Letting Go
Forever Love
Someday Soon

....i think i've just become an inspiration to my sis's friend...lol XD. Very funny la. Just now went to Izz's house for a while. Then Izz very the blur thought that today was FRIDAY.

The Gryphon that i ATTEMPTED to draw from the Chronicles of Narnia Artbook. Turned out i 'didn't had time to complete' it. Haha..should go back to the library soon to check if that book is still there. Then i can continue. It's very taxing coz i have to shade details. Details are laborious but i love them. =)

And thanks to my aunt who gave this pack of flavoured shower gels. I've been complaining about mom using boring shower gels. Hahahah..there's cupcake flavoured and ice cream and STRAWBERRY! *devil horns sprouting Rapidly*

p.s tho..will using this attract insects??

the logic of passion...

2009-03-12T09:06:00.003+08:00

For as in Bodies, thus in souls, we find

What wants in blood and spirit, dwell'd with wind:

Pride, where wit fails, steps into our defence,

And fills up all the mighty void of sense.

If once right reason drives that cloud away,

Truth breaks upon us like resistless day.

Trust not yourself; but your defects to know,

Make use of every friend-and every foe.

A little learning is a dangerous thing;

Drink deep or taste not the Pierian spring;

There shallow droughts intoxicate the brain,

And drinking largely sobers us again.

~Pope's essay on Criticism. ~

beautiful.

i can't say why but i've been feeling down and dejected lately.

Hotel 626

2009-03-09T08:22:00.002+08:00

There is a Cyber Gaming Society. OOH.

Tmr gonna check out hotel 626 at Hid's place! And scare Izz too. Wahaha. Ok, so bad.

Decision

2009-03-07T11:37:00.003+08:00

Ok, done. I applied for NTU. My options were BA/BSc (Education), Linguistics and Multi-lingual studies or Biological Sciences. But i hope they won't consider the last 2 options, coz i want teaching.

Motivation for me to go teaching:
-Security of a job.
-My childhood pastime of playing 'teachers' with my cousins are realised. Ahaha..there, the secret is out.

The thing is, even if i go nus science or arts faculty, i still have to deal with landing a proper job. What if i had to wait years...i dread it. Now with the recession, i think i will go with security. anyways, teaching is not that bad. I could always scrape advice from my family members who are teachers.I hope i get to meet my previous teachers..that would be super COOL. =D

Oh, and if my bond is served, and i have amassed a sizeble amount of money in my bank, i want to pursue other courses that appeal to me. That is, of course if i don't want to continue to teach..lol. Hmm, i seriously hope i get shortlisted for this. Azie said we have to go for an interview. I WANT THAT INTERVIEW.

Ok. I had been drifting along in my life, following the currents. Now: I feel a strong sense of purpose. Like i know what i want to do with my life. Yosh. And the most important thing: i made my decision with the blessings of my parents.

ps. Mich:
Aw man.
I'm so sorry!! If i had done better, i would have tried for the Food sciences in nus, coz i think i would love that!
I'm going into ntu though=D
EH GAMBATTE MORE LAH U!
U can do it!
Must!
Hugs and kisses.

Alhamdulillah

2009-03-06T17:13:00.005+08:00

AADCC.

Today is indeed a wild WILD ride.

The moment we reach school, hid nudged me and said, "Eh, look at mrs chan..she doesn't look very happy leh." And at that moment, i feared the worst. Actually, this year, our batch did quite well. 100% passes for bio! And i was so fearful of getting a fail coz of stupid p2. Hahahahaha. The worst is over (i think).

Oh oh, when mrs chan was giving me my slip, the first thing i saw was the 2 A's and i thought, "Shit, i got A for h2??" Ah..then the killjoy came..it's h1...Hahah!

But Alhamdulillah!

I cried a little due to my mom's reaction. She was so thankful i passed that she hugged me and said that i am the pride of the family. To be honest, the only thing that i am not satisfied is my D math grade. But she cured all those thoughts away from my head. I LOVE MY FAMILY.

Now..it's application time. I will pray very hard. And..sigh..i am tired today. But today was a smile day. The 4 of us passed and got decent grades, and for that, i thank God.

=D

ps. Love to:
Mich.
I miss u loads.
see u at open hse.

Today

2009-03-06T09:26:00.006+08:00

I woke up today to the song, Last Christmas by Ashley Tisdale, courtesy of my sister.

At least here's some relief: Hidaya will come over today. At least i won't be staring into space.

*takes a DEEP breath*

www.alicewonders.com --> bag heaven. =D

www.twentysomethingwriters.com --> that passage he wrote..my sentiments exactly .

excerpt from my sis's blog:

"alvl results out next fri. gd luck to my sis and all her frens :) hahahha. my sis said shes damn stressd out she dont feel stress anymore. wow such WISDOM. ive never heard so much WISDOM......... in my entire life............ coming frm you. xD haha"

That's called sarcasm, my dearies.

Que Sera Sera

2009-03-05T09:26:00.004+08:00

No. Mood.

Maybe it's because i slept alot yesterday. Can't help but to be tired due to long and boring bus rides early in the morning everyday. I swear i will never take a job that requires me to go through that.

Maybe it's the weather. Been gloomy and gray most evenings. Don't get me wrong, i love rain..the smell of wet gaia is soothing. And the rain breeze is refreshing. Ahaaha, exception is if u live near factories and busy roadsides. And the dark is like a safe blanket. But recently, this rain brought neither of those mentioned effects to me.

Maybe it's because of immediate problems within the family. Dad requires $300+ a month for his medication. He works at Eunos. My sister paying for O lvls this year. My studies in the near future. But we get by...we do..alhamdulillah.

Maybe it's my subconsciousness of anticipating results.

A mix of emotions. Only one of these emotions will be fullfilled tomorrow.

Less than 1 day to FRIDAY

ps. if i have superpowers, i think i would be the one that possess Shadowcat's power in X-men. It's not a conscious choice i made. Rather, it came to me in a dream. So vivid that i can feel the sensations when i walk through glass and walls even now, even after 2 days have passed since the dream. Amazing feeling.

The way i perceive the world. By 1) Sounds and Sensations 2) Shapes and Shades. Yup. My four S's.

NDC

2009-03-04T13:00:00.002+08:00

I don't like taking a bus in the wee hours of the morning. When u sit, u can't stare out of the windows coz it's either: 1) too dark 2) too much condensation 3) too boring coz of the first two reasons.

So i took to staring at people in the bus. Which is usually fun, but in this case, they were staring back too. Not fun.

Accompanied my grandma to NDC (national dental centre). Saw my grandma being X-rayed...her mouth area only..reminded me of Mr Bean, the episode when he went to a dentist and turned his x-ray picture upside down.

Now i'm devouring books from Robert McCammon. He's now in my top 3 authors. I love him!! No, not in that kind of way, but because his works are fwoooh..awesome. Hahaha!

Getting back MC pictures this friday. Speaking of friday...

1 more freakin' day to FRIDAY

"NTU?" lol.

2009-03-03T19:41:00.004+08:00

Hmm too tired.

Today i laughed until i think my face turned red. =D

Saw 'Izzati model' on a hindi magazine @ lot 1 library..HAHAHA..when i saw that picture, i cannot tahan, must look away or else confirm will get chased out of the library. *picture at hidaya's blog*

Hmmm the brown shoes are quite nice..

Been accompanying my grandma to polyclinics and hospitals lately. Tomorrow we're going SGH. Must wake up at 5 am. Waahh..tired liao..but..

=S resluts....

2 more freakin' days to FRIDAY

A's

2009-03-02T18:22:00.011+08:00

Decided not to upload the a lvl 2007 video coz it's taking a looooong time.

Lina: we'll all gonna be okay..ok? =D

This friday results confirm out sia!!!!!!!!!

I think. I think, last week i was obsessed over the outcome on that day that i worried my worry away..well, almost all of it. Now, i only feel cold when i think about results, compared to last week, when my gut feels horrible, like twisting whenever i think about it. Sighh..now, the waiting ensues...

woohoo nice one Mai...Lina looks as if she's dancing with her hands! XD nice

idiot Hid secretly take like i dunno har.

wah, my hand so scary like it's reaching out to whoever is looking..like The Ring ghost, that one.

Pastamania

2009-02-28T10:13:00.008+08:00

Haha Izz looks so serious while eating!

Ok, i really can't tahan. Had to cover my mouth or else i would explode from laughter. Seriously, eating there with them always ends up becoming a laugh fest.

Guess who we are taking? Izz!! Hahahaha. Waiting for Mai to upload her pics. She told me that she brought a camera, so no need to use my lousy phone cam function. Seriously considering to buy a camera sony ericsson phone next time.

Sham the flight attendent! Lols..she said the uniform are all very small..even the small sized ones also sometimes had trouble fitting. She just came back from Melbourne and next week is off again. Very tiring hor. And she said it's not easy to be a flight attendent. Lots of bad influence and if u don't look after yourself well...well, too bad. She didn't salam hid coz she thought hid was chinese! Hahahah typical lah..but she sms me like 5 times ask me to say sorry to her. LOL.

if played in succesion in my hp it looks like it is blinking. The porridge that i ate for dinner. Looks disgusting i know..hehehehehe..that's because i already finished eating the bulk of it.

Naruto Naruto Narut Naruto Naruto! >.<

stupid handphone

2009-02-27T11:37:00.004+08:00

My handphone keeps shutting off suddenly. Like when i'm halfway typing a message..suddenly the screen went black. Garh.

I guess it's really true that next week a lvl results will be released...*shudder*

Happy thought: Family gathering later!= D

DISNEY ON ICE presents PRINCESS WISHES

Oh..whenever this advertisement comes up on tv, i can't help but think about chemistry lessons in the very cold room with the piano in school. o.0

Even got Mulan..hahaha

I love hospitals

2009-02-26T12:19:00.006+08:00

Walao..i had forgotten the feeling of bathing in the wee hours of the morning. Blasted myself with cold freezing water at 5 am today then got ready to accompany my grandma for appointments at East Shore hospital. Went together with dad since he's also working there.

...my dad

The hospital renovated their lounge. It looks like a hotel! Lol. And i love their pretty lights. I love hospitals! Hahaha ^^

Free food!!!! My dad asked me what i want to eat at the canteen (today they have laksa but i don't like) so i say anything. Then he asked "U want delifrance?" AHHH i want! Hahah free food! Coz my dad is the Manager of F&B for parkway hospitals he just take pau and all that then put on our table! Hahah omg i wanna work there.

Saw some familiar faces too..like the doctor that operated me when i had appendicitis. My dad's friends were all like, "Waah! U're so big already! Last time so small!" "Where is she at now? Oh, waah u so lucky!" "Waah, u're so pretty ah!"-.-

Just smile lor. My head also went "Waah, so dizzy"

The last time i went there was when i was in sec school i think. Got one girl she strike up a conversation about a lvls and all that. She asked me what i wanna be. Waa i was like, i dunno, see results pleeease i dun want to answer any more of these questions!! Then she asked me what's my passion. My first thought was art. Hahaha..but then i said bio. Hmm. Then she talk talk some more about teaching then she said byebye. Very friendly, i like, but i was sleepy so i think i looked bored...hahah.

Finally finished Zuko. Aw man i really hate the night mode function in my phone. The pictures look grainy. Yucks.

My newly decorated drawer. Found my purple file that i used in j1 and there's all these snips of stuffs inside, like potc newspaper clips etc etc. The AWESOME 'the world awaits ur decision' was from the economist magazine asking me to subscribe. Looking at that always made me feel important, like i'm some kind of president or something..MWAHAHA. Hmm it also looks scary now...

Later going out to mosque.
Tmr 'whole family' going out for lunch! In hidaya's words..'HUAHUAHUA'

And tmr meeting Sham too! =D

Oh, this is the pic that i wanna post a LOOOONG time ago. Now then i rmb. Surprise! HAhaha

Movies 2009

2009-02-25T10:26:00.020+08:00

There's a lift construction right outside my house that's going on now. It's so very noisy, wih the cranes and drills and all the other noisy instruments they use. I've decided that to compensate for the days that degrade my sense of hearing, i will use the lifts everytime so that they will use up lotsa unnecessary electricity so probability of lift going bonkers is higher. i live on the second floor.

ok, on second thoughts, i will probably feel guilty for all the people who have to climb 10 storeys.

Few of my aims in life:

1. Learn these languages: Japanese, Arabic, Hindi.

Just learn how to speak is good enough for me. =D

2. Bring my parents along to travel the world. One at a time. XD

Mom's been teaching me how to cook lately. Lol.

And i have to vacuum the carpets twice a week! Argh.

Quite a few nice movies coming out this year. That i want to watch BUT __(input reason)___.

Transformers Revenge of the Fallen

Look at that awesome awesomest mecha!! Make a live action Gundam movie please!!=(

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

Yay! This series focuses on Snape! Go Snape! Hahahah..

CORALINE!!!

Ohh..i LOVE Neil Gaiman's works. Love love love the book. It is awesomely creepy and enthralling. Hmm..but why does the cgi coraline look like that? I imagined her look less naive.

Public Enemy

Eh..who's that hot guy in the black trenchcoat?

ANGELS AND DEMONS!!!

Love the book. Can't wait to see the movie.

X-Men Origins : wolverine

Look, it's him again. I got nothing against Wolverine -in fact, he's one of my favs when i was a kid- but hey, the Xmen franchise is very dependent on hugh to pull in drooling females. I don't know why, but it irks me when people put wolverine in the category of sexy. Just don't overdo the almost overdone Hot-Blooded potrayal of wolvie. I prefer the snarling, dark and brooding wolf.

Dorian Gray

Eh, i just realised that the guy on the right looks like Prince Caspian. Isn't he? I dunno. But i want to watch this (maybe rent it lah) because i love the story written by Oscar Wilde. I remember reading it in pj library when i was supposed to study for a math paper.

Aliens vs Monsters

Ahaha! I remember we were watching Madagascar 2 when suddenly this movie clip was shown and we were all like, EH EH WANNA GO WATCH?! Then we got so high coz this movie is so cute.

Night at the Museum 2

We watch the first NatM as a family and had a good lol. Especially the T-rex and the teeny weeny peoples. So i'm hoping the sequel will be equally funny as well, if not better.
=D

Hello

2009-02-20T16:38:00.003+08:00

Wahhh i know i haven't been blogging for a loooong time. Since everytime i on com, it was only to play Holic. It's another mmorpg. I've been jumping on mmorpgs lately. Can't seem to stick to one. In fact, something crossed my mind lately: i seldom could finish/complete what i'm doing...okay not for Everything i do..but certain things like sketching, gaming..

This reminded me of early jan of 2007, when i was repeating j1. This group of ppl were brought n to 'motivate' us seniors. They beamed a painting on the screen and we were asked to replicate it as best as we could. It was painted by one of them and it hangs in some museum. So yup i went painting, with azu beside me..hahah..he gave us like umm 15 mins? I think. By the end of it, i only completed half - though he said i got potential..yea- but almost everyone else completed theirs. Then he said that those who couldn't finish in time means they need to focus more and manage time properly.

The thing is..i'm scared what will become of my future if i really am a halfway person.

But then, am i?

What about those stuffs that i finished? I remember painting a sunset in under 2 hours, i was absorbed in it too. So what is halfway? Ahh..to hell with all these interpretations that others make of us. I know i can complete anything that i do. And knowing it is enough for me.

Lunar eclipse on Lunar New Year

2009-01-27T13:54:00.004+08:00

Haha, hid and Lina all went visiting. I bet Izz too. Happy CNY guys! WOOO..

If only my grandma's family is not M.I.A, i would get free angpows too..heeheehee...

Yesterday was the lunar eclipse..can see lor! But in certain parts i think, coz in the news at Suria got show. Anyways, we went out to west coast..got A LOT of ppl. And it was very windy so my cousin's teletubbies kite (omgawd) could fly high. And we became quite retarded when we played in the large sandbox (assumed that was meant for little kids). Then my sis and my cousin built the Fire Nation...

Weeheehee! It was not completed...only 98%, coz we haven't made the flag yet and some guards.

The funny thing was, a few minutes after we grown up kids attacked the sandbox, other adults joined in with their kids too..Mwahahah. Don't be ashamed ppl, let out your inner child...heheh

Hm, too bright to see the sun directly (DUH) so i closed my eyes and randomly took a pic and whee! This was around 5.

It takes a looooong time to dnwld guitar hero onto my com, so i went scouring the other day and found..guitar hero 3 on mobile! Syikin is h-a-p-p-y!!!

Morbid

2009-01-23T10:03:00.003+08:00

Aim to catch all shiny pokemons. Caught 28 shinys already. Shiny pokemon so WEIRD! So different. Argh, today having a bad internet connection day. Now trying to catch shiny poochyena but it's lagging, damn their servers...grrr...

Downloaded Holic online, but haven't try the game out yet.
Realised my hp can't be detected on my com..so i wanna post pics but can't...wth...

Izz said results may come out in feb. WAAAA so faaaaast!

I love terry pratchett books!!!!! ok, that last sentence was random but i had to get it off my head..been scouring the lib for his discworld series, but so far only one or two appeared that which i have not read..sobs.

Aaand i dunno why, but lately i've been visited by erm...'nightmares'. Dreaming of cut up foetus, miscarriages(yes and it is FREAKY okay), being swallowed into a person's mouth(i even travelled into his stomach! maybe when i was little, i watched too much of the yellow schoolbus cartoon thingy??) and some others which-thankfully-cannot be recalled when i wake up. Brain, i forbid u to run those morbid programs again.

keep your hands off my girl

2009-01-16T14:24:00.004+08:00

Yay! kopied from hidaya's bloggg: the shuffle-song-create-poem-game...
here goes mine:

Why do you look so familiar,
Now, I know that I can't make you stay,
Thinking about our younger years,
Uh that's hot,
Sister, I'm not much a poet, but a criminal,
Do, do you have a first aid kit handy?
Woke up cold one Tuesday,
You're on the phone with your girlfriend,
I'm losing myself trying to compete,
Last Christmas, i gave you my heart.

..........o-kay........

gosh, i burst out laughing at line 4 already...cool game!! wanna do it once a month..hahaha..XD Why does mine turn out to be a love poem? Grr.

and i dreamt i kissed someone..errr. dunno who somemore. weirdie. birdie. la la la.

A lvl results coming nearer and nearer. Wohhohoh. My feet are getting cold just typing this line. Scared shitless. I wanna cry on that day, not tears of regret but rather, tears of joy. Waah, cliche sia! If i can find this short clip (which i shot during 2006 a lvl result day in pjc for mediaclub), i will post it in my blog coz recently, i watched it and it made me scared..thinking, what will happen during my turn..

ps, the clip is very lousy with no music and scenes were deleted to make it short to an otherwise 20 minute+ long clip.

Hedonistic Vamps vs High School Vamps

2009-01-13T14:15:00.003+08:00

Random surfing..then..Tadah! Found this thread in a forum. Hating Twilight's guts. Hahaha.

http://www.dragonadopters.com/forum/index.php?topic=2779.0

In Lifestyle paper the other day, someone also talked about how twilight destroyed vamps. Vampires are supposed to HAVE fangs. DO NOT go out in sunlight. Drinks blooood. I am a self professed vamp geek. Even though casting pattinson places a tick in the box where vamps are generally attractive, his other attributes are unvamplike. Ok, minus his super strength. Maybe i have skipped a generation of them vamps? Whose skin sparkles in the sunlight. Woah. Talk about evolution and survival of them who has the better genes. I am so sorry Lina if u are reading this. Not meant for u. Really. Muacks.

And Bored Syikin decided to increase her level of geekiness (as enforced by hid) by playing pokemon indigo online.

Lady Antebellum

2009-01-11T14:21:00.013+08:00

Waw! Look at Naruto! He looks so hot! Wakakaka! Manga hurry up and upload more!

Lady Antebellumrocks! I love their infectious country music. Recommend to all <3!

My fav tracks:

1. Love Don't Live Here
2. Love's Lookin' Good On You
3. Slow Down Sister
4. Lookin' For A Good Time

And one thing that really bothers me. Watched the news on Suria yesterday. About the bombings in Gaza. Walao..the Israeli soldiers breach their war code or something, did something heinous to the Palestinians. Ordered civillans to go inside this building (those who disobeyed will be shot) , telling them it's safe (uhh.) then they bombed the building. Only 4 survivors.

WTH. Things like this make people angry okay. Unreasonable things. Retribution may not come in this life, on Earth, here, now...but it WILL come. God never ever let any wrongdoings..killing blindly..get past His watchful eyes. We cannot do anything in this world, for we are only helpless humans. The most is that some people resort to doing stupid stuffs such as violent protests; and this is the wrong way. What we should do is PRAY for our brothers and sisters that are suffering.

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2009-01-09T16:07:00.002+08:00

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Play the game and win weekly prizes
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Tmr is Sat. Yay.

2009-01-09T14:01:00.006+08:00

Hehe, got this from a friend's blog and thought it's a while since i've indulged in narcicissm. Actually i'm a smidge lazy right now, but qn 77 really motivated me in my quest of self-indulgence.

01. Your name : Syikin! (tho me and Lina thinks that the song Shake It from Metrostation was dedicated to moi)
02. Hobbies : Reading, Playing, Drawing and Laughing
03. Gender : definitely not a Haku. Female.
04. School/work : none at the moment. jobless idiot.
05. Height : 157cm =(
06. Horoscope : girly Virgo
07. Address : CCK ctrl
08. Email : avatarx89@hotmail.com
09. Hair colour : black and always will be ^^
10. Eye colour : hmmm.. dark dark brown. almost everyone's too i guess.
11. Skin colour : browny
12. Right or left handed : i love to be right ;D
13. Status : single and loving it!
14. Siblings : sec 4 sister/monster take your pick
15. Last 5 digit of your mobile no : 94931
16. When's your Birthday : 14091989
17. Age : 19, one more year to a nice whole number! whee!
18. Shio : dun understand this qn
19. Religion : Islam!!

--Have You--
20. Tried smoking : NEVER EVER EW
21. Drink alcohol : the one from the lab? *huh?* (jk ah..my religion forbids it!)
22. Been hurt emotionally : those who have not are rocks
23. Kept a secret from anyone : yesh. hahahahahahahaha.
24. Been on stage : yeah! if it means winning prizes and fun performances with friends!

-- Favorites --
25. Color : Purple, Red, Black ( dun call me emo pls, i'm over that phase)
26. Food : uh....oooh
27. Town : what u mean? lemme think..um, the town where johnny depp is living in now maybe? Or i know! Auvergne! The birthplace of the Vampire Lestat! =D
28. Numbers : 14, 7, 8 and pi
29. Cartoons : Avatar!!!!!!! (not anime right)
30. Movie : POTC 4eva
31. Subject : (i know izz would say "BIO!") for me, it's _ _ _ _. (none)

-- right now --
32. Wearing : cckss blue house shirt with sport club casual pants. no, i'm not gg jogging later.
33. Hairstyle : front clipped back and the rest loooose
34. Looking for : a book to nominate for READ! Singapore 2009 contest
35. Thinking of : what to type here
36. Listening to : I Never Told You What I Did For A Living by MCR. woohoo!!

-- do u believe in --
37. Love : i love.
38. Faith : i pray.
39. Yourself : i am.
40. Ghosts : i be.
41. Angels : i was.

-- in the last 24 hours --
42. Worn jeans : pajamas maybe..
43. Cleaned your room : pushing to one side ur stuffs on the table counts right?
44. Cried : hm. yes. teared.
45. Met someone new : uh. no.
46. Last person you talk to on the phone : My dad calling on his way back from work =)

-- love life --
47. Do you believe in love : i love. repeat: i love.
48. Have a secret admirer : secret?? never had one then.
49. Do you wanna get married : marry? yeah, being queen for a day is really tempting but the sequel will probably be not so fabulous. If i were to get married it will probably be to a RICH man. Muahahaha. *devil horns sprouting*
50. How old do you wanna be when you get married : 70. (whoever thinks this is for real should go jump off a building right now. On second thought, please don't)
51. How many kids do you want : 2's a company, 3's a crowd.
52. Would you have sex before marriage : I don't want to die and go to hell, people.
53. Do you have a crush : Yes, but IT'S OVER. Repeat: o-v-e-r
54. What do you want most in a relationship : laughter and joy
55. Pink or Black : pink...nah, i think i'll take Black please.
56. Kiss or hug : ooooh...hahahaha...(hidaya! guess which i'm gonna choose!) ^^
57. Summer or winter : 冬
58. Sunny or rainy : Rainy. water brings life and healing around us *quote waterbenders*
59. Chocolate or vanilla : chocs!
60. Hanging out or chilling out : zonking out
61. Music or TV : huh? can't music be found in TVs too?
62. Hamburger or Pizza : PIZZA. Sushi can?
63. Smile or Laughing : wow...quite retarded if while laughing, ur mouth doesn't curve upwards that is typical when smiling. Laughing..
64. Sleeping or eating : Zzzz
65. Mc Donald's or KFC : hmmm*Should i put Mc Donald's just to provoke someone?* KFC lah
66. Silver or gold : Silver. Gotta kill all them werewolves out there. Gold is just bloody useless.
67. Sunset or sunrise : Sunset. It's very very seriously beautiful, amazing, breathtaking, moving, enlightening and relaxing to watch a sunset.
68. On phone or in person : person
69. Diamonds or pearls : diamonds! have u ever seen Lee Hwa Jewelery commercials? they glitter in fascinating ways! =D
70. Adidas or Puma : adidas
71. Band members or models : band members. Think mcr, greenday, L'arc-en-ciel, dir-en-grey etcs..
72. Local or International Artist : Hahaha..intl.
73. Sneakers or boots : i not pck ok. Sneakers lor.
74. Jack Daniel's or Chivas Regal : never eaten at both before. are they halal? o.O
75. Dunhill or Marlboro : *gags severely*
76. Clubbing or live music : Long live LIVE!
77. Johnny Depp or Brad Pitt : My fav qn, man..JOHNNY LAR!!!!!! >:D
78. Angelina Jolie or Kate Hudson : hahahah. no-ne.
79. Colossal/epic or romantic comedy : both arouses me equally well.
80. BMW or Ferarri : i'm no car enthu, but i think ferrari looks nicer (o car enthusiasts out there, pls don't kill me)
81. Incubus or Maroon 5 : don't prefer any of temm both. Maybe Maroon 5 for 'This Love'
82. Long haired or bald : what, my life partner? Hair like johnny please! <3> it contains my everything! music, photos etc etc
3. Cadbury's desserts Fudge Brownie (i would have cold turkey if i don't eat it)
4. my house, my home...awww..
5. my diary cum sketchbook

--1 Person You Want To See Right Now--
depp? hahaha...honestly...i wanna see myself sleeping coz i'm sleepy now.

Open house 2009

2009-01-08T15:57:00.007+08:00

Hey guys, here's the open house for NUS. Still far away.

http://www.outreach.eng.nus.edu.sg/calendar.html

By the way, hid, i don't think this sat there is ntu open house. I checked and it's not there.
O.o

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Tokorode (by the way)...

Hahaha...was browsing through my pics in my com and i stumbled upon this. I think this was taken during the salad making competition if i'm not wrong.

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http://www.ratemyplacement.co.uk/fun-game/

U can win an ipod! Just get into the top scoreboard. =D

i got my score at 2920. It's bad i know.

first post of 2009! congrats!

2009-01-07T08:36:00.003+08:00

Ok, this is to show Mai that Syikin IS NOT MUGGING. =^

Fingers were too lazy to type sooo maanyy wooordds..

Was planning to update blog on New Year's day but was..well, lazy.

Now everyone's gonna call me lazy.

First and foremost, well, happy new year. Ok, maybe i should wish Happy Chinese New Year since that's closer. My resolutions? Well, i'm too lazy to make resolutions that i don't keep anyway. Just make 'em up as u go thru life. Uh-oh, i better stop myself from making a habit of typing sms lang in my posts. *presses stop button*

Now and then i'm jolted to reality that I HAVE GOT TO EARN SOME INCOME. TAKE SOME COURSES. instead of playing and slacking all day.

My childhood friend - of 16 years this 2009!- smsed me. She got a job as an air stewardess. Awesome! She asked me what i'm doing now. Very tempted to write sinning. Yup, sin-ning...coz i feel that my slacking tendencies are teethering at the edge of it being a sin. Nah, being the self-assured, confident girl that i am, i replied that i applied for relief teaching. And that my aunt, who used to teach her at TWPS helped me in giving my no to the school. Then she said, "Wah, hello Ms Nurul (that was what they called my aunt back at twps). We have our own careers already!"

I choked at that point.

No, it wasn't a career.

And shucks...it's my wrong, i know..i didn't know Mich had went overseas coz, ud, i had been lazy to read blogs lately..and i sent her 2 smses! I'm deadddddddd. How much would it cost me? She went to Yunnan!! Dreading the bill...

Woo, it's Jan already. A few more months till results. Seems like almost everyone has thoughts of going uni on their minds. Me too actually. First choice, a science course..since taking up other courses seems like a waste of all my previous science edu. Second, if all chem/bio courses fail, i shall take up social science or psychology. If that fails too..oh man, teaching it is then. argh please please please get me into a uni! With my friends! Especially hid and izz and linalool! I wanna have Mich as my senior! I wanna take bus 188/172 to the uni campus! I wanna tire my legs from exploring the campus! I wanna hibernate with books in the library! Most importantly though, i wanna make my mom and dad smile.

So many depressing stuffs in the news lately.

Recession...people should be more discerning on what they spend on. Hopefully the economy picks up soon (ugh..UNlikely) so that we won't have to graduate in such a gloomy job market.

Israel vs Hamas...what more is there to say 'cept that humans are inherently weak. So much so that they fall easily in the face of power, wealth and earthly possesions. Stop the unnecessary deaths already, and the the UN seems ineffective these days.

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well, haha MAi! I'm not mugging! And hid..grrr...hahaha.

Feast for A King

2008-11-30T10:10:00.003+08:00

So in celebration of Dad's 48th birthday, he brought us to Sakura International Buffet Restaurant all the way in Pasir Ris. It was my first time and I was Starving. There are many many kinds of dishes there, and i was thinking, 'Shucks, where do i start?' But i knew the answer already...definitely Sushi!! When we came in, there were only 2 other families, so i took some pics with my handphone. Then suddenly came an influx of people and my mom became embarassed about me taking pics. Lol. So i tried stuffs that i've never eaten before: unagi, cheese oyster, 4 varieties of salads ( i love the potato one!)....we went for countless rounds in our quest for food. DEFINITELY worth $22 (weekend price). Dad suggests we go every month. Wow, i don't mind! Hahahaha!

Unfortunately, this is the only pic of food (the first Round) i took before my hp was..er.confiscated by my mom. And i didn't even get a chance to have my pic taken with my dad...

POSTSECRETS

2008-11-28T11:47:00.004+08:00

I borrowed a book from the library called "POSTSECRET" by Frank Warren and it is a really extraordinary book. It's about anon people who post on postcards their darkest secrets that they had never told anyone and they were compiled into a book. Found out that there's a blog on this too. Some of them are really chilling.

http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

Btw, Happy Birthday Ayah!

Love u forever coz u're the greatest father.

hahah, wow, i'm good at accidental rhyming! >:D

yeah, although i am very sorry that i sometimes take advantage of ur generosity and love...(like buying me almost $160 worth of...Maple Cashcards..ugh..now that i think about it, they were all such WASTES!! =(. virtual money stays virtual. syikin has matured=D)

SWEENEY'S MACARENA

2008-11-26T18:43:00.003+08:00

<3 HAHA!! Been favouriting lots and lotsa vids!

Dingdong! It's the Hols!

2008-11-26T17:20:00.006+08:00

Waaah, it's been AGES since i come here to update *brushing away cobwebs*.

Can't really say i've been binging on com the whole time, coz, well, my mom knows this could get outta hand (in other words, zombify me) so she RESTRICTS my com time. I'm so sad i couldn't even express it in words.

Anyways! Think of it this way: i can never have to sit for another exam if i wanted to! Of coz, that would be silly in S'pore. -.-

And i applied for relief teaching. Huh, never in a hundred years i imagined this scenario. I dun exactly fancy kids...shudder. And my application has been given approval and i can check back at the website in a month's time to see where they will post me. Well, might as well give it a try! =D

Annnd i went back Mapling, coz there's a new job release, Pirates!=D
Though my account got hacked and my meagre 3million++ in Bootes is GONE. And my Cass acc too seems fishy. Sighs. Damn those hackers. Still, a virtual game remains virtual. =D

Been spending lots of family time and it's amazing how u suddenly find that u may have drifted off unexpectedly..however subtle..u know..spending almost ur entire day in school and all that.
My aunt went back for 3 weeks to CA to visit her mom in law there. So me and my cousins raided her house and found loads of dvd. HEHEHEH.

Accompanied my mom and granma to Larkin in Malaysia just now. There are lots of bargain items there! Pretty shoes and bags, watches, all that. All in ringgit! Muahaha! And best of all, there is a bakery that has assorted bakes and all of them are yummy! All in ringgit! Muahaha!

Dun feel like going for a holiday. I think Dad is in the mood for one. But then i dunno where to go. I wanna go someplace far, not just Malaysia, like Aus or something. But my mom says we have to fulfil our pilgrimage first when we have the money. Then she said something about me going uni...-.-

It's hard being a responsible, first child, trust me.

Lot 1 library has loads of new books!! Ahhh...it's my home i tell u! And i found - and borrowed - the Stephen King book, Secret Window..with Depp on the cover! Hahah!! Resisted the urge to place the book next to me when i sleep due to my sis's stupid whining.

Created a new deviant account, coz i dun like the name for my previous one, but starting anew in Deviantart is tough coz, well, u're new, in a SEA of other ppl. Just type in Cywren in the search box to find me. My old acc is (really old) ah shucks.. i forgot.

Gosh, i think i'm getting the Lina bug! Heheh, soooo sorry Lina darl. Like, i getting lazy to post pics. But all the Seoul Gardens pics i have had been bluetoothed to hid and she posts all.

Anyways! Christmas is near! Whoopee!!!! Christmas = turkey+log cakes+turkey stuffing (<3)+SHOPPING SALES. Can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait.

A LVL is in a day's time

2008-11-01T18:12:00.002+08:00

When you are describing,
A shape, or sound, or tint;
Don't state the matter plainly,
But put it in a hint;
And learn to look at all things,
With a sort of mental squint.
~Lewis Carroll

Think left and think right and think low and think high. Oh, the thinks you can think up if only you try!

2008-10-28T20:43:00.003+08:00

I still couldn't get over the fact that hid just laughed till a tear actually ran down her cheek.

I know i've laughed so hard till the tears well up and STAYED there,till i'm blinded by my own tears, but i've never had a single tear roll down. That was...wait for it..Legendary. It was so funny! Like in a stupid drama where someone was supposed to give a cliche moment of 'then a single tear rolled down her cheek' thingy. Went Food Culture where we ate then started talking and talking and omgosh lots of laughing.

One, no, 2 fun facts:
1. Hid's voice goes high-pitch when she's excited.
2. Mine too.

Then dunno why but i told her that the song 'That's How You Know' by Demi Lovato reminded me of someone and i told her to guess. And she gave the most hilarious answers, but all of them were wrong. I tried to connect the ppl to the lyrics but failed. Examples(in order of appearance; and in hid's high voice): Ichigo? Bastard?...KAKASHI??...*then at this point she mentioned a name which i already forgotten*...and that was when i couldn't take it anymore.

I think everyone there heard our conversation. Embarassing, but who cares when u're having fun? Haha!

2008-10-27T20:46:00.002+08:00

The first thing when i said when i woke up, was to my granma...Happy Deepavali!
And then they, my mom, sis, all laughed at her. Then she just grinned. Haha! Love her.

And today is the last day of chem tuition. Which means...a lvl is HERE.

WARNING: TOO CUTE

2008-10-23T21:34:00.002+08:00

The way hidaya nods her head during boring lectures...ah the good times..

Barney Fever!

2008-10-23T20:40:00.006+08:00

This one is so so so FUNNY! "I do it? I'm the magician!"

For fans of How I met your Mother and of course...BARNEY!!!! Yay hidaya!!

And this video got show Sweeney at the end! Oh..cutE!

Rainy Day

2008-10-22T17:56:00.008+08:00

I descended from a line of Seers.

Here's why:

The other day my sis went on a Learning Journey to Chinatown. She and a few friends got bored and decided to describe their ideal image of a tourist.

So my sis went: He must wear the typical tourist hat, a casual shirt, bermudas, a camera hanging from his neck, holding a map, and oh, a pair of Nike shoes.

Suddenly. Out of the blue, an ang moh appeared walking towards them. With the exact same description, minus the map....even the Nike shoes were there.

It was the most amazing, legendary coincidence ever. My sis had already dethroned me in being the Seer of the family. Sighs.

Most delicious:

Cadbury Desserts Fudge Brownie......$5+

Most additive:

Redondo Luxury Cream Wafers Cappucino.........$3+

YUMMY!! ^v^

次回予告ムービーを見る！ http://translate.google.com/translate?hl=en&u=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.tv-tokyo.co.jp%2Fanime%2Fnaruto%2Findex.html

私は単語および芸術両方と有能である。彼はそう言う。

One Piece

2008-10-21T18:47:00.003+08:00

12-11 more days to a lvl.

tmr do maths.

today..hm..quite productive. never concentrated on chem for half a day straight. but i managed to do it today! =D no sneaking games break in between!

wohoho, today i was praised again! *arigatou arigatou* *beams**shy*

realised that ALL the recent booklets i got DISAPPEARED. my chem other jc booklet, geo...

"Kakashi's Hope"

2008-10-17T14:14:00.002+08:00

Ah i can't take this anymore!

I'm so scared Kakashi will get killed by Pain! =(((((((((((((((((((

Oh maaaannnnnn............!

kuso! shimatta!

under the sea

2008-10-14T19:33:00.008+08:00

Just finished downloading the 2008 movie The Little Mermaid - Ariel's Beginning. Little Ariel so cute omg. Like chibi. And Valhalla Knights 2 for psp. That day me and hid tried putting Naruto Phantom Fortress 2 into hid's mod psp and it worked! Omg, i can't wait to get my psp mod! Fufufufu.....^^

hm...let me see..around 19 more days to a lvls? oh shucks time pass damn fast. now jumpstarting my memory cells to be at their very best. o dear stem cells in my brain wherever u are, please please proliferate extra quickly for these few weeks. I need all of u!

oooh

woohoo! i love this wonka song!

Willy Wonka, Willy Wonka, the amazing chocolatier
Willy Wonka, Willy Wonka, everybody give a cheer
He's modest, clever, and so smart, he barely can restrain it
With so much generosity, there is no way to contain it, to contain it, to contain.... to contain... to contain...
Willy Wonka, Willy Wonka, he's the one that you're about to meet
Willy Wonka, Willy Wonka, he's a genius who just can't be beat
The magician and the chocolate whiz
The best darn guy who ever lived
Willy Wonka, here he is!

saw this on a teacher's mug: 'to be happy, take a break from reality'. Or sth like that, along those lines ah. hm...what a dangerous idea. anyways, not like we're living in reality 24/7 nowadays, what with internet and all.

wah, and somebody's phone now touch screen ah!

and can anyone pleeeaase upload farewell pics? =( haiyoh, but Lina said this pretty class pic in parade square with balloons, i closed my eyes. Hey, it's the freakin hot sun ok glaring at me. Argh wasted!!

oho, and we're ponning gp like nobody's business. Just pray a good question that i like comes out in essay, and my brain will do the rest.

STUDY STUDy STUdy STudy Study study....

Farewell

2008-10-10T21:34:00.003+08:00

9/10/08
One day before farewell:

It was one of the more Good Days. Just when i found my courage to talk to you normally-without stuttering or in monosyllables-it was already time to say goodbye the next day. Guess how disappointed i was. And i thought there will not even be a next day. I thought today was the last time. I even tried-subtly i hoped-to ask u to come.

10/10/08
farewell assembly:

Ok, i thought to myself to not expect. And on my very-lonely-walk-to-school-coz-my-sis-was-having-marking-day, i kept my fingers crossed. My brain was telling me a flawless logical scenario while my heart was being silently strong. But somehow, as i had told hid today, my 'psychic' side is telling me something else. And then.... That little 'psychic' part of me that i ignore or brush aside most of the time is true... yet again. I was happy lah Duh. And the day went on happily after that =D Awesome.

Except that there was gp.

3 years in pj. and it gets more and more memorable each year. especially the last year, this year =)

I will definitely miss:

--> being with s04. With a combi of ppl with different personalities, i think s04 is unique in our dynamics. the jokers, the slackers, the muggers, the dreamers, the sleeping beauties, the retards...
--> our PE lessons. byebye frisbee! byebye rounders! byebye badminton! And we had such a great time with our inventive style of badminton too!

Hah, And how could i forget the 3 ppl who made my days in pj a blast? U know who u are, hm..maybe except for one of u who rarely go online. Start with the letter 'I' one.

To Kaname:
Yep, we only became close after the backrow gang dwindled in number, but u are one that i can talk to about almost anything. And u are like a child like that. Hahah..as in ur reactions lah. And ur butterfly hairband! LolS! And u always poke me one! Doushite...?! *evil grin* Haha! Now no more school, so no more being poked! Thanks for being there for me Always. As in countless Always: ichigo, updating me abt kakashi(hahaha!), my first heartbreak in j1.... And i know i can be insecure sometimes, but who doesn't right? So thanks for listening me out everytime. MUACKS.

To Nala:
Well, i dunno whether i should type this out coz chances are, u won't go online one. Ah, whatever, i shall just do it. Hoho! Hey u, remember the time when we walked home and stopped by the playground near our house? While on the swings, we confessed to each other about them. Well, it turned out that both of our thems disappoint us. In their own ways. But let's forget them. Anyways, u have Nala now right? And i also have recovered from my stupid heartbreak..thanks to Ichigo! MUACKS.

To Suku:
How can i ever forget u! I'm saving the last for the Special one! There is just too much to type! Oh gosh i feel like Shikamaru. Lots of Awesome times with u! It's LEGENDARY! Remember our first conversation? Let's make that dream a reality sometime in the future together. We'll take on Picasso and all those sunflowers paintings! Coz Art is a BANG! And perhaps set up L.A. And meet the hottest guy ever-JD!! Oh gosh, so many things! So many dreams! Life is too short and oh man we live on an Island. You have seen the best and the worst of me, and i hope we can get to the same uni together coz then we can continue spreading our love and retardedness to others! And i still wanna keep my hobby of irritating u. Fufufu...and Kekeke: The ties that bind us.

One

2008-09-26T20:20:00.006+08:00

In our sch library, we can find a similar quote too. They put up inspirational quotes in the library now. Apparently, this quote is found in the book by Thomas Friedman, 'The Lexus and the Olive Tree'. The moment i read this in the library, i loved it. Woooh. But i still have my favourite 'inspirational' poem given by my beloved and bestest aunt many many years ago. It goes like this:

~One~

One song can spark a moment,

One Flower can wake the dream;

One tree can start a forest,

One bird can herald spring;

One smile begins a friendship,

One handclasp lift a soul;

One star can guide a ship,

One word can frame the goal;

One vote can change a nation,

One sunbeam lights the room;

One candle wipes out darkness,

One laugh can conquer gloom;

One step must start each journey,

One word must start each prayer;

One hope will raise our spirits,

One touch show you care;

One voice can speak with wisdom,

One heart can know what's true;

One life can make a difference,

You see, it's up to you.

s04, let us be a class that will prove others wrong about our abilities in the upcoming a lvls.

zombie

2008-09-25T14:48:00.003+08:00

one hour sleep makes asyikin a zombie.

i went online in sch to say sth..but shucks i forgot what it is. omg, reay got stm.

btw, can't wait to see ina in her new haircut.

and Happy Birthday Hidaya! U are 18... and still counting! Kekeke.

Short Break and Stuffs that I Accomplished

2008-09-23T10:14:00.004+08:00

the short break i intended to have turned out to be loong. played eudemons online the whole day on saturday. then sunday, monday and tuesday i spent reading books. weehee! got the feeling which i had long not felt while reading books. it was a nice change than reading notes. lols..

read Discworld 3: The Science of Discworld, Darwin's Watch by Terry Pratchett.

Whoo, he rocks man. I was shocked at first when i realised the book is composed of 80% Science theories. The physics of blackholes and the associated time travel, parallel universes topics were discussed with quite great detail. There was also mathematics, the different types of infinities, apgp, etc etc. omg, the maths part was the most horrible of all. at least i can somewhat digest what the physics were talking about. but maths..i shut off. the pges were tuning by itslef. i even dozed off many times while trying to read and understand at the same time.

Then there was the evolution issue, which was the main topic of the book and the story line. The contents were somewhat similar to what we learnt! so darn funny i thought i was reading school notes for a moment.

In Discworld which is the 'real' world, Roundworld(Earth) was acidentally created by a clumsy wizard, and the wizards of the Unseen University thus had to ensure the saftey of Roundworld and its inhabitants, which was just the size of a soccer ball, surrounded by protective spells. Then, Darwin accidentally wrote the wrong book; ie instead of writing The Origin of Species, he wrote The Theology of Species, which will lead to the destruction of the human race via an impending Ice Age. Lol lol lol. In between the science chapters (which can get pretty dull coz its science theories), the misadventures of the wizards were hilarious.

I recommend this book (in gact, all Terry's books) to all my friend who takes pleasure some in satirical humor in their lives.

after a lvls of coz, of coz.

Then i read CS Lewis Narnia books 2 and 3. Prince Caspian, and The Voyage of the Dawn Treader. The latter is the title of the next Narnia movie. Whooo i can't wait!! But since the movie for Prince Caspian already had great many changes to the original storyline in the book, i do not doubt that the next movie will have deviations too.

And the last book i read was non other than our dear friend Frankenstein by Mary Shelly. Chilling.

Nuff said.

advanced tech

2008-09-18T11:25:00.009+08:00

Advanced Technology

omg for every single passing day, i can feel my brain getting more corrupted. sheesh.

this is for u hidaya. above.

tired of sleeping. sick of my bedroom. *can't say sick of studying later i kena jinxed =( *

i wanna go out. play.

!!!

radio playing hari raya songs. can't say i'm excited lah. normal normal only. this year mom says that we'll be visiting relatives only. so that reduces the number of houses i have to go to! yay! the first few days, the food will be so yummy (like always, every year MUAHAHA) but then about a week later, the food will get so boring coz its repititive. Usually it's like that.

chem paper 1 : DEAD.

2008-09-18T11:25:00.002+08:00

hehheh, now i got more mood to update my blog coz of the blogskin =D

2 more papers! why is today's chem paper 1 in the afternoon?? only one hour some more. go school, 60 minutes later, go home. why can't bio paper 1 be today too? bah.

think i'm gonna do absatively badly for math. geo, gp and bio hopefuul can pass. chem..hm..we'll see..hope can pass to pls pls. first time getting an E in jc2 for chem...

what am i talking about, getting passes. should be aiming for better grades. sighs.

2008-09-17T18:13:00.002+08:00

ahaha! so cool! >.<

still can't get over math paper.
Ahaha! and hidaya is a happy girl recently eh? control...
here and there, everywhere ppl are talking about prelims. sighs.
been having weird dreams lately.
really weird.
what's going on in my brain?

maybe i don't have to feel like this. maybe i'm just imprisoning myself with these thoughts. maybe it's time to really fly.

2008-09-11T20:31:00.001+08:00

i wish i can play like that...sighs.

shimatta i think i'm gonna fail prelim maths BAD.
hah.

2008-09-08T19:51:00.002+08:00

Oh..god...
this is just like a replay of what happened during mid yr for gp essay..
doing on some weird question.

oh god...
ah...

dejavu.

i'm scared my points are not substantiated enough. i just checked the internet. i typed in ' what we seek in our quest of the unknown'. some awesome points appeared. i could have used it! ah god...garrrrh. why oh why do i always follow my 'taste' and mood in choosing an essay question whenever i take huge exams? why can't i resist that urge? why can't i realise that this is an EXAM not an assignment, where marks are not that important anyway.

ok. the only thing to do is to hope for the best, to pass. oh god please please let me pass. as for the gp compre, i hate the structured questions but surprisingly the summary (for the first time i completed summary happily!) and aq were alright.

oh, and i nearly froze to death in geo. hidaya had a great time laughing at me coz i was shivering. literally. checklist: bring my dear shiroi jacket tmr for math. oh ya, i'm quite dead for math. didn't do most of the revision packages. aw shucks, screw it. woarrrgh.

pffft.

tired. from all these cramming. lesson learnt: do not cram. as u go with the flow, learn along. and make sure it sticks in ur head.

and happy happy happy birthday my one and only sis! i love u lots and u know that don't u, u idiot. sheesh.

2008-08-27T18:24:00.004+08:00

http://www.fishhouseministries.com/pdf/IslamReviewed.pdf

i think it is these kind of things available on the internet that incites such radical actions among Muslims; which then proceeds to escalate and then the coming of the label: terrorist.

it is like.

them saying these things.

then we saying the exact same things about them too, just that the victims were reversed.

is it really beneficial posting such resources where anyone can read them?

oh, right, i forgot: freedom of speech. yeah.

quote by william blake: " Truth can never be told so as to be understood and not to be believed."

one crucial point to note with reference to the contents of the web. Truth as told by WHO? of course each defend their own side; hence, each believed their own 'truths' and seeks to debunk the other 'truths'. logic.

excerpt:"Truth can sometimes be exceedingly hot and bitter. If you find any
statement in this book to be offensive, be sure it is not intended to be."

just by writing that sentence alone contradicts to its purported intention. in the first place, if u dont intend to offend anyone, do not post the entire content of the book online where any 'potential-muslim-terrorist' might gain access to it; and who may not possess the extremely high degree of TOLERANCE that i am excercising now. i am really wondering what kinds of material are censured in the net...when materials like this and also this http://iidb.infidels.org/vbb/archive/index.php/t-63221.html are available. seems to suggest a lot to me. but i am powerless to influence anything, and i therefore, i have no right to proceed further with this thought. so, shush, me.

many subjects were addressed in this website that reflects how deeply they had researched Islam before commenting upon them. i mean, oh come on..let's debate and discuss over these rather than outrightly thrashing the teachings of the other religion. afterall, "i worship not what u worship and u worship not what i worship. to u your religion and to me mine." (surah Al-Kafirun)

but, please, by all means, go ahead and read this website. =)

must excercise freedom of action and thought, right?

http://www.answering-islam.org/Green/onbible.htm

i think this second website is more objective. Far more more more objective. and it even provided me with info that even i didnt know and had thought wrongly before! especially the conclusion. and nowhere in this website do i read any inciteful sentences. it is written in completely neutral tones and is analytical. it is then up to oneself to judge.

in my opinion, times have become so modern that we risk becoming arrogant and therefore seek to reject religion. and (any)religion is never irrelevant. of course, again this is my opinion. to me, i view Islam as more of a guidance and way of life than a religion. what i have written, i start with "In my opinion" or sth along those lines.

i am a fool for wanting to believe that racial and religious discrimination can be eradicated. it still exists EVERYWHERE, either subtly or forthrightly. in the second weblink i pasted earlier, some guy even mentioned that the Quran is a war book. sighs. >.<

ok! enough of all this mulling around. time to be just-a-student-mugging-for-a lvls...hopefully my friends wont think im some pyscho emo kid who is thinking abt stuffs that im not supposed to be thinking of, and writing it in my blog some more.

2008-08-06T19:44:00.002+08:00

I dun feel well today. Terrible headache. Drained me just to keep my head up. Wow, dunno how i managed to survive the day. Went back and slept for aound 30 minutes. Woke up, ate dinner and now i felt nauseous. Still got headache. But now plus want to vomit.

i really wanna vomit.

ugh.

2008-07-30T16:48:00.001+08:00

I Won't Say (i'm In Love) - Disney Hercules Soundtrack

If there's a prize for rotten judgement
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history,
been there, done that
Who d'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, ya can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of
Oh No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no
You swoon, you sigh
Why deny it, uh-oh
It's too cliche
I won't say I'm in love
I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out
You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad
No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no
Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love
This scene won't play
I won't say I'm in love
You're doin' flips read our lips
You're in love
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it
Girl, don't be proud
It's ok you're in love
Oh At least out loud
I won't say I'm in love

nice lyrics...but yucks.

Gila Bayang

2008-07-29T19:36:00.002+08:00

No i'm not, okeyhhhh Lina! Not gila bayang that is. Just adoring. Hahah..even using that word sucks. Sheesh, just say i got BAD taste lah. Speaking of bad taste, please send me that disney song u gave me to listen that day. Whenever u online, or hidaya. Thx=D

Tmr is racial harmony day and i know ichigo t_ _ a_ _ _ d_ _ _ _g. *sadded*
Nehmind. Kakashi.

Today was a stressful day. I went to school feeling refreshed coz i slept for like 8 hours plus the night before. Then first period was bio lecture. On diversity and evolution. And i realised that i WAS FEELING SLEEPY. scared the shit out of me. is it the lecture that is making me sleepy? better be.

had phototaking and shit i have to sit down. first row. with legs sitting like the malay bride. ugh. HAHAHAH but then all 4 of us had to sit down! First time eh! For the yearbook last yr, only lina had to sit. WEHHEHHEH...btw..i think i got smile. idiot eh, why do i only smile when i feel like it? why cant my forced smile be just as normal and indistinguishable as my normal genuine smile? i hate formal pictures. i love informal ones =D

ichigo LOL-ed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so kawaii.

then had to verify alot of pq stuffs. the troublesome part. SIGH. went here went there. then asked the clerk to verify agape for me. then she checked and my name was not there. i panicked like hell, man. omgosh. went here and there and talked or rather, complained to hid, lina, izz, farah, kk, even disturbed the s04 ppl who were having math rem. think i talked too fast like very harried like that..think nobody understood what i was trying to say. lols.

but i was in a hurry and was so indignant WHY my name was not there. derek said i looked kelam kabut, xg and wenxi laughed when i gave up halfway explaining. then, further discouraged, with my brain feeling like a jumble of..hm lemme find a good word...tangled wire, i went to the concourse. then mdm lin who seemed to be sitting there from morning till evening, suddenly called my name and asked me why she had seen me pass by like 10 times. lols.

then halfway accompanying derek buy food from a kopitiam near phoenix station, my mom called and said i have to get back asap coz have to send food to my granny. wow. think i walked like 5km today.

MICH: SEE YOU TMR DARLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XDXD

2008-07-26T10:04:00.004+08:00

wahaha! cool picture! a chain of master and student! kakashi........woahh...so cool...huhuhu..see? hands in his pockets...just like the kakashi in sch. just downloaded mcfly's latest album, Radioactive. not bad. mcfly songs are nice! =)

ichigo! <3

*edit:

Yay! Repossesed is good huh? That's why on friday night study after reading the book i kept smiling. Until Jiemin asked why i kept smiling the whole day. Hahah..been a good day that's why. In fact, it's been a good 2-3 weeks. If u know what i mean, Kaname and Quarter. Lol.

Finally done my cca sgc. Whee!

I do not want to go horticulture park.

And hidaya, u were great! U found a COOL website! omg.

BLOOD!

2008-07-24T20:08:00.003+08:00

Today chem prac is shiok!! Kinda missed the times when me and hidaya would sing sweeney todd songs at the back of the class. But ladies and gentlemen, we hath matured.....ahem.

so, we learnt how to make 'artificial' blood. the lecturer said that this is what they used in films in place of blood. WOW. Sugoi.

Mine. Dark dark dark red. <3 clour ="D">

Pic is a bit blurry but that is izzati's hand..apparently dripping with 'blood'..lol..chem pracs are always fun! =DDDD so amazing lah, all these chemicals..wonder why i suck at chem...prolly coz the theory behind all these complex formations bores me to death.

a hilarious sight: jie min with an open bio textbook but she is sleeping!

kakashi today really REALLY made my heart jump. like in shock. paralyzed. ichigo is SWEET today (^.^).

yay! hopefully can buy a new backpack this weekend. my very old orange one is so darn small. if i stuff my large sweater inside, it looks like my bag is 9 months pregnant.

AND BLOODY IDIOT can the school do something about the padi field stall that is happily on hiatus??? i want r.i.c.e. and the $2 that izzati repaid (omg i just typed it as repayed) me had slipped from my pocket somewhere and now its gone. =( idiot.

hm..realised that some of the words i've been using lately: bloody idiot/hell, eleh, hm, huh?, tired, sleepy, hahahah, hehehehe, ichigo!, kakashi!!, quarter, kaname, not funny, night study, woohoo, cute, hot, =)...

hah, learnt a new term today: schizoid. its the name of a new suria drama series.

According to wiki, it's a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency towards a solitary lifestyle, secretiveness, and emotional coldness. SPD is reasonably rare compared with other personality disorders. Its prevalence is estimated at less than 1% of the general population.

ichigo cold. lol.

2008-07-23T19:08:00.010+08:00

The lousiest gp paper i have ever dared to hand in. My mind wasn't in the right state to craft an essay or argue or whatever. Keep drifting away to god knows where. It's like i can't contain my thoughts: they're flying all over the place like some hurricane had visited and left the place in a hurry. Oooooo...*feeling sick*

getting more and more sian.

no, i'm not an absolute pessismist.

i start each day with a positive attitude, something like: ok, today is gonna be a good day.

then i walk to school happily with my sis, listening to songs in my ~~mp3~~ handphone that provided me with my daily dose of music that i need.

but.

(omg that one word sentence above sounds alien to me. is b-u-t a foreign lang coz suddenly that 3 letter word doesn't make any sense to me.)

but then i'm bombarded by expectations galore come lesson time. giving every single minute of lesson-tutorial or lecture-my utmost...or maybe just simply, attention, is practically impossible. a fiasco. i tried doing so *feeling ambitious* and felt sick afterwards. my brain had just gorged and now wanted to puke. it became sort of bulimic.

oh cool..a bulimic brain.

not to mention that it is oh so physically taxing. i wonder and WONDER why if it is scientifically proven that our attention span lasts only for like 20 minutes (?), do schools draft up a curriculum that places lessons back to back. it is a paradox that contains no truth whatsoever.

guess i just have to p-e-r-s-e-v-e-r-e. ohhhhmyyyygod. ok..do i sound like a typical singaporean now? griping here and there.

INSOUSCIANCE: nonchalance. i go and put indifference. hurrr..please let my answer be accepted x_x....chotto matte..i'm gonna flunk this paper, so what difference does it make anyway?

schadenfreude vs sadist: what's the diff??

i may not be as smart as some people. i may not be as tall, as thin, as pretty as some people. i may not be as sensible as other people. i may not be as happy-go-lucky as some people. i may not be as funny as some people. but i accept that this is me and this is what God has created and i will not complain. instead, i will change my mindset and be practical about what i want.

if i hadn't met u, i wouldn't like u. if i hadn't liked u, i wouldn't love u. if i hadn't loved u, i wouldn't miss u. but i did, and i had, and i will.

2008-07-22T22:00:00.002+08:00

In bio lecture today, our lecturer showed us a video of sexual selection on peacocks. It was hilarious. Really. Some RA stuffs there. I wonder if those peacocks are capable of experiencing love.

Love..is a song that someone sings in which only u hear...that's what a friend told me long ago.

(my mom just interupted me to say that the doctor who delivered me when i was born is on tv right now on 'behind closed doors')

There's this one quote that i cant remember who it was from that goes like: Love comes unseen; we only see it go.

I cant believe i still can recall that..lols..i rmb reading that quote somewhere when i was in sec 2 doing literature on romeo and juliet.i think that we come to love not by finding a perfect person but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly. I'm not referring to ichigo or anyone else here.

Aw man..wirting a pq is so troublesome..hah now i'm sounding a lot like shikamaru.

Recently, embarassing stuffs happened to me and hidaya at sch...wonder why...i'm suddenly reminded of her quote: the calm before the storm..which she always uses for ec stuffs. hahahahh..but quite paiseh ah..ranging from a flying shoe, freedom song, me calling out her name frantically when suku appear, suddenly calling out kakashi so loudly, eel becomes a worm etc etc etc alot alot alot. It's like every single day there is something to laugh at or laugh with and sth embarassing or funny or *ahem* exciting happen. =D love ya guys.

yuuuckk...i'm so tired now..tmr still got gp mock exam paper and bio lect test and math too this friday. and charlie on thurs. UGHHHHHHH.

Stupid for you- marie digby

2008-07-19T16:36:00.009+08:00

It's not everyday
That I meet a person quite like you
Perfect every way
I finally found the nerve to confess that it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
Put aside, all my pride
So don't keep me hanging here
Cause this girl is falling stupid for you...
Oh, oh stupid for you...

The proper thing to do
Is for me to act like a lady and wait
For you to make the first move

But I don't think you're getting the point
That it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
Put aside, all my pride
So don't keep me hanging here
Cause this girl is falling stupid for you
Oh, oh stupid for you

Why's it always feel like I am
Chasing love when nothing's there
And here I go just making the same mistakes...

I've fallen stupid for you...
Oh, oh stupid for you...
Oh, oh, oh, oh

Say it Again - Marie Digby (World Premier Video)

Phir bhi yeh dil hai ke isko junoon hai

Pal do pal ko khwab saja de

Isko usko sabko bata de

Raaz jo saare hain

2008-07-15T18:22:00.002+08:00

Yesterday hidaya overdosed. Today, i think i hit overdose too...maybe..lols ^^

I thought i was gonna die but my heart was beating faster omg.

Dark choc smarties are YUMMY!

Honey coated peanuts are YUMMY!

Kakashi and Ichigo are....

whoops! superb day today...but dunno why my stuffs are prone to the effects of gravity today. stuffs keep falling down. like my file, my pencil box etc etc..lucky not me! and izzati was barefooted on her left foot and she kicked her leg at me so i kicked her shoe down the other row during chem lect. Muahaha!! Then she funny..go and kick her leg against her own bottle so her bottle fell onto the same row as her shoe! Garage sale! >.<

yayay! hope times infinity tmr will be a good day too!

i dun wanna go night study...cant really study effectively at NIGHT in SCH. and one of the peanuts i'm eating just rolled under the com table oh no...

2008-07-14T18:18:00.004+08:00

ah..the pressure of looming a lvls.

its overwhelming.

for average students like me.

so many thoughts tossing around in my head like they are caught in a tsunami or sth.

greater things out there and here i am sitting in front of my com blogging about the greater things out there.

well, enough wishful thinking, back to now..

today was the first day in a while we had pe and it's gonna be all games games and more games! Games are fun=D just seeing ppl play i'm happy.

MY MP3 IS SPOILT! IT BLOODY JAMMED when i was studying in the lib! I got so depressed coz of that, that i think i scared off hidaya and lina and izz coz i became bloody emo. Gomen! Heehee...some more that day no ichigo...=(((((( how...no mp3..my songs..ah.. i hope i can find the back up song files..no mp3....*grey clouds hanging above head*

and the friend that i missed a lot called me during gp today! YOOHOO! =DDD

and lina and izz did sth funny....sry mich i couldnt really concentrate on what u were saying coz i distracted lah! and just now me and hidaya went to lot 1 but i think the jap foods there not halal lah Mich... GARH. and anytime u see me online, i can send u the terry pratchett ebooks. terry rocks!!!!! his books are damn amazing, man! laced with dark satirical humour! i liike!!

till then...nochi hodo!
no mp3....=(

kibun ga warui desu.
Atashi wa jikan o mouda ni shite imasu.

no mp3...=(

2008-07-13T17:22:00.001+08:00

Some things are so difficult.

X(

2008-07-09T18:13:00.002+08:00

THANK U HIDAYA!!!!

for lending me the Greenday CD! american idiot rocks! XDXD

and its a boy girl thing story very VERY sad. huh. so touching. last part so SWEET..during the homecoming. SIGH. =((

and i got new ec! heh. Muahahahahah. Woohoo.

ah...had cip on youth day. play games with pri sch kids. huh, kids? what kids? tornado more like. but they quite cute sometimes too. XD

and a few ppl became paedophiles. like hidaya. lols.

i dun think many ppl like their mid yr results. i dun like mine at all. hahah..but cant really be sad coz its all my fault i know. so guess what? prelims here i come! MUAHAHHA!

oh, some ex students came back to talk to us. and this guy took jap studies in uni and he said chotto matte! LOL. I immediately turned to Lina and then i saw jiemin grinning away and hidaya too. and i knew my ears hadn't played a trick on me. chotto matte!

I like....
~ drawing
~ reading/literature
~ Johnny Depp
~ cats
~ purple
~ anime....ichigoXD
~ music..catchy music...no rapping please. gimme nice music with nice lyrics.
~ games.

so what should i do in uni?

gosh, i cant get the part where kevin confessed to nell. at the homecoming. aw maaaan. XD

2008-07-06T13:05:00.003+08:00

Woar..i was cleaning out the cds in my house then when i checked the contents of some cds, i found some stuffs that i forgot i had forgotten.

Class 4/8 2005!

I can see Revathi at the back..lol. Racial Harmony day.

Playing games in class.

got many other pics too. wahaha..wonder how they all are doing..^^

GET SMART <3

2008-07-05T11:21:00.003+08:00

K.A.H (in malay it's used to signify a qn..sth like japanese use ka..) =D so glittery!!

too bad for me coz i was having the symptoms of lack of sleep (yesterday i played hp games till 2 am plus then woke up at 6). yup, i'm the kind of person who can't really function well and will zombie around the whole day if i sleep later than 12 am.

so MUCH FUN with my 2 fav ppl!!!!!!!!!!!! =DDDD ps lina, in the end, we didnt go ljs..heehee..oh and every turn we make, we saw, guess what? someone's alter ego! The Incredible Hulk! >.<

1.sth is bothering my mind now but i shouldn't really dwell on it too much.

2. i wish it doesn't have to be like this

2008-07-04T11:21:00.004+08:00

Aziemah! Congrats!! and yup Narnia is PRETTY (hehe) good. wow..i think the teasings have become true. omg u posted those zettai kareshi pics now u make me wanna watch them. why are jap guys so hot???! *dosa..dosa..oh no..* Lina...u got a friend already...lols =D

2008-06-30T13:22:00.006+08:00

Chem. Sux.
I. Lost. My. Ez link.

=(

shud be somewhere in the house i think.
hm...the sara song Fairytale in imeem sounds different than what i have in my mp3..my mp3 one is more um...no, less jazzy, more punk. Gonna upload that one soon. But i love this song! Kiss.

Yay! Finally changed skin!

To Hidaya: As much as we know that our adoration borders on the extreme for *ahem* Johnny depp, pls change ur skin coz everytime i go there now i see blue. Bluuuuuuuuuuuuue....*sways*

wanna watch azumanga daioh.
hello everymeow...
i wish i were a bird...
OMG the show is damn retarded. ^^

1. The age you'll be on ur next bday:

2. A place u'd like to travel to:

3. Ur fav place:

my com=house=my home! =D

4. Ur fav food:

Definitely sushi^^

5. Ur fav animal:

the egyptians worship them. nuff said.

6. Ur fav colour:

7. Ur fav piece of clothing:

Loosely inspired by kimono..breezy dresses.

8. Ur fav song:

Argh!! I hate fav song qns. i LOVE so many songs..but okay...i think so far the song that i felt so most is this. don't ask. there's the Live from Soho version too

9. Ur fav tv show:

seldom watch tv shows..so i chose this coz human robots are cool! like irobot! anyway, this pic is kinda cool.

10. First name of your significant other /crush:

No entry..XD

11. The town in which u live in:

i rmb this pic..its in our social studies textbook!!

12. Ur screen name/nickname:

i..uh..dun have any?

13. Ur first job:

in other words, wasting my parents' hard earned money on dozens of sketchbooks and guiltily drawing away in spite of looming examinations.

14. Ur dream job:

15. A bad habit u have:

16. Ur worst fear:

burn baby burn..

17. One thing u'd like to do before u die:

learn as many languages.
speaking of which, yesterday, my mom told me abt an article in the malay newspaper. a female undergrad at nus has a love for lang and is fluent at 7 languages and she has the same type of mixed blood as me: javanese, chinese and indian. and i say its scary coz she's so much like me! OMG. this proves that the world is just so damn big.

18. The first thing u'll buy if u get $1 000 000:

buy a small piece of island in the caribbean and be King! Like him ! ooolaalaa..

woah!! finally done! =D

songs on my playlist:

*Marie Digby - Stupid for You

*Marie Digby - Traffic

*The Ting Tings - That's not My name

*Jesse McCartney - Leavin'

*TCoN - The Battle

*TCoN 2 - The Call

*LOTR 1 - The Riders of Rohirrin

*David Cook - Always be my Baby

*Marie Digby - Say it Again

*Danity Kane - Damaged

2008-06-27T11:37:00.004+08:00

Some random pics:

Woohoo..my very first carbonated drink this year...Sarsi!!

When i reached home, i got a very pretty surprise. My mom arranged the top of my dressing table with pretty pics in pretty frames!! Me and my sis when we were a baby and when we were in primary sch...so cute sia! Then got pretty rose flower in the middle! Then the games bin behind with our teddies! and look! the picture also shows my 2 fav things: POTC and FMA poster!!! WOW..my fav spot in my room...make that in my house...<3>

Oho...hopefully my sis won't read this entry..coz i think i know what to get for her birthday. it's in sept. quite far..but the above deathnote set costs about $34..must start saving from now..special edition some more..got dvd plus notebook plus rubik cube of L. Even though i'm not a BIG fan of deathnote, i must admit it's pretty cool having L on the rubik cube..right, lina? hehehe...

Oh...(lina, i dun want to write the story here..too malu hehe)..then Lina saw Kakashi! Same bus pulak tu...>.< !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ichigo.

ok, bio was nice. haha. woa..i feel like mid yrs over like that...no..still got chem and math. XD

edit*

i am now multi tasking. playing Fiesta online on my laptop and surfing on the main com.

Hehehe..nice feeling XD

2008-06-26T18:09:00.003+08:00

well well well....
math paper 2 was a sucker.
cheat me of my time.
thought the paper was manageable...come until qn 8...felt like i'm on the titanic..drowning and knowing that i'm gonna die.

the result of only studying math for 6hrs before the paper=D

ok..what's done is done!

tmr..hm...bio paper 3.
hopefully easy coz it's 1 hr only and i don't want time wasted having to think and mull over qns.

then..LONG break to study chem paper 2! and math statistics..omg.

ok..my hopes and guesses for my grades:
gp:E
geo:D
math:E....cross my fingers for this
bio:D
chem:E...cross my fingers for this too

sad grades if i got these for a lvl. even sadder still if a got U. sad life. i'm not born a natural genius..gotta work exponentially hard as those gifted people for me to get satisfying grades. see how disastrously taxing this is???

2008-06-24T14:47:00.002+08:00

Wow...so long never post..lol..Mai thought i was studiously mugging..heheh..

sheesh, holidays are not a good time for studying. so slack. during the last 2 weeks lagi worst. birthdays lah, family triips lah...must sacrifice some time to spend with family and all..cannot so cooped up in academics lah..zzz. fail lah my mid years. this is the exam that i felt the LOUSIEST coz i din't really do much. subjects that i'm quite confident for passing: geo and bio..maybe gp. at least scrape a pass, can?

yesterday bio i skipped the whole of mendelian! it's either that or essay. since essay is doable, i did essay lah! and then when pathma asked what ratio, i blur. lol. she asked me what paper i just did..! haha..

tmr paper 3 chem. SIAN. chem and math can kiss buhbye already.

2008-05-23T16:04:00.004+08:00

Owens won the House cup. yay..haha.

Haha hidaya getting 1st for high jump XD

Spying on lina from outside geo room. Heh heh XD

Gp paper was horrible. Horrible. ARGH.

Oh and miraculously, i passed the bio test MUAHAHAH! Which is amazing given that i only prepared for the hint that they gave, which was examples for essay. Aiyah, but still pass also not a good pass.

The J1s were awesomely sweeet!! The testtube deco above looks fantastic in real life. On sports day, i caught a bunch of them in the toilet at the grandstand huddling over a testtube rack and several testtubes nd i was like, "Hello! What u all doing?" and they were like "Shit! We're caught!" but then i thought they were doing some pw thingy or what so i just heh heh and they giggled and i thought they looked and acted kinda strange, then i said "Haha, see ya !" and then voooosh the thought was forgotten. Then suddenly during the handover lunch in the container classroom, they gave this to us! And i was like Whoa! LOL. XDXDXD. And i got another notebook! Heeeheeheee...XD Hah, then we went to play IN OUR SCHOOL UNIFORM coz they forgot to tell us got games. So some played basketball, but then me and mai and jes and syafiqah played volleyball. it was so hot!! like can fry an egg on top of your head. wow. then laugh to the power of infinity. waaaaah...in the end, like dehydrated. XD so fun! XD.

Gonna watch anime now. WOOHOO. oh and OMG itachi is such a tragedy. my heart breaking. lol. ah..still got ichigo lah. Wooooooosh. Hot.

2008-05-19T20:08:00.002+08:00

1) What have you realised recently?
that a lvl is damn near and i am not prepared for it.

2) Have you given your first kiss away?
*chuckles* well..no..~~but in a way..yes. does your friend's dream count?~~

3) If you were able to have 2 superpowers, what would you choose?
Shape-shifting..and um..time-space manipulation/elemental based powers. woots!

4) Where do you want to go to the most?Around the world?
Japan. seriously.

5)If you can have 1 dream come true, what would it be?
to travel around the world and be an artist.

6) What song would you choose as the soundtrack of your life?
Gone-Switchfoot. tough question, this one...

7) What are you afraid to lose the most now?
th faith in myself.

8) If you win $1 million, what would you do?
invest. and when that investment has sky-rocketed, i will use much of it for humanitarian aid. oh, and i will travel around the world with my family and friends. =D

9) Tell a lame joke
Yo mamma so ugly when she was born, your mother said, "What a treasure!" and your father said, "Yea lets go bury it".

10) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you
- Random
- Random
- Random
BWAHAHAHAHAH

11) What are the requirements of your other half?
shinigami. *inside joke*

12) The kind of people who you hate?
- harry potter kinds
- orihime kinds
basically, those who think that they are the center of the universe.

13) What is the one thing you cannot live without?
family and friends.

14) If you have faults, would you rather people tell you or keep quiet?
tell me so that i know. don't bitch around.

15) What is the most important thing in your life?
love. sanity. freedom.

16) Are you a shopaholic or not?
if i am a zillionaire,i would top the list of shopaholics.

17) Will you choose someone who loves you more or someone who you love?
hm.....can i choose a little of both..

18) If you have a chance, what part of our character would you like to change?
be less of a procrastinator, and a more courageous person in all aspects.

19) What's the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?
cyclone nargis.

20)Would you wish to change the world?
that's just a wish. God runs these things. ask Him.

okaayyy hitsugaya-CHAN, i got ur tag. my turn!BWAHAHAHA..
i tag...um...can i tag 3?ok...
1. my sis
2. hidaya-KUN
3. kaname sempai.

omg i haven't do gp essay...think i'll continue during reading tmr.

2008-05-17T21:05:00.002+08:00

next time i wanna try out coffee milk tea. whee=)

woa..just now was kinda fun coz the mc members were studying together.=)

thx a million to mai for being so sweet and teaching me maths! dear! hahahahahXD

and fun during the reception with mai, lina and fir. chendol XD

sk made a gd speech and i saw kk and josh! hahah. azie couldn't come tho =(

2008-05-15T20:20:00.004+08:00

set alarm at 4 am. woke up to the madonna song '4 minutes'. then went back to sleep. dmn. thought i wanna study for the bio test. ah, the test was lousy. sure fail like hell. never study gene therapy. asyikin u lazy crazy fella.

hur..today, we studied at 'our place' outside lt3 secluded place there. shiok! Muahahahha!

lina hiccupped during chem. FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i lol until cannot tahan...XD

and kuso kuso i have to go college day as freaking audience. neh!!? ooo but superman will be there too! XD

random words that occured today(which i still rmb, apparently):

tables and chairs and popular and half divided by two, and d grayman ppl, and vampires (oo lala), gross, milking, chickens, bovine somatotrophin, ichigoooo, ooolaalaaa, emo, haha, ignore, lupines, moon, f***, lump of cloth, study, shit, peru chile, China, charliechan, wallet, honey milk tea oolaalaa, Golden Rice, agrobacteria tumefaciens, ester, comics connections, cantik!, money, old chang kee......................................................

promise to self: study very very hard during the hols. =D

becoz everything happens for a reason. =)/=(

anyways, found this on a friend's blog, enjoy!

the harry potter one is quite funny..lol.

2008-05-13T19:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO THE ONLY GAL WEARING BLUE!
omg..soon it will be my turn to turn 19. such a weird, ugly number. i think. at least 18 is an even number. what am i talking about? ok ok back to the topic: AZU! i sms-ed u to wish u but u didn't reply me! where were u?! *depressed*
Ok, here's a small teeny weeny dedication for u:
i am gonna be a bit selfish here, so prepare! *MUAHAHA*
i wish u were still here in pj (o god, this sounds silly). coz i kinda miss having some one to talk to..
ANYWAYS, enjoy ur course coz it's what u've been wanting to study right? psycology. Oi..we all watch together movie one day okeh?? one fine day when a mighty fine movie comes out. keep yourself together at home, gal..don't let anything not worth tear u apart.
aiyah, i should shut up now before u emo. =D
in conclusion: happih burfdayh!

rmb this??? hahaha...

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you said that I was naive,

and I thought that I was strong.

I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."

but now I know that I was wrong,

'cause I missed you.

nice lyrics from lisa loeb. stay.

events in life can be pretty unpredictable, and sometimes, i feel lost in this chaos, yet anticipating what will happen next. ah...it's like a ship, u see. like i'm in this ship (imagine the Black Pearl) and the waters are choppy and yet i kinda thrive on this sort of exhilaration. then there's the momentary calm...where i sort of be in sync with myself and life..the waters are serene and friendly.

but now i feel like a rag doll being tossed about in a ship that's willfully wandered into a storm.

my precious honey milk tea slipped from my grasp and exploded on the floor in the canteen! all that's left in the sweet talk bottle was 3 miserable pearl survivors of the crash. the remaining contents and the other pearls were transfered to the plastic bag. dear hidaya said it looked like teh tarik. i thought it was gross coz um..yeh..some weird theory of mine regarding dusts and germs which i think few agrees. =( my honey milk tea dammit!

ah nevermind...! can always buy again. and mai and me and atiqah pulled off an escape. woohoo! =D

from now on, i will STRIVE to cheer myself up. RARRRRRRRR. regardless of. RARRRRR. just smile it away. RARRRRRRRR.

omg i think my bio sucks now. got a huge test coming and i still hate the topics.

shitshitshitshitshitshitshit.

2008-05-11T09:00:00.000+08:00

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

jason mraz. kk sent some songs that are so nice over on msn the other day and now i'm hooked hooked hooked. especially the aslyn one. =)

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real
But somehow I'm still alive inside

You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care
So how do you expect me to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

jordin sparks. baz kept singing this song and i think it influenced me. hohoho.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

the fray. reminds me of a friend that i miss very very much...

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They're still looking for life

lifehouse.

yesterday had gathering to sort of celebrate mother's day. i love it when my closest cousins get together. the silliest and hilarious things happened and stuffs are said! =DD

whom to trust.
what they say behind us.
how would we know.
we don't.
that's the problem.

seeking solace

2008-05-10T09:50:00.003+08:00

~i'm going into sacrificial mode...again.~
dunno whether to cry or laugh.
listening to : iris by googoo dolls.

anyways...:

now wearing:

yay! hidaya told me there's a Johnny depp movie this weekend on ch 5! MUAHAHAHAHA
nice photo! i saw this cute frog at the mosque.

Let me tell u an amazing story of 2 young, determined gals:

they wanted to buy these pretty pouches at Lot 1 ($11). and they were excited and impatient. haha. soooo...at 12.30pm, they rushed to Lot 1 when there was only 30 minutes and less for math lesson. and they knew very well what happens to ppl who are late in mdm lim's class. hahah. funny right, hidaya? the giler bus driver and the cashier...wahliao....HAHAHA....=D but look t the result! even tho we were drenched in sweat, we got our pretty pouches! mine is the prada and hidayas' is the gucci.

"Can i have the prada and the gucci ones please?"

damn a lot of tests and hw. huh..weekend? what weekend?

and hehe! 3 of my photos got into the gallery in school. i love the particular one. the other one is ok..but the last one i was amazed that the person chose it coz i took it for fun only.

To U who can't get the string out in the toilet that day:

sometimes, if u place all your hopes and emotions into a basket, u put yourself at risk. the basket may break. and if u can't mend it, then u're in big trouble coz u won't enjoy life in the present when u keep thinking about the past. but if the basket holds and maybe...u'll find a surprise even..then i'm happy for u =). one thing i can say about rejection is this: it's whether u are willing to move on if u love yourself... u'll have no regrets in life then.

2008-05-07T20:27:00.002+08:00

Do u know? Do u know? Do u know??

I woke up this morning feeling strangely happy and contented. In the toilet, while bathing, usually i would feel sian-ed (most of the time) coz have to go school, lessons etc etc etc. But this morning, i even frowned at this unusual happiness within me. Like, when i woke up, i started smiling and was in a good mood. And my heart was like fluttering a little, the kind when u're expecting something exciting.

Feeling strange at this happiness which had seemingly came from nowhere, i went to school.

And then hidaya told me something so fabulously FABULOUS and ohmygod-ish. And i think that may explain why i woke up from sleep with a smile today.

=heheheheheheheheheheehehhehe=

woar.

Have tons of hw to be completed this week..plus researches..ugh..went hme early, stayed back till around 3 plus with Mai. It was raining bloody heavily, but it was so darn cool coz i was listening to dard-e-disco and the terrible gust of wind plus the heavy beatings of the raindrops and the fact that i'm super drenched and i was walking back home..and it all seemed exciting. And all the traffic lights at the junction malfunctioned AGAIN!

I can attest to how BOH-RING plant cloning is---i put all the tutorial stuffs on the bed, plus my mp3. I climbed into bed. I lay down. And...i slept without even realising when i had slept! I woke up thinking i must have went time travelling or something.

And now there's indiana jones on tv but i have to complete my tutorial.

Ah dammit...

2008-05-06T19:13:00.002+08:00

from 'The Dogs of Babel'-the balladry of Tam Lin excerpt:

Out then spoke the Fairy Queen, and an angry Queen was she.

"You have taken the finest knight in all my company."
"Had i known but yesterday what i know today,
i'd have taken out your two grey eyes and put in eyes of clay."
"And had i known but yesterday you'd be no more my own,
i'd have taken out your heart of flesh and put in one of stone."

it's heart-wrenching but the protagonist in the book is right.the fairy queen is stereotyped to be a baddie, but if someone suddenly comes along and steals from u, u have the right to be angry-heartbroken even, especially if your love's been whisked.
put in eyes of clay that cannot give tears. put in a heart of stone so that it won't break.

i found several versions of the ballad(excerpt):

The Queen of Fairies she cried out
Young Tam Lin is away..
Had I known, had I known, Tam Lin
Long before, long before you came from home
Had I known, I would have taken out your heart
And put in a heart of stone..
Had I known, had I known, Tam Lin
That a lady, a lady would steal thee
Had I known, I would have taken out your eyes
And put into a rowan tree..
Had I known, had I known, Tam Lin
That I would lose, that I would lose the day
Had I known, I would have paid my tithe to hell
Before you'd been won away

ah such poetry XD.

been laughing a LOT lately. must be the stress. and the company. LOL. and the hot hot hot motivation.

Happy Birthday to Yu Xuan today!!=D

oh oh oh! Thanks a million to izz for something. HEEEES.

i'm curious about something...quite a few, now that i think about it..but i'll just mind my own business....

*minding my own business*

2008-05-05T20:24:00.004+08:00

Kuso..life is mean, man...wicked..

this is what happened:

on sunday night, i decided to play naruto on psp. very happy. play from 9.30 all the way till 11.30. wooh. then go toilet to pee before sleeping and then bam! my period. and the next day, which is today, there is actual 2.4km run for napfa. and this period decided to give me the cramps which i often dun get. so the whole day, lina and hidaya and iz can hear me complaining about this extreme EXTREME pain..totemo itami ne!!!!

especially at the cd shop at popular. wahsey laugh so much and hard that people must think we're nuts, man. not really good for my cramps. but it's ohmygoditissodarnfunny!

my mom just told me that a mother cat and her 2 kittens were killed. apparently someone poured acid over them. hope that bastard gets what he deserves.

jiemin tells the most hilarious jokes.

school is getting so freaking demanding. drained. tired. lethargy. i notice that almost for almost every turn, i see students grinding away with their GCs, noses buried in notes and faces that betray what they really feel about their lifestyle now.

i don't know..what do they want us to be? singaporeans as model students? diligent and vibrant? we can achieve success by having a complete and top-notch education. but at the expense of? how do you define success?

am i a loser for entertaining thoughts of giving up? even allowing these little, curious bubbles of thoughts onto the podium in my head?

like mulan says, your duty is to your heart ( to some extent i agree).

not saying that i would quit my education. but the thing that i fear is that these things i learn in school, these blatant academia would not help me in the real world where you are the sum of your experiences; and that my life, even if it's choke full of scholarly successes would be unfulfilling when stripped bare.

i pray to god for a reservoir of strength to carry on. =)

anyways, back to matters of the heart...hees=D...almost everything is going fine =D

still hot still. HAHA. just wish that i can overcome my own reservations.

suddenly feel like watching rom-com.

ohh..something special from last week:

2008-04-30T20:51:00.002+08:00

This week has been bloody good, man. Smile, asyikin, smile =DD

Some stuffs that i recall:

- met up with mrs hitsugaya toushiro. =DD

- stayed back to watch boys napfa =D

- waseda university!

- passed all 5 stations except sbj. kuso. why am i so scared to jump ah? lousy. ooh but sit and reach i managed to get A seh!

- kfcs and quarters and strawberries and more more LOTSA strawberries. yum.

- Michelle says ichigo is hot. she knows =D. but sam says he got attitude and not that hot. asyikin do not succumb to peer pressure. hah. =D

- 3 charliechan in one week.

- ichigo again.

- i became a spy!

- kk says i'm smart. wahsey of course lah. especially when i'm desperate to go off, eh. cut up some idiot invitation stuff. wah really retarded, man.

some stuffs that i want:

- psp purple metallic case/nice pouch

- pretty orange inner earpiece

- modify my psp. my friend told me that now they sell the modified one..ugrhhh.

- Jubei-chan 2 -Siberia Yagyuu no Gyakushuu- Original Soundtrack ~Kizukeba Ongaku Kiteita~

- our dear gardener to pronounce my namae correctly.

some stuffs i realised:

- that '~' is a binomial thingy. wtf.

- my sprained finger is 98% cured! yosh!

- i kinda suck at probability.

- i love the colours purple, orange, red and black XD...huh actually depends on my mood lah XD

what i'm doing now:

- eating durian

- watching just for laugh gags

- blogging. duh.

realised that when i'm feeling deliciously happy and bubbly like this whole week kinda mood, i accidentally phrase things in a um..weird way and say stuffs that sound kinda freakishly dumb. lol. Like what i said to sam and jiemin and xiuyi. And they had a good time laughing at it. I admit lah, even i couldn't believe i said that. Lol.

what time is it? hahahaha.

2008-04-29T20:19:00.004+08:00

Hi Miss Alice.
With glass eyes
What kind of a dream
Are you able to have?
Are you entranced by?
For me still
My heart tears apart
And flows out
Memories
Pierce into
The mended crevice
[cello]
Hi Miss Alice..
With your sincere lips
to who is love being...
...discarded to?
...grieved to?
I again, spin words around..
under a fever.
Reality, come~
To love is to sing and yet...
I can not sing...
Still, you do not answer.
[cello]

Vampire Knight ending 1. Fwooh.
Yayayayayay!
mood: bubbling happy.
=D

watched om shanti om last saturday. not bad le. hahaha...
omg failed my sbj napfa. hurrr...gonna chiong for 2.4 run.
saw the guys running so damn fast lah. walao eh.
like 4 minutes 4 rounds. siao lah.
ok..MOTIVATION! Yosh yosh yosh!
feel like i'm releasing bankai or something.

got so many pics to upload. dun want to upload lah.
and lot 1 is definitely bigger and better! =D

*i'm afraid to wish for more. i'm obliged to be happy just the way it is now. even though it's getting harder to listen to someone sometimes. well. just my luck.

i'm searching desperately for the fight theme songs for jubei chan. sugoi! the theme song is just...sublimely pleasurable! anyone who has it! i want!

2008-04-24T20:49:00.003+08:00

This week i'm a happy girl lah.
XD

Yesterday played mastermind with Lina @ the sanctuary. Damn funny laah..hints and stuffs...ichigo and kamane and kanda and zero. And mixing up hair colours..hahahahahah!!

Yeah..just now eat @ ljs with lina hidaya and jiemin ah. The last girl very funny. Keep spouting stuff one. Like bengawan solo become: beng-i-want-solo. wth....haha..then dunno y suddenly i feel inspired to teach her the relationship between vntr and rflp using french fries.

OMG SPEAKING OF THAT I STILL HAVEN'T STUDIED A BLOODY THING. AAH I HATE THIS TOPIC.

then we went comics connection!! no vampire knight stuff though=(
wanna buy a lot of stuffs.
1. mama's bday
2. mother's day
3. new watch
4. new wallet
5. have to pay tuition 220 bucks next week.

i feel drained. omg

oooooooh but today..TODAY i can't describe today. it's sublime! AHAHAHA. lina and izz ah...giggle giggle. Rarrr. but nehmind..still ok =D
i word: SHIOK

bought purple scrunchie.
whee.
it rhymes!

and a horrendous thing just happened to me after charliechan. won't discuss it. ugh. MALU.

i spy with my little eye a horribly busy week next week.
ah motivation, motivation, wherefore art thou, motivation?

2008-04-22T18:21:00.003+08:00

She told him that she believes in living,
Bigger than she's living now
But her world keeps spinning backwards and upside-down
Don't say so-long, and throw yourself wrong
Don't spend today away,
'cause today will soon be Gone,
like yesterday is gone,
Like history is gone,
Just try and prove me wrong,
and pretend like you're immortal.
Don't say so-long,
andwe're not that far gone
This could be your big chance to make-up
Today will soon be Gone,
like yesterday is gone
Like history is gone,
The world keeps spinning on
You're going, going, gone,
Like summer break is gone,
Like Saturday is gone,
Just try and prove me wrong and pretend like you're immortal
We are not infinite
We are not permanent
Nothing is immediate
Bits of confidence in our accomplishments
Look at our decadence
Gone, like Frank Sinatra,
Like Elvis and his mom
Like Al Pacino's cash,
Nothing lasts in this life
My high school dreams are gone
My childhood sweets are gone
Life is a day that doesn't last for long
Life is more than money
Time was never money
Time was never cash
Life is still more than girls
Life is more than hundred-dollar bills and roto-tom fills
Life is more than fame and rock and roll and thrills
All the riches of the kings end up in wills
We've got information in the information age,
But do we know what life is
Outside of our convenient Lexus cages?

-GONE by SWITCHFOOT

Did you wake up on the right or the wrong side of the bed today?

Maybe your morning’s running right on time or a little late

Head out

Traffic’s slow on the interstate

Take the back way

Will this be a good or a bad day?

Well don’t you worry

I could be your sunshine girl

Or the company for your misery

I could be the quiet one

Or the life of the party

Whatever you need,

I’m your girl

When you show up does everybody smile and wave or look away?

Are you feeling beautiful or is this a bad hair day?

Maybe you’re falling so in love or your heart is about to break

Will this be a good or a bad day?

Well either way

Go ahead, freak out

I’m gonna stay

So if you’re happy or sad,

well baby, you can look my way

-SUNSHINE GIRL by BRITT NICOLE

Excerpts from songs. To myself and hidaya. =D

lina lina lina. haha. ok, u got my head full. but u only hear what u want to, right? haha. mou daijoubu.

=D=D=D=D=D

itami des.

my finger is swollen.

oohmygod.

but it's better than yesterday. yokatta. =D

woah nowadays i feel that i'm getting sleepier and sleepier in lectures.

gotta buck up.

the ending for zettai kareshi is sad.

*cries*

2008-04-21T16:28:00.002+08:00

i'm in great pain.
oh yeahhh...
ouch
my little finger.
the one that holds the wedding ring
that sam is gonna give tmr.
*cough*hahaha
apparently sonia got hit too.
and hers is as swollen as mine.
but hers is her pinky.
gosh i can't even type properly.

go doctor? aiyah, later the doc go and do funny funny stuff.
but i think it's preferable as she's certified, unlike my mom.
in any case, i think it's a safer option to go to the doc.
Wooh. pain sia.
it turned a funny blue, then a blushing kind of red.
and then a mesh.
can't write properly.
sock mui commented that the way i write is cool coz my hand will be off the table.
hahah.

sheesh. i'm a total slacker. i dun feel that i deserve some of the grades i got.
someone else should get the highest in class for gp coz i'm clueless about certain stuffs in the world.
really.
doesn't mean u can write well u can therefore fake your way through general knowledge.
i feel dejected and this huge responsibility just got imposed upon me.
and some other subjects as well.
no use mulling about this here.
well.
maybe perhaps i should be proactive: read the papers more instead of gorging on anime.
but hey, i have my right to live the way i want to right?
government intervention, anyone?

ok, ja ne..

for lina, who shares a passion for Vampire Knights:
http://jinnjinx.deviantart.com/art/Cosplay-Vampire-Knight-54248394

http://hanahiwatari.deviantart.com/art/Zero-of-Vampire-Knight-81556024
http://treezoid.deviantart.com/art/vampire-knight-ep2-pic6-82875204

2008-04-20T09:02:00.004+08:00

which geek pasted this outside our school?

ok, very very tired to type, so shall upload photos. a picture speaks a thousand words they say.

me. the mature one. all hail thee.

omg omg. very funny pic. got old man's head.

bestfriends.

hidaya and her junk food: keropok lekor. heh heh.

friday before pe. wah..i can chiong one round run fast fast on the track but then ah suddenly got cramp. diao. circuit is better though. izzati and lina and hidaya now likes to distract me in class. one day... one day...

didn't meet mrs chan. didn't get results slip.

didn't eat sushi. ah..kebabs!!!<3>

maann...really tired. dunno why. well, off to loading up my usual fare of anime before doing hw. sayonaras=)

2008-04-17T14:56:00.003+08:00

Ahh..hahaha...
blogging with lina in school now.

Ah...today is a fantastic day..hehehe.
Kehehehehe.
omg i'm suddenly reduced to giggling.

Hehehe.

Checklist:
` bio tys
` virus tut

Heheeheheheh.

eh today the topping was separated. mine incomplete dessert. lina happy seh. keheheheheheh.

aw man saturday is gonna be BOH-RINGG! Y did i encourage? i'm mad at myself now. should've said something, anything to hopefully generate a positive feedback. but no0o0o...i encouraged...eh, lina? booooohoooooo!

thou art to me a delicious torment =D

2008-04-16T18:36:00.007+08:00

good stuffs:

~ gp teacher never come...90 minutes of free period! Yosh!

~ chatting about anime and jap stuffs

~ watching bleach 166 on wenxi's player..ICHIGO VS GRIMMJOW! WOOO!

~ being 'immature' with lina =D
[we (lina and me), the 18 yr olds were giggling and acting oh so childishly while the 17 yr olds(hidaya and izz) were walking oh so maturely behind us....]

~ carrying out lina and izzati's 'engagement' HEHEHEHEHE

~ kakashi at canteen during gp debate

~ walking home with hidaya

bad stuffs:

~ work to be completed for gp lesson

~ chatting about anime and jap stuffs under the hot sweltering singapore sun

~ coz there was the oh-so-important fire drill

~ bio tys, bio part c tutorial, gp essay mindmap, math pnc tutorial

~ moody

~ problems...but prolly i should not think too much about them

~ can't sleep at night nowadays

~ seem to be spouting more crap more often

Derek posing as Captain Jack Sparrow. and his 2 fangirls.

blah. didn't really listen to the UN debate. it got sort of cool when the audience participated, but other than that, it's a draaaaag.

2 act cute ppl here omg.
2 cool ppl here omg.

ok i'm hooked on good charlotte =)

2008-04-15T16:17:00.004+08:00

I detest e learning day.

Why do at home when u can do it more efficiently at sch?

GAH.

lousy server also.

fishsticks.

the only high point was when s04 msn together. wah shiokah! ahaha..but then iz came so had to continue gp. damn gp! =(

*some rants that u would probably not understand coz it's all in my head*:

i know that if i wanna be 'happy', it sometimes starts with me-my own initiative to brighten up my outlook on life.
i think i'm beginning to lose my touch on these things.
the ability apparently came in short gasps, going away as quickly and suddenly as it comes.

omg!-i think i'm beginning to see a little eensy weensy resemblance of what's going on here.
better slip on a leash around this before it gets any worse and history repeats itself.

my sis told me something hilarious just now. it's about her f&n teacher (who was my home econs teacher last time in cckss). her teacher had a baaaad week and she took it out on her class (poor things!).
well, she saw a boy spilling milk all over the saucepan and she screamed at him.

then, wielding a CHOPPER, she did a chopping motion with her hand and shouted, "if u come near me i will chop off your hand!"

oh boy. the glorious madness that is all-consuming.
then it was my sis's turn (heh heh heh).
the teacher was scolding another girl to "clean your dustbin!" when my sis walked in front of her. my sis instinctively rolled her eyes and then WHAM!

mad teacher: "NADIAH! WHY DID U ROLL YOUR EYES TO THE HEAVENS WHEN I'M SCOLDING YOUR FRIEND?"...."APOLOGIZE!"

*cue for song Apologize by Timbaland*

sis: "Sorry Mrs ___"

at the moment when my sis said 'sorry', mad teacher goes : "U SHOULD BE!"

and heaven have mercy on the crushed soul of my poor sis coz the whole school can hear them.

it doesn't end here though.

a while later, my sis was having a bored look on her face when mad teacher suddenly pounced:"NADIAH! SEE SHE IS STILL DEFIANT. MIGHT AS WELL PACK YOUR BAG AND GO!"

sis was in a blur state and nearly packed her bag. mad teacher was holding up a pair of jellyfish molds.

mad teacher: Mrs i'm-on-a-strict-healthy-purple-fruits-especially-prunes-diet. apparently that's what they call her nowadays.

2008-04-15T09:21:00.004+08:00

" And now i can see how fake it can be
This hypocrisy is beginning to get to me"

- sum 41 : over my head

E learning day is today.

asyikin is an unstable compound these past few weeks.

0.o

she had went thru a few kinds of weeks these past few weeks:

there is the fever/sick week,
the unbelievably crazy amount of hw to do week,
the come-back-home-unbelievably-late-due-to-tuition-3 times a week week
and the 'revelations' week,

omg now i keep repeating the word week in my head it seems like a foreign thing to me.

why are a lot of ppl going moody nowadays? eh...?

gonna watch a few episodes of kamisama kazoku before doing the portal thingys.

ciao~

thou art to me a delicious torment

2008-04-12T10:45:00.004+08:00

Child Soldier : Ishamel Bael

we have a romanticised notion of war. think gundam anime.

What American soldiers are teaching Iraqi kids

what a freaking jerk. if i'm god, i would have striked him there and then that bullshitting piece of soldier.

2008-04-12T09:21:00.003+08:00

ITACHI! Why must he die? omg......=( i had a nagging suspicion that he's a good guy. and guess what? he IS!! i hope sasuke finally teams back with naruto to defeat madara. i prefer the original team 7 =(. sai is not bad tho. but just cannot replace sasuke. ah damn. first jiraiya. now itachi. who's next?

"there is one man i need to kill." ~sasuke

yesterday was one of my top 5 most sleepy day. i think it's my number four. even tho i slept only at 11.30 the night before, i didn't manage to complete my hws. woke up next morning but my head still sleepy. during bio lect, i swear if i close my eyes longer than 5 secs i will fall asleep. derek was already dozing off occasionally and im oh so tempted to do so except that i can't coz ms yap has a direct view of me. then later there's 2.4km run. sheesh. seriously. how can u run when ur brain pleads for u to sleep and ur feet are trapped in damp socks from the morning rain? =(

congrats to s04 for excellent pw results=D

yesterday, some things happened which made me think:

how can u explain if u like someone even though he is behaving idiotically towards u or any other ppl for that matter?
do u follow ur heart or ur brain?
what if religion is an issue? is any of the parties involved willing to sacrifice?
but...

what if u like someone. but this other friend of urs likes u and is sweet towards u and acknowledge u, not at all like the guy u like. then do u feel obliged to like that person back instead of who u truly like?

ah forget it.

~~
watched bleach 166. the coolest episode so far. im so touched by some parts of that episode. see how much anime can teach u?
ichigo was so sad and cool at the last part after orihime shouted her support.
aw damn.
wistful thinking.

off to do gp reesearch. child soldiers. more sad stuff. haish.

2008-04-09T21:21:00.008+08:00

u know something that is so damn obvious and u just have to pretend u don't know it and it's so

bloody irritating coz it's clashing with your own interest and worse still, u have to bloody put up a

sort of charade which i find is a very hypocrite thing to do but u just can't help it or u'd go

freaking mad, and to top it all, u are so damn bloody shy that u just can't match up, so u end up

seething within and nothing can douse the frustration.

what to do. chill.

thou art to me a delicious torment. hehe XD

~ ~

so me, maziah, kk and eling joined this youth photography awards or something like that. motivated by little else other than the top prize money of $5000. there's a 2nd and 3rd too. and fantastically, consolation prizes of $500!

shiokah!

BEING IDIOTICALLY LOCKED IN YOUR OWN CCA ROOM IS FREAKING RIDICULOUS BUT YEAH, THAT JUST HAPPENED TO ME. thanks to SOMEONE for that once in a lifetime experience.
GOT OTHER GUYS SOME MORE OUTSIDE WATCHING THE WHOLE SPECTACLE OF ME YELLING FOR someone TO OPEN THE DOOR. and when THAT SOMEONE finally decided to release me from my prison, she fumbled and the guys had to help. really. OMG. it's damn embarassing.
ARGHH.
and in retribution, i tried pouring the water in her waterbottle over her. but we were laughing so damn hard until our sides ached and i had no more strength so we looked very the pathetic, a heap of laughing sillies on the grass behind the odac room. but yeh, i finally did it and look at the culprit's handprints on the ground:

and i recently received a mail from Times magazine, asking me to do a survey. and woo surprise surprise! there's a US$1 bill enclosed in it! a non-specimen one! apparently as a yoken of their appreciation. how cool! in jiemin's words, "sugoi!!" so i decided to enthusiastically pin it up on my board in my room, like a motivation for me $$$$. =)

(btw, u should have seen my board during common test week: choke full of notes and reminders...YUCKS)

doko made yukeru ka?

2008-04-09T12:34:00.001+08:00

it's always the smile. i guess. =)

mood: jubilantly elated for no apparent reason.perhaps.

2008-04-08T12:18:00.002+08:00

thou art to me a delicious torment.

i think i'm close to reverting back to my old depression mood already.

i don't want that.

help.

ok. shall think happy thoughts from now onwards.

my friends help though =)

yep!

the mountain of hw is slowly diminishing.

thankshzz alot hidaya for that wonderful lift-my-mood effort just now after math u gave me.

really appreciate it =)

esters and strawberries. what do they have in common? lols.

what is asyikin's fav word? uhmmm.

woooh bio was superb! too bad i had to bathe, and there was nothing i could do to prevent water from erasing all the shiokness. hm. this paragraph sounds suspicious and weird and doesn't make any sense.

annnnd lina. i not jealous! MUAHAHAHA. in fact, dunno why i feel sort of happy. eh? weirdnye! ew.

i guess i'm totemo confused right now. sigghs.

asyikin has this tendency to land herself in stupid situations where she will probably sink like in a quicksand to nothingness and everythingness.

little miss independent by kelly clarkson. lols.

when WHEN can i go home early?! Been going home at 10pm!!! Kuso.

kyou wa totemo samui neh?

i think-no-i AM ignorant. i guess. compared to some others. sighhs.

strange people and even stranger feelings.

ever had the feeling u wanna silencio and muffliato everyone around u?

or just avada kedavra them?

..yeah.

i am a happy person. pls think happy thoughts. rar.

for his sake perhaps.

2008-04-08T00:06:00.002+08:00

OMG i can't believe i stayed up till 12am DOING GP! POLITICS some more! =(
Lucky got hidaya accompany =D

thou still art to me a delicious torment. =D

2008-04-07T22:32:00.003+08:00

thou art to me a delicious torment.

SUPER

Woa. I just found out that i lost 2.4 kg in a week. Why? Coz of my super high 39.6 degrees celsius fever i guess. No appetite until like that. Waw. Eh, but no complaints from me heh heh heh.

Wah..gonna be a super week man. Super everything.

Super hw week.

Super tutorial week (esp gp and bio).

Super tuition week (coz of organic make-up).

Super happy week (hope so =D).

Super jealous week (ewh, hope NOT).

Super TIRED week thanks to pe.

Talking about pe, we had such a FUN pe lesson just now!! Woo0o0. Played alien vs predator. Then after that stations, but this one time own target is fun especially coz we're in pairs. And not to mention can slack a bit hehehe. Then came the most fun part! We all lay our heads on our friends stomach, making into a chain of s04. So when one laugh, the stomach vibrate and our heads go boing boing boing, and it's quite funny so we all were laughing. and worse, we had to say 'ha's plus one each time. I kena 10 'haha's. Pity the last person.

Really got alot of hw le. Or i think it's just me and my procrastination.

Well done.

2008-04-06T14:21:00.004+08:00

thou art to me a delicious torment.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY mrs KANDA-ZARAKI Lina!!

Hahaha..well..this is it: the mms i tried sending u. But something with the service provider. Can't deliver =(.

Courageously taken during a gp class, before i carelessly spilled half the contents in my water bottle all over my desk in s03 classroom, while we were busy talking about Kandas and Ichigos and Zarakis and Kakashis. Hehe.

I could feel that this is another weekend wasted. Ok, maybe i shouldn't be so bad to use the word wasted when all i did was to catch up with family members. But yeah, nothing academically productive from me.

Yesterday, watched the first part of Red Dragon on channel 5. A particular image stuck to my mind, somewhat subconsciously..the one where an eye is about to be gouged out.

Then, i went to sleep (my mom insists that i shouldn't be watching a gruesome show. like, really.). And dreamt some twisted dreams. Tunnels. Trapped. Missing people. And i got one eye dug out by someone. So i was walking around closing one eye like Kakashi does when he's using sharingan. And in the dreams, i was constantly changing character. Like i was looking like a hovering spirit above the peoples in my dream, then the next thing i knew, i was them. Woke up feeling strangely calm, yet disoriented.

to hidaya: at the touch of love, my dear, everyone becomes a poet =)

2008-04-04T19:23:00.007+08:00

thou art to me a delicious torment

today was the slackiest day evah.

whole day did bio. first lesson: bio lecture. second lesson: bio tutorial. meet mr wong: go through bio tys.

bio.

then jeng jeng jeng! labrador park! tunnels! fantasizing about them tunnels leading to a magick filled place. nothing of that sort happened though.

the best part was when the guide switched off every single light source. we were in a narrow corridor flanked by brick walls with a smattering of dark blotches and splatters. and i was literally breathless with anticipation of what i am about to experience.

and then there was darkness.

but this was more than darkness. this is a black hole. blacker than black.

it's exhilarating, yet absolutely disconcerting.

in my primary sch essays, i always use the phrase 'i couldn't even see my own hand before my face'. now i understand the gravity of what i wrote.

i shut my eyes. tightly. then i opened them back. but it makes no difference at all whether i open or close them. the darkness invades. it's everywhere. it's absolute.

it's overwhelming. i think i'm in love with this feeling. this feeling of being sublimely pleasured by experiencing something awesome.

i wish i could explore that darkness again.

and them tunnels. oh my god. it makes me shudder to envision soldiers with their harried expressions navigating the narrow tubes, delivering, of all things, shells and ammos and rifles.

these tunnels smell of death and decay. of utter desolation and despondency. =(

in those tunnels, i tried to invent a scenario where they were under siege. the soldiers panicking underground while sounds of blasts and explosions were heard above. like the hammer of thor coming down upon them, inflicting fear and terror of impending death..underground.

since i'm one of the privileged who lives in sunny serene singapore, these emotions i feel are precious. coz people across the globe have been and still are experiencing the horrors of war.

on a lighter note, my aunt is coming back tmr! can't wait to see 3 yr old adam hafiz! kyah! but there's a ton of work that needs to be done. chikusho.

mdm lin has the cutest and most charming 6(?) yr old son i've ever met. MUAHAHAHA.

it's a good life. =DDDDDD i'm happy on something now.

hidaya managed to scare me again by pretending there's something on the ground which i'm about to step on, but which actually doesn't. BAH.

hidaya and sam and izz and wenxi and me did stupid stuffs at the camera. and i managed to capture 2 jumps shots omg how pro can i possibly get cheybah! GLOAT.

one word that sums up our mini outing just now: fun.

Michelle's book from which she is learning jap.

Our personal beautician.

At the tunnels: cam-whoring.

altogether now izzati, quote derek: "insanity is doing the same things over and over again and expecting different results."

2008-04-03T20:57:00.000+08:00

thou art to me a delicious torment.

laughed like 2 crazy crazy CRAZY idiots after tuition. I sang an apparently freaky version of do re mi and hidaya cracked up. On the elevator. Think we scared the crap out of the little girl in front of us.

then there was the 'ELEHH'. And 'ELLLEH' and 'EEELEH'. ok, nevermind.

and i vaguely recall someone called asyikin claiming to 'be the next jk rowling'.

and hidaya's face was freakishly red. from laughing.

realised that i had mood swings this whole entire damneddisgustingbelchinglyidioticyo-yoisharse of a week.

even today had little effect on my mood.

the question is, why?

yup. why? doushite?

dunno.

o god..i don't want to go imh.

please please don't make me go to that place...(hm..maybe it's gonna be interestingg...)

can i rant a bit? ok here goes:

just now during break i sat with shahidah, sonia and huiling to ask them something. suddenly, the councillor sat down with us and started asking us about school values omfg what is this.

the f in omfg is freaking btw. i rarely mean the other word except when i'm pissed to the power of a million.

i listed down the stuffs i'm supposed to do and shit i have a lot. dunno where to start. bio tys n97 and n98, chem equilibrium, summation, bio mindmap, gp singapore healthcare 3M, meet mr wong, meet ms lee and ultimately, organise my notes and tutorials in my drawer that has a very high entropy right now. my saturday is already gone coz we going airport coz my aunt is coming to stay in singapore after like 5 years in CA.

which leaves me with only sunday and even that is not guranteed. sure got reunion gathering or whatnot. shit lah. how how how how how how? i'm so stressed that not even ichigo can lift my spirit. bah. johnny depp also no use now.

ok, maybe that second last sentence i was lying.

coz i'm positive i'm feeling slightly happier right now. =)
see, i can even smile.

omg just had a crazy msn with jiemin loading up on stupid cute pics. LOL.

2008-04-02T10:25:00.000+08:00

Ok Hidaya: I read Bleach manga 316 already. Hahaha...what the hell is the Royal Guards?

This is Nell. She was the #3 Arranca. Yesterday, hidaya said i'm Nell.

I think she meant the other version of Nell:

Coz Nell always seem to have unbelievably disgusting mucus hanging from her nose. And i'm having running nose! AHHHH. I can't breathe properly.

And i didn't get very far trying to read bio spa either.

Hahaha...and i found this funny strip:

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

really.

i just feel disengaged with reality.

in this meritocratic world, can i make it out there with what i have?

and i don't think it stops at meritocracy only.

the world, it seems, can be a hypocrite. heaping us with lies. feeding us with charades.

and in the end, what are we left with?

our maimed and broken dreams.

and as i scoff and curse the rituals of the savants,

i am percipient that i, of all horrors, am well mired in this.

listen people! they say. you can't just 'make it'! you can"t just 'pass'.

you've got to 'make it BIG! a star! in your own right or otherwise, you've got to carve a name for yourselves, for goodness sake. at least get into harvard. or make your first million at 20.

u see.

it's a big world out there. and i'm feeling the jitters.

who doesn't?

2008-03-30T18:42:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, went vivo. Then felt so sick. Turns out i have fever. 38.6 degrees celsius. But by the time i went to the doctor, my temp was 37.2. So he gave me only a couple of pink pills. Then today, woke up at 9.30 and my temp was 38.6 back. Felt so heaty sia..no mood. Food turns bitter. Then halfway doing math i fell asleep and didn't go tuition.

Damn..missed an important topic. Woke up to find 6 smses from hidaya (hahaha..gomen gomen!). AND my temp soared to 39.6 degrees celsius. I was like omg my enzymes are either going crazy or denaturing. My mom sponged me with ice cold water and bombarded me with glasses and glasses of water. Peeing spree, i tell u. But my temp went down to 38.8, so i guess it's effective.

Ah, i love my parents =D.

And i WANNA go sch so badly tmr =D. <3

2008-03-29T09:36:00.000+08:00

Tobi=Obito!!!!!!!!!!

*pulls at hair*

Going vivo. =D
My watch died on me while running 2.4 yesterday =(.